my box

[mashead testing]

I look at the bigger picture
but its not moving
a picture so still
nothings improving
I open the box
the box that everything came with
but dont find any instructions
lost in delusions
Something which was once connected
taken off, crossed over and affected
all memories likes pictures
an artist paints in 3 colours
A colour for memories
A colour for reality
A colour for light
when all is said and done, its just an emotion
So putting something before my eyes
might restart the game
maybe not knowing whats ahead of me
is what keeps me going
But knowing whats behind me
is why I am slowing
so many buts or ifs and whys
all in this box of mine
My box like a religion
carry it everywhere with me
so many thoughts and emotions
everything closed in though
Open the box again
its different somethings changed
close the box again
and everythings the same
Changes but stays the same
like the picture its still
you can look from here or there
and it appears different
But its always the same
look at the bigger picture
we cant see the depth of the colour
the truth behind the brush strokes
Maybe not now but soon,
always telling myself soon
is now too soon
no now is the time, always