My deep love for any and all opiates but im tired of chasing the dragon

[opiatekiller91]

Hello all I is new here So here is my story some time ago about 3 years now I started using opiates before that when I was young I got into his mothers painkillers hydro 10/325 overdosed a few times well almost did puking and losing conciousness anyway my mother ended up losing her legit prescription because of me she ran out and went to have her monthly drug test and refill no opiates found so needless to say she lost em I felt so horrible

I didnt touch them for years well I moved out got married all that good stuff and met a neighbor that at the time had no idea the value of 10/325 hydros so I got 60 from him every month for >no prices<! And thats how it started it started as a once a month go on a binge eat em up and not touch em.till the next refill this went on for about 6 months then I found myself craving them.

so I got in touch with an old buddy who sells always has them never seems to run out so needless to say I have become an extreme addict can eat up 120 10s in less than 2 days has to take 12 as soon as his eyes open in the morning just to get moving and will eat anything can get hands on if it has any kind of opiate in it I will take it ended up losing his job and catching a felony theft charge because he was stealing from work to fund this taking money out of the bank even went back to.taking his mothers and from friends.

i owe a friend the one i got.in touch with a 1500$ bill because my friend is a very good trusting friend and I am currently trying to pay it off I have sold everything I own will pretty much do anything to get them with the exception of gay things I says no thank you I'm not that desperate lol I had a 500mg a day hydro habit for 2 years the tolerance to these things are insane even oxy morphine dilauded etc etc the tolerance is so high I would choke trying to swallow it all before the actual medication would kill me and 500mg hydro a day im sure u can imagine the tylenol intake sheesh if I go more than an hour or 2 withdrawals begin to set in that quick.

I am tired of chasing the dragon sad thing is I need these for a legit collapsed disc in spine but cant afford the dr as I make no lie 300$ a month they have taken my life over it started as legit pain control woul love to stop and get them legally through a dr that way I could taper down and take 4 times a day as normal but there is no stopping cold turkey the withdrawals are so insanely excrutiating that I have considered suicide to stop the pain the addiction and the withdrawals what should I do is he to far gone to stop alone cold turkey or is rehab a must any support or help would be amazing thanks everyone so much in advance for everything

 

[T. Calderone]

Hi opiatekiller, welcome to Bluelight. Please familiarize yourself with the forum guidelines. We don't use swim here, it doesn't protect you and is confusing for the reader. So you may want to edit your post, include punctuation and paragraphs. Thanks

 

[Edaw'Naflagn]

Try to get some xanax and use that to help beat the WD, then get only a little bit of hydro, hide the rest or ask someone to hide it for you. Take only a bit to kill off some of the WD, IF NEEDED use xanax, or maybe a weak barb like butialbital but DONT use barbs/benzo's a lot just only for sleep or if you're getting close to the end of WD to chill a bit. Hope you get better man and another choice is get suboxone from your doctor and just tell him the truth. You may lose access to painkillers but at least you'll be free, if you really want that.

 

[opiatekiller91]

I do wanna be free. however with a collapsed spinal disk and bad knees upon other ailments i dont want to lose access to possible legit scripts in the future. No health insurance at the moment. Cant afford the extremely expensive dr visits subs would be an absolute last result. I figure i made my bed ya know i know it wont kill me but i need to stop till i do get that legit script lol.

 

[Runtoparadise]

Have a read of some of my posts, I feel your agony man. I know you say you can't see a doctor, isn't there some sort of welfare or a healthcare clinic you could go?

I've posted extensively about how lyrica (pregabalin), helps opiate withdrawls. Think there's even a mega thread on here.

Other than that, the usual kind of advice you'll get is can you get someone to hold & dispense for you?

Rtp

 

[T. Calderone]

Moving to The Dark Side

 

[chitownskag]

I'm new on here too bro, trying to figure this out, and hope I'm posting in the right spot.
But anyway my buddy igg was into heroin for about 7 years. Then got prescribed 16 mg of suboxone, and stupidly took as prescribed for 2 years and about 2 months ago Igg moved out to Arizona and have been out of bupe for about 3 weeks now, closest bupe Dr. Is 150 miles away.
How igg's been getting through the withdrawals is kratom. There are downside's about kratom like withdrawal from it, but there not even close to as bad as bupe, or any full agonist.. And its really easy to taper off and legal in most states.