Wow...where do I begin...
Okay, ill start with this:
Dose: 2.5 gel caps of dry grinded shrooms...and then reality was gone...
I dosed them, was feeling good was with my friend X...we dosed, played music, danced around, and then went for a walkt...
I was starting to trip, but felt nothing of it because i could handle all the acid in the world...but this was different, very different...
We came back to my apartment and took a few gravity bong hits---then I started going into some INSANE loops...
My friend dave had brought over his new gun and bullets earlier this week, and I was talking to him online...this somehow reminded me of his gun and the fact that I hate guns...and the fact that there was a gun in my apartment...
I all of a sudden thought my tripping partner X was this guy dave, and all of a sudden i thought he had shot me and this was all just part of the trip. I could actually feel the gunshot wound in my stomach, and all of a sudden all i could do was say "please take me to the hosopital", and my friend was in complete disbelief...I really had thought this was all a big setup to kill me...but my mind was more SHOCKED than scared...it was as if it was too unreal to be real, and beyond my perecpetion...
At this point i started calling friends from back home, telling them i was shot and really was going to die---i thought this at the time....But they kept telling me it was just drugs and I would be okay---somewhere deep down inside i knew this, but it was all disbelief...i had mindfucked myself beyond coming back...
Somehow i was transported, to a different time and different place---i was transported to my ONLY bad psychedelic experience...I was back at this rave Amoeba where i was convinced i had died of a drug overdose...and somehow my mind convinced me none of this was real. It was beyond perception, I didnt know what to make of it...I called a friend and had him come pick me up from my apartment...he drove me to his place...all of a sudden reality caught up with me. It was as if i was thrown into a place that was unreal.
Everyone here had pre-programmed reponses to my replies. I asked them all to take me to the hospital but they took my pulse and breathe and told me I was okay and had to ride it out. I was not coherent. I didnt even know who or what I was and where I was. My mind had been twisted. I was miles from home, my pockets contained nothing (the kid who picked me up took my wallet, keys, and cell phone to prevent me from losing them, but i didnt know this)
I didnt know what my purpose was, I thought I had died and was reborn. I thought that my existance up until this point was meaningless. Time had no meaning, Dimension was not itself...existance was not normal. Everything seemed to be conjured up within my own mind. I could not grasp what this reality was...
I cannot put into words what was going through my mind and what i was thinking. It was *like a giant de-ja-voo. LIke i had died earlier and this was a repetion. Not so much scary as it was shocking, i didnt think anything or my reactions to things were real. Everything was scripted, and my place in events was not real...I eventually was brought back home where i walked to my door and the door was UNLOCKED....I had been brought back home but my secure apartment was in jepordy. I didnt know what was inside waiting for me---so I went through every room expecting to find someone waiting with a gun to shoot me---but to my luck no such thing happened...
I soon realized what had happened, and real life was slowly creeping up on me but i still could not comprened...someone abouta mile from me was having a keg party and called me to tell me to come, so i showered, walked there (still confused), and started drinking...I wanted to stop the insanity but it wouldnt...
THen a friend showed up and told me he was going to a local party downtown (trance), so i expressed interest in going (why not, nothing is real...I should go and see how deep this dimension goes)...well I went...and i walked inside...and suddenly everything made sense...
I knew my name again, I knew my purpose...euphoria creeped across my body...the lights, the sounds, the vibe...it was beyond describable...it was as if I had died and was suddenly reborn again...Everything seemed to suddenly come to the present, and the past events seemed dumb and meaningless---I was tripping out because of things blown up in my own mind...it was more spiritual than scary, and i expected it to be like acid trips, but it was nothing like that...
The trance beats swept across my soul, letting life back into me. The uplifting music, the vibe, the people dancing suddenly made me feel safe and warm. The reality of the situation suddenly came upon me, and a warmth spread throughout my soul...it was as if life itself suddenly caught up to my own mind...
Euphoria does not describe what this did to me
I was back in my own body, my ego present once again, I could control by breathing and heart-rate, but i could do nothing but dance
A smile crept across my face, as the beats got happier and faster...
I was back in my own existance, my own time...
I do not think I can understand this experience yet, as i feel i am still in it. I would just like to say thank you all, bluelight has been an inspiration and a drive to me
Music is my life
life itself is positive, and good to be in
I am humbled forever, and new ideas/images spread across my psyche
i am forever changed and humbled
new perspectives tommorow, I wouldnt say this was a bad trip, maybe just a more of a wake up call to some things in my own mind
you are not ready for every psychedelic experience as i thought i was
reality is what you make of it
time is what you make of it
existance is what you make of it...
more tommorow, love you all
~hydra
Okay, ill start with this:
Dose: 2.5 gel caps of dry grinded shrooms...and then reality was gone...
I dosed them, was feeling good was with my friend X...we dosed, played music, danced around, and then went for a walkt...
I was starting to trip, but felt nothing of it because i could handle all the acid in the world...but this was different, very different...
We came back to my apartment and took a few gravity bong hits---then I started going into some INSANE loops...
My friend dave had brought over his new gun and bullets earlier this week, and I was talking to him online...this somehow reminded me of his gun and the fact that I hate guns...and the fact that there was a gun in my apartment...
I all of a sudden thought my tripping partner X was this guy dave, and all of a sudden i thought he had shot me and this was all just part of the trip. I could actually feel the gunshot wound in my stomach, and all of a sudden all i could do was say "please take me to the hosopital", and my friend was in complete disbelief...I really had thought this was all a big setup to kill me...but my mind was more SHOCKED than scared...it was as if it was too unreal to be real, and beyond my perecpetion...
At this point i started calling friends from back home, telling them i was shot and really was going to die---i thought this at the time....But they kept telling me it was just drugs and I would be okay---somewhere deep down inside i knew this, but it was all disbelief...i had mindfucked myself beyond coming back...
Somehow i was transported, to a different time and different place---i was transported to my ONLY bad psychedelic experience...I was back at this rave Amoeba where i was convinced i had died of a drug overdose...and somehow my mind convinced me none of this was real. It was beyond perception, I didnt know what to make of it...I called a friend and had him come pick me up from my apartment...he drove me to his place...all of a sudden reality caught up with me. It was as if i was thrown into a place that was unreal.
Everyone here had pre-programmed reponses to my replies. I asked them all to take me to the hospital but they took my pulse and breathe and told me I was okay and had to ride it out. I was not coherent. I didnt even know who or what I was and where I was. My mind had been twisted. I was miles from home, my pockets contained nothing (the kid who picked me up took my wallet, keys, and cell phone to prevent me from losing them, but i didnt know this)
I didnt know what my purpose was, I thought I had died and was reborn. I thought that my existance up until this point was meaningless. Time had no meaning, Dimension was not itself...existance was not normal. Everything seemed to be conjured up within my own mind. I could not grasp what this reality was...
I cannot put into words what was going through my mind and what i was thinking. It was *like a giant de-ja-voo. LIke i had died earlier and this was a repetion. Not so much scary as it was shocking, i didnt think anything or my reactions to things were real. Everything was scripted, and my place in events was not real...I eventually was brought back home where i walked to my door and the door was UNLOCKED....I had been brought back home but my secure apartment was in jepordy. I didnt know what was inside waiting for me---so I went through every room expecting to find someone waiting with a gun to shoot me---but to my luck no such thing happened...
I soon realized what had happened, and real life was slowly creeping up on me but i still could not comprened...someone abouta mile from me was having a keg party and called me to tell me to come, so i showered, walked there (still confused), and started drinking...I wanted to stop the insanity but it wouldnt...
THen a friend showed up and told me he was going to a local party downtown (trance), so i expressed interest in going (why not, nothing is real...I should go and see how deep this dimension goes)...well I went...and i walked inside...and suddenly everything made sense...
I knew my name again, I knew my purpose...euphoria creeped across my body...the lights, the sounds, the vibe...it was beyond describable...it was as if I had died and was suddenly reborn again...Everything seemed to suddenly come to the present, and the past events seemed dumb and meaningless---I was tripping out because of things blown up in my own mind...it was more spiritual than scary, and i expected it to be like acid trips, but it was nothing like that...
The trance beats swept across my soul, letting life back into me. The uplifting music, the vibe, the people dancing suddenly made me feel safe and warm. The reality of the situation suddenly came upon me, and a warmth spread throughout my soul...it was as if life itself suddenly caught up to my own mind...
Euphoria does not describe what this did to me
I was back in my own body, my ego present once again, I could control by breathing and heart-rate, but i could do nothing but dance
A smile crept across my face, as the beats got happier and faster...
I was back in my own existance, my own time...
I do not think I can understand this experience yet, as i feel i am still in it. I would just like to say thank you all, bluelight has been an inspiration and a drive to me
Music is my life
life itself is positive, and good to be in
I am humbled forever, and new ideas/images spread across my psyche
i am forever changed and humbled
new perspectives tommorow, I wouldnt say this was a bad trip, maybe just a more of a wake up call to some things in my own mind
you are not ready for every psychedelic experience as i thought i was
reality is what you make of it
time is what you make of it
existance is what you make of it...
more tommorow, love you all
~hydra
...he told me everything had no sense in his life, he wasn't there at all, like if he was a ghost, also he didn't realize why he was born for. He watched us like "who the hell are u" ,,,