Hello everyone - I am new here but have stopped by Bluelight a number of times over the years to read the forums so that I can be happy knowing that the drug underground remains strong and positive. Anyway, about 3 years ago I took mushrooms for the first time, and I had a wonderful experience, but I don't really know of anyone who has used them and had the same type of trip so instead of keeping it locked in my head forever, I want to find some social acceptance here! 
Basically, since the society is so against psychedelic use, it is impossible for me to really open up about this to most people, for obvious reasons.
I had a spore source so I made some mushrooms which took some time but was pretty fun and educational. I won't go into that more as it is not exactly a legal activity, but I want to set the stage here. I took the entire yield, about 20g *not dried* if I remember correctly, by myself one night. I figured it was best to take them alone as even though I am comfortable around people, I am never as comfortable as I am just being totally alone! I had a good time staying indoors at first, but my mind was in a more "scientific" state, as I am a scientist by trade and tend to look at things from this angle often. I even started playing with my microscope and triple beam balance. This was not bad BUT I felt it was interfering with my trip sorta and wasting it in a way. I remembered a friend's advice to go outside so that is what I did and then the real fun began!
It was still nighttime so it was very dark outside. There was a breeze and the low hanging branches of trees were swaying in the wind. The moonlight was also pouring light down on the earth, much brighter than I expected. I felt as though normally we are quite distant from nature and the words I remember going through my head, which I even said aloud were, "Wow so this is what it *means* when we say it is 'windy' outside." Basically I felt that we as humans attach so many words to things so that we can communicate ideas and make them useful in a survival oriented type of way (or capitalistic/economic way), but through this, we are removing ourselves from the actual experience. That is really what I felt, I am sure you all have similar experiences so I do not have to explain it much further but that idea hit me all in one instant and it was beyond belief. I also don't think I would have noticed the moonlight normally.. probably if I went outside another time I would have just used an external flood light to illuminate the yard so I could see what I was doing as I would be in a task-oriented mode where I had to get something done instead of just experiencing the light.
Anyway, it was actually a little TOO windy which was making me cold so I went inside. There I played around for a few hours.. I don't remember what I did though. I used a digital recorder to speak to myself for a long time. For awhile I looked at a picture of the ocean which had come to life, with the waves rolling up on the shore. That must be the classic idea which most people have when they imagine tripping. At the time I also had a girlfriend who was rather antidrug (I now screen for this quality, as it is most unfortunate and makes it quite hurtful for everyone especially when it is deeply rooted and cannot be logically argued against), who I wanted to call and speak to about my experience but I knew she would (very, very, very) sadly not understand so I just left a message saying I loved her which is what she needed to hear and it was also quite true as I only wanted to tell her about it because I loved her but sadly she would not accept it. Sometime, I forget when, I decided it would be best to take off all of my clothes. This reminds me of another time while on MDMA, I could not believe how lovely just the movement of the air felt over my skin. I think there are really so many air convections going through a room which we are always unaware of...
It was day now so I went outside naked which is one of the most amazing things I have ever done in my life. We have a yard which you can't see from the road as there are many trees around it, so there was no danger in being seen. It was just great. I climbed a tree a bit and noticed how natural it felt. For a long time I stared at the blades of grass and saw an entire ecosystem I did not know existed, including an amazing little blueish slug which I will never forget. I looked up at the sky and the trees above and felt a sense of "infinity" or timelessness, which I can't really describe.
That's basically the general overview of my experience. It was almost 3 years ago now so I don't remember everything in detail and I haven't gone over my recordings but it was an event which had a great impact on my life. It's getting quite late now so I must end this here but all comments are welcome.
Thanks for reading!
Basically, since the society is so against psychedelic use, it is impossible for me to really open up about this to most people, for obvious reasons.I had a spore source so I made some mushrooms which took some time but was pretty fun and educational. I won't go into that more as it is not exactly a legal activity, but I want to set the stage here. I took the entire yield, about 20g *not dried* if I remember correctly, by myself one night. I figured it was best to take them alone as even though I am comfortable around people, I am never as comfortable as I am just being totally alone! I had a good time staying indoors at first, but my mind was in a more "scientific" state, as I am a scientist by trade and tend to look at things from this angle often. I even started playing with my microscope and triple beam balance. This was not bad BUT I felt it was interfering with my trip sorta and wasting it in a way. I remembered a friend's advice to go outside so that is what I did and then the real fun began!
It was still nighttime so it was very dark outside. There was a breeze and the low hanging branches of trees were swaying in the wind. The moonlight was also pouring light down on the earth, much brighter than I expected. I felt as though normally we are quite distant from nature and the words I remember going through my head, which I even said aloud were, "Wow so this is what it *means* when we say it is 'windy' outside." Basically I felt that we as humans attach so many words to things so that we can communicate ideas and make them useful in a survival oriented type of way (or capitalistic/economic way), but through this, we are removing ourselves from the actual experience. That is really what I felt, I am sure you all have similar experiences so I do not have to explain it much further but that idea hit me all in one instant and it was beyond belief. I also don't think I would have noticed the moonlight normally.. probably if I went outside another time I would have just used an external flood light to illuminate the yard so I could see what I was doing as I would be in a task-oriented mode where I had to get something done instead of just experiencing the light.
Anyway, it was actually a little TOO windy which was making me cold so I went inside. There I played around for a few hours.. I don't remember what I did though. I used a digital recorder to speak to myself for a long time. For awhile I looked at a picture of the ocean which had come to life, with the waves rolling up on the shore. That must be the classic idea which most people have when they imagine tripping. At the time I also had a girlfriend who was rather antidrug (I now screen for this quality, as it is most unfortunate and makes it quite hurtful for everyone especially when it is deeply rooted and cannot be logically argued against), who I wanted to call and speak to about my experience but I knew she would (very, very, very) sadly not understand so I just left a message saying I loved her which is what she needed to hear and it was also quite true as I only wanted to tell her about it because I loved her but sadly she would not accept it. Sometime, I forget when, I decided it would be best to take off all of my clothes. This reminds me of another time while on MDMA, I could not believe how lovely just the movement of the air felt over my skin. I think there are really so many air convections going through a room which we are always unaware of...
It was day now so I went outside naked which is one of the most amazing things I have ever done in my life. We have a yard which you can't see from the road as there are many trees around it, so there was no danger in being seen. It was just great. I climbed a tree a bit and noticed how natural it felt. For a long time I stared at the blades of grass and saw an entire ecosystem I did not know existed, including an amazing little blueish slug which I will never forget. I looked up at the sky and the trees above and felt a sense of "infinity" or timelessness, which I can't really describe.
That's basically the general overview of my experience. It was almost 3 years ago now so I don't remember everything in detail and I haven't gone over my recordings but it was an event which had a great impact on my life. It's getting quite late now so I must end this here but all comments are welcome.
Thanks for reading!
