NauseousBeauty
Bluelighter
Dosage: Approximately 3-4 grams
This might be a little shorter than other reports I have written but thats because I'm not comfortable rethinking this experience. I was in my room for this trip, just watching Adult Swim. I drank the mushroom tea between 10:45 and 11:00 PM and it didn't take long to hit me. I remember a few comfortable feelings near the beginning, but those changed in a hurry. I'm not too positive what sent me into my hellish trip, but it really wasn't anything significant to my memory. My memory is hazy, but I remember smoking some weed and then focusing on the tv. The next thing I know I am mumbling random phrases of terror and completely nude. Why did I take my clothes off? I have no fucking clue, but it has happened other times while under the influence of LSA or Mushrooms. One thing that may have started my bad trip was the remote; I accidentally pushed a button that set the TV on mono and I couldn't hear it...once I tried pressing mute with no success, I remember panicking. I remember the volume on the tv going up and down when I wouldn't press the button; I remember seeing blood all over my hands, only to find them clear when I got into the light; I remember this feeling that my face had been torn apart, not the pain of it happening or any pain at all for that matter, I just felt like it was ripped up and it scared me to death.
Before you read the next paragraph, I would like to inform you that when I was watching tv, it didn't feel like tv at all. It seemed like these people were in the same room as me; not all around me obviously, but I think you all may understand.
Another horrid hallucination I had, that seems too real to be a mushroom trip: I was watching the tv and I would see entire commercials that didn't exist. I witnessed a commercial for a show called "Kill Reality" and the commercial was just a bunch of flash imagery of people dying, having sex, and fighting. The entire time, there was the words KILL REALITY flashing across the screen. I don't know if I possibly passed out and saw this in a dream, but it seemed so fucking real. I also was watching a man delivering the news, and he stopped in the middle of his presentation, to look me dead in the eye, and just smiled. I know that may not sound too horrible, but anyone who has been in a bad trip should be able to understand the fear that was introduced into my fragile skull when I witnessed that twisted grin.
As some background information; when I do shrooms, I often concoct a theory that everything we are and know true around us is simply a design by some species of higher intelligence that lives in another dimension. I do not believe in god. That being said, I felt that all of these hallucinations were this race of creatures fucking with my head. Now, on with more hallucinations.
I saw myself tip over a half full can of Fresca, but no liquid came out as it lay there on the floor. I picked it up fearfully and poured it all over my stomach...it came out that time. At one point, everything possessed an evil look to it. This is hard to describe, but it was like everything had a set of eyes and was looking at me in utter disgust and hatred. It was a sharp, evil glare. I may have had a seizure judging by many positions my body was contorted into that I couldn't get out of, the hour or so in time I have forgotten, and the way I couldn't really walk at one point; I was hunched over in a strange way and limping. This may have just been my mind fucking with me; I don't know a whole lot about seizure symptoms.
This report is rather scattered and I apologize, but it's like my memory of this trip has been put in a blender.
I saw bright lights flashing in through the windows and heard loud wooshing noises, and once again thought of the species that supposedly created us. (I only believe that theory while tripping but hey, anythings possible). I thought of aliens attacking and recently seeing War of the Worlds probably didn't help anything. (That movie was fucking great though)
A feeling others may relate to is the feeling that it would never end; I thought it had been decided that I was going to stay like this forever. I was afraid that if I went to sleep, I wouldn't wake up.
It was from about 11:15 pm - 2:30 am that I was in my hell, and I really didn't do a whole lot when it ended. I mainly sat crying every once in awhile while having memories of my experience. I smoked more weed at around 4 and fell asleep at 5:30.
The scariest memory of this trip was definitely the commercial "Kill Reality". I have a feeling that hallucination will haunt me for quite awhile. I will do mushrooms again one day, but I will be sooo much more careful about the dose and my setting. The thought of my trip possibly being triggered by that touch of the remote button is rather eerie...
Peace and Trip Wisely!!!
This might be a little shorter than other reports I have written but thats because I'm not comfortable rethinking this experience. I was in my room for this trip, just watching Adult Swim. I drank the mushroom tea between 10:45 and 11:00 PM and it didn't take long to hit me. I remember a few comfortable feelings near the beginning, but those changed in a hurry. I'm not too positive what sent me into my hellish trip, but it really wasn't anything significant to my memory. My memory is hazy, but I remember smoking some weed and then focusing on the tv. The next thing I know I am mumbling random phrases of terror and completely nude. Why did I take my clothes off? I have no fucking clue, but it has happened other times while under the influence of LSA or Mushrooms. One thing that may have started my bad trip was the remote; I accidentally pushed a button that set the TV on mono and I couldn't hear it...once I tried pressing mute with no success, I remember panicking. I remember the volume on the tv going up and down when I wouldn't press the button; I remember seeing blood all over my hands, only to find them clear when I got into the light; I remember this feeling that my face had been torn apart, not the pain of it happening or any pain at all for that matter, I just felt like it was ripped up and it scared me to death.
Before you read the next paragraph, I would like to inform you that when I was watching tv, it didn't feel like tv at all. It seemed like these people were in the same room as me; not all around me obviously, but I think you all may understand.
Another horrid hallucination I had, that seems too real to be a mushroom trip: I was watching the tv and I would see entire commercials that didn't exist. I witnessed a commercial for a show called "Kill Reality" and the commercial was just a bunch of flash imagery of people dying, having sex, and fighting. The entire time, there was the words KILL REALITY flashing across the screen. I don't know if I possibly passed out and saw this in a dream, but it seemed so fucking real. I also was watching a man delivering the news, and he stopped in the middle of his presentation, to look me dead in the eye, and just smiled. I know that may not sound too horrible, but anyone who has been in a bad trip should be able to understand the fear that was introduced into my fragile skull when I witnessed that twisted grin.
As some background information; when I do shrooms, I often concoct a theory that everything we are and know true around us is simply a design by some species of higher intelligence that lives in another dimension. I do not believe in god. That being said, I felt that all of these hallucinations were this race of creatures fucking with my head. Now, on with more hallucinations.
I saw myself tip over a half full can of Fresca, but no liquid came out as it lay there on the floor. I picked it up fearfully and poured it all over my stomach...it came out that time. At one point, everything possessed an evil look to it. This is hard to describe, but it was like everything had a set of eyes and was looking at me in utter disgust and hatred. It was a sharp, evil glare. I may have had a seizure judging by many positions my body was contorted into that I couldn't get out of, the hour or so in time I have forgotten, and the way I couldn't really walk at one point; I was hunched over in a strange way and limping. This may have just been my mind fucking with me; I don't know a whole lot about seizure symptoms.
This report is rather scattered and I apologize, but it's like my memory of this trip has been put in a blender.
I saw bright lights flashing in through the windows and heard loud wooshing noises, and once again thought of the species that supposedly created us. (I only believe that theory while tripping but hey, anythings possible). I thought of aliens attacking and recently seeing War of the Worlds probably didn't help anything. (That movie was fucking great though)
A feeling others may relate to is the feeling that it would never end; I thought it had been decided that I was going to stay like this forever. I was afraid that if I went to sleep, I wouldn't wake up.
It was from about 11:15 pm - 2:30 am that I was in my hell, and I really didn't do a whole lot when it ended. I mainly sat crying every once in awhile while having memories of my experience. I smoked more weed at around 4 and fell asleep at 5:30.
The scariest memory of this trip was definitely the commercial "Kill Reality". I have a feeling that hallucination will haunt me for quite awhile. I will do mushrooms again one day, but I will be sooo much more careful about the dose and my setting. The thought of my trip possibly being triggered by that touch of the remote button is rather eerie...
Peace and Trip Wisely!!!
