I'll start with some background. This was my third trip, my previous two were of 2.3 grams and 3.5 grams. I am sixteen years old(turn 17 in a month) and am a senior in high school. I have been smoking weed daily for about 2-3 years and have tried crystal meth, coke, alcohol, and ecstasy. From my last two trips alone I have gained a new found appreciation for life. I feel like shrooms(psychedelics in general if I had access to more) are my drug of choice and I feel that I can handle them well.
Before this trip I had been reading lots of psychedelic essays and books. I've been getting more interested in Terrence McKenna, Aldous Huxley, Timothy Leary, Albert Hoffman, etc. etc. Psychedelic drugs are very interesting to me because they can actually yield permanent positive effects under the right conditions, the right mind set, and respect. I began to get interested in higher level trips because they seem more spiritual, introspective, beneficial, life changing, etc. etc. I was fortunate enough to get a taste of the spiritual side of shrooms after my last trip where I experienced seeing multipe entities in nature. This intrigued me to get in possession of some shrooms and take 4.5 grams.
The whole trip began when I bought 4.5 grams of dried p. cubensis mushrooms. Although these were average p. cubensis, they must have been cultivated very well because I had a very very strong trip. I ingested the shrooms the same way I always do, by crushing the shrooms into powder and then putting them in orange juice and taking them on an empty stomach. This lead to a very fast onset of effects and a very powerful peak. Since this trip was so powerful I have a lot of memory loss but I'll do my best to remember as much as I can.
Immediately after I took the shrooms I went into my friends room and sat on a huge bean bag chair. I turned on Pink Floyd- Dark Side of the Moon to help guide my trip. Unfortunately this did not work as I had planned, but I decided to just go with the flow and do as I felt because that would be more natural. The music was too intense and I felt isolated and very distant from my friends who were outside, so I went outside to join them. I first noticed that I was tripping when I looked at the grass. I could see the grass in a new light and I could see patterns forming.
I decided to sit down on a chair and try to kick back and watch the visuals that I was getting but this was harder than I thought it would be. When I was sitting in the chair I did not sit up straight I sat kind of low so I could look at the grass. I would glance at the grass and each time rows and patterns would just form and be very vivid. I finally decided to look up at the sky and see how the clouds looked. The minute my eyes met the clouds, the clouds began morphing violently and coming towards me. This scared me a little so I just looked back at the grass.
After being outside for a while I needed to go take a piss on the side of the house. I had trouble getting up to take a piss but when I did as I was going, I saw little creatures imbedded in the wall which made me stare in awe for a while. Then I sat back down on the chair. Now things were getting really intense. My legs felt alive and like they were creatures. This scared me shitless and I thought they were going to kill me or eat me. That was it, it was time to go inside and chill.
Entering the house changed my trip dramatically. As I passed by the living room on the way back to my friends room I stopeed and watched the hallucinations in the ceiling. The ceiling was full of little creatures similar to the ones I saw earlier. It was a beautiful site to see.
Then I reached my friends room and it hit me. Nothing made sense. I was completely and utterly confused by everything surrounding me. It was hard to function, it was hard to be comfortable. And worst of all I was unable to communicate for the most part. I was only able to mutter out a few words to my friend(the sitter) who tried to help me out. I sat on the bed and tried to comprhend what was happening. I think it was an ego loss because it really felt like I was nothing. Everything I had planned to do on the trip was impossible at the time.
The confusion did not just stop in the room though. I had to go to the bathroom again, so I went and found my self in a predicament. I did not know how to unzip my jacket, take off my belt, unbutton my button, and unzip my fly. I spend probably a good 20 minutes in the bathroom trying to figure out how to pull down my pants. While I was in the bathroom I decided to look into the mirror, because I had heard that crazy hallucinations happen. So I looked in the mirror and saw my face melting and aging. I looked back at the mirror and saw an old tribal man, possibly a shaman or indian. Right when I saw him I felt a presence in my body. I felt as though I had lived his life in those few seconds. I mean I didnt live it in the trip, I just felt like I knew what he has been through.
After the trip to the bathroom, I returned to the room to find my other friend who was tripping to be in a state of ego-loss and in a total downward spiral. He was insane he was just mumbling all his thoughts and he thought he was stuck in his trip forever. When I was listening to him he was sitting on the bean bag which had a blanket with a sun on it. I looked back at the bean bag and he became a part of the bean bag. His face was now on the sun and I could see an outline of him.
I sat on the bed for a while after that, I cant recall time at all because it had lost all meaning. But my friends would come in and out of the room and try to talk to me and help me out, which was completely useless. But then I felt something, I felt certain energies between my friends and me. I felt as though I was a part of them and they were a part of me. I'm pretty sure that I started to hallucinate my friends being in front of me and having conversations. I thought that somebody was in the room when they really werent. Finally the confusion began to wear off a little bit.
I started to get a little back in tune with reality but I was still pretty confused. I looked at the computer screen which had winamp visualiztions on. These patterns looked so beautiful and maginificent. This made me close my eyes to get some cool visuals. The visuals were crazy patterns which just kept on flowing and flowing. At one point I closed my eyes and saw a neon pink Goddess right in front of my eyes. She did not say a word but instead I felt her presence inside of me. These visuals were pretty awesome.
Another thing that happened while I was in the room was that I realized how cool guitars are. I used to play guitar a lot but recently have not for no real reason. But when I was tripping I saw how inspiring playing guitar is and how great the creation of music is. I am going to start playing guitar a lot more now.
Then I decided to go hang out with my friends in the living room because I really wanted to be around people and energy. I was sitting at one side of the room and my friends at the other, keep in mind the room was not too large, just a normal sized living room. Even though we were close to each other, they looked like they were miles away from me.
And then it clicked. The confusion cleared. Everything made sense. I felt a warm tingling sensation in my body and I knew everything was all right. I was at one with everything, one with the universe. I have always wanted to become one with the universe through shroom trips, but I did not think that I was experienced enough to experience this. But when I felt it, I felt amazing. There arent words to describe what it felt like. Being one with everything is so spiritual and enlightening. I felt God within me. Truly a life changing experience.
After that I looked around the house and started to notice how beautiful and full of life everything is. I walked around the house and noticed that everything seemed extra special. It felt like everything was alive and that everything was full of life. This made me realize how amazing life truly is. I remember saying to my friends, "Look around, its everywhere, everything is flowing with life."
This experience ended the hardcore effects of the shrooms, ie strong hallucinations, mindfuck, etc. I felt a little fucked up still but I was in such a good mood. It was like begin reborn again. I packed bowls after bowls for my friends because I wanted them to be happy. Life felt great.
I cannot explain this trip and how life changing it was for me. After my last trip I have loved life and know that I will never think suicidal thoughts or ever take life for granted again. And now after this trip I feel the same way but to a much higher degree. The trip showed me unimaginable beauty and knowledge. I have usually been very agnostic/atheist. But now I even belief that these shrooms are divine and there are some sort of spirits from another realm showing us the true meaning of life. I respect the Gods and Goddesses of the mushroom. Some of you may think it sounds stupid, but before the trip I gave a few prayers to the shroom Gods and Goddesses asking them to guide me however they think is necessary. And to show me what I need to see. And it worked, I did not have a bad time at all during the trip.
I cannot wait to visit the shroom world again, but I will be waiting a few months now since I gained more out of this trip than I could have ever expected. My trip was better than smoking ounces of the best weed, snorting grams of pure cocaine, and taking hundreds of pills of ecstasy all combined.
Thanks for reading my long post. Hopefully you enjoyed it.
Before this trip I had been reading lots of psychedelic essays and books. I've been getting more interested in Terrence McKenna, Aldous Huxley, Timothy Leary, Albert Hoffman, etc. etc. Psychedelic drugs are very interesting to me because they can actually yield permanent positive effects under the right conditions, the right mind set, and respect. I began to get interested in higher level trips because they seem more spiritual, introspective, beneficial, life changing, etc. etc. I was fortunate enough to get a taste of the spiritual side of shrooms after my last trip where I experienced seeing multipe entities in nature. This intrigued me to get in possession of some shrooms and take 4.5 grams.
The whole trip began when I bought 4.5 grams of dried p. cubensis mushrooms. Although these were average p. cubensis, they must have been cultivated very well because I had a very very strong trip. I ingested the shrooms the same way I always do, by crushing the shrooms into powder and then putting them in orange juice and taking them on an empty stomach. This lead to a very fast onset of effects and a very powerful peak. Since this trip was so powerful I have a lot of memory loss but I'll do my best to remember as much as I can.
Immediately after I took the shrooms I went into my friends room and sat on a huge bean bag chair. I turned on Pink Floyd- Dark Side of the Moon to help guide my trip. Unfortunately this did not work as I had planned, but I decided to just go with the flow and do as I felt because that would be more natural. The music was too intense and I felt isolated and very distant from my friends who were outside, so I went outside to join them. I first noticed that I was tripping when I looked at the grass. I could see the grass in a new light and I could see patterns forming.
I decided to sit down on a chair and try to kick back and watch the visuals that I was getting but this was harder than I thought it would be. When I was sitting in the chair I did not sit up straight I sat kind of low so I could look at the grass. I would glance at the grass and each time rows and patterns would just form and be very vivid. I finally decided to look up at the sky and see how the clouds looked. The minute my eyes met the clouds, the clouds began morphing violently and coming towards me. This scared me a little so I just looked back at the grass.
After being outside for a while I needed to go take a piss on the side of the house. I had trouble getting up to take a piss but when I did as I was going, I saw little creatures imbedded in the wall which made me stare in awe for a while. Then I sat back down on the chair. Now things were getting really intense. My legs felt alive and like they were creatures. This scared me shitless and I thought they were going to kill me or eat me. That was it, it was time to go inside and chill.
Entering the house changed my trip dramatically. As I passed by the living room on the way back to my friends room I stopeed and watched the hallucinations in the ceiling. The ceiling was full of little creatures similar to the ones I saw earlier. It was a beautiful site to see.
Then I reached my friends room and it hit me. Nothing made sense. I was completely and utterly confused by everything surrounding me. It was hard to function, it was hard to be comfortable. And worst of all I was unable to communicate for the most part. I was only able to mutter out a few words to my friend(the sitter) who tried to help me out. I sat on the bed and tried to comprhend what was happening. I think it was an ego loss because it really felt like I was nothing. Everything I had planned to do on the trip was impossible at the time.
The confusion did not just stop in the room though. I had to go to the bathroom again, so I went and found my self in a predicament. I did not know how to unzip my jacket, take off my belt, unbutton my button, and unzip my fly. I spend probably a good 20 minutes in the bathroom trying to figure out how to pull down my pants. While I was in the bathroom I decided to look into the mirror, because I had heard that crazy hallucinations happen. So I looked in the mirror and saw my face melting and aging. I looked back at the mirror and saw an old tribal man, possibly a shaman or indian. Right when I saw him I felt a presence in my body. I felt as though I had lived his life in those few seconds. I mean I didnt live it in the trip, I just felt like I knew what he has been through.
After the trip to the bathroom, I returned to the room to find my other friend who was tripping to be in a state of ego-loss and in a total downward spiral. He was insane he was just mumbling all his thoughts and he thought he was stuck in his trip forever. When I was listening to him he was sitting on the bean bag which had a blanket with a sun on it. I looked back at the bean bag and he became a part of the bean bag. His face was now on the sun and I could see an outline of him.
I sat on the bed for a while after that, I cant recall time at all because it had lost all meaning. But my friends would come in and out of the room and try to talk to me and help me out, which was completely useless. But then I felt something, I felt certain energies between my friends and me. I felt as though I was a part of them and they were a part of me. I'm pretty sure that I started to hallucinate my friends being in front of me and having conversations. I thought that somebody was in the room when they really werent. Finally the confusion began to wear off a little bit.
I started to get a little back in tune with reality but I was still pretty confused. I looked at the computer screen which had winamp visualiztions on. These patterns looked so beautiful and maginificent. This made me close my eyes to get some cool visuals. The visuals were crazy patterns which just kept on flowing and flowing. At one point I closed my eyes and saw a neon pink Goddess right in front of my eyes. She did not say a word but instead I felt her presence inside of me. These visuals were pretty awesome.
Another thing that happened while I was in the room was that I realized how cool guitars are. I used to play guitar a lot but recently have not for no real reason. But when I was tripping I saw how inspiring playing guitar is and how great the creation of music is. I am going to start playing guitar a lot more now.
Then I decided to go hang out with my friends in the living room because I really wanted to be around people and energy. I was sitting at one side of the room and my friends at the other, keep in mind the room was not too large, just a normal sized living room. Even though we were close to each other, they looked like they were miles away from me.
And then it clicked. The confusion cleared. Everything made sense. I felt a warm tingling sensation in my body and I knew everything was all right. I was at one with everything, one with the universe. I have always wanted to become one with the universe through shroom trips, but I did not think that I was experienced enough to experience this. But when I felt it, I felt amazing. There arent words to describe what it felt like. Being one with everything is so spiritual and enlightening. I felt God within me. Truly a life changing experience.
After that I looked around the house and started to notice how beautiful and full of life everything is. I walked around the house and noticed that everything seemed extra special. It felt like everything was alive and that everything was full of life. This made me realize how amazing life truly is. I remember saying to my friends, "Look around, its everywhere, everything is flowing with life."
This experience ended the hardcore effects of the shrooms, ie strong hallucinations, mindfuck, etc. I felt a little fucked up still but I was in such a good mood. It was like begin reborn again. I packed bowls after bowls for my friends because I wanted them to be happy. Life felt great.
I cannot explain this trip and how life changing it was for me. After my last trip I have loved life and know that I will never think suicidal thoughts or ever take life for granted again. And now after this trip I feel the same way but to a much higher degree. The trip showed me unimaginable beauty and knowledge. I have usually been very agnostic/atheist. But now I even belief that these shrooms are divine and there are some sort of spirits from another realm showing us the true meaning of life. I respect the Gods and Goddesses of the mushroom. Some of you may think it sounds stupid, but before the trip I gave a few prayers to the shroom Gods and Goddesses asking them to guide me however they think is necessary. And to show me what I need to see. And it worked, I did not have a bad time at all during the trip.
I cannot wait to visit the shroom world again, but I will be waiting a few months now since I gained more out of this trip than I could have ever expected. My trip was better than smoking ounces of the best weed, snorting grams of pure cocaine, and taking hundreds of pills of ecstasy all combined.
Thanks for reading my long post. Hopefully you enjoyed it.
it really got me interested in your story i felt as though i was experiencing the trip with you. haha its really got me wanting to try mushrooms myself now hehe. once again great report