quintessence
Bluelighter
hippyflipping - first time on combo - enlightenment teaser
Roughly 1/16 of mushrooms, half a pill
Experienced with E, semi-experienced with shrooms
Strangely, even after my intense and not entirely pleasant mushroom trip of the night before, I decided to try a few stems at this rave, along with some E. I had been to tons of parties at that venue, I knew a lot of people, so I figured this would be the best place to try a new drug combination. I chewed one stem before getting to the party, then found a pill about an hour later... I took half. About two hours later I lost the other half of the pill, so I chewed up a couple more mushroom stems. At first I got the normal ecstasy feelings -- euporia, friendliness, energy, love for the world, etc. -- and was rolling pretty hard for a couple hours. I gave people some reiki, massages, some lightshows, and just talked a lot and was very sociable. Danced here and there, but only when they were playing breaks (the rest was house music, which I'm sick of). When the music slowed down, I would stop dancing. After I came off the peak, I took a percocet to even things out. Got a massage from my friend N. on his massage table, put my head into the cradle and just relaxed, and I came up on the mushrooms just as I was getting a good back massage!! The feeling was utterly different than what I'd experienced the previous night. I still had that melting feeling, but it didn't feel like I was dying this time. I felt smooth, sensual, earthy. When I danced it took on a whole new meaning. I sat down next to the speaker and let the music vibrate through me, and gave my energy to the ground.
The party got busted around four thirty in the morning, for noise. Usually this kind of thing tends to make me confused and let down, but this time I was actually glad. My energy was low and I felt very peaceful, very accepting of anything that would happen. So what happened is that I walked home with N. and our friend G., and we watched the sunrise slowly make it's way across the sky. We ended up walking about two miles to N.'s house, and I chattered happily along the way about everything I could think of. I could not stop talking!! But I felt very happy and centered, not excitable and driven like I usually do on E. I looked around at the grass and the trees and everything looked so amazing and beautiful and magical!! I felt like God, or some similar spirit, was close by and watching over us. There is no way to describe that feeling of absolute peace and love and certainty, but I had never felt it before. It was a glimpse into a beautiful state of being, and it lasted for quite a few hours. We got home and crashed in N.'s room, cuddled and slept. I went on the computer for a bit and chatted to N.'s Mom, who made me some wonderful chai tea!! Went back to the room and tried to sleep, but for the life of me, I just could.not.sleep. I rested for a few hours, but after a while had to get up and make myself some breakfast.
Around ten o'clock, ten hours after i'd started doing all this stuff, I experienced some nasty, horrible feelings that took me completely by surprise -- I really thought that my state of peace would last forever, I thought I'd been "enlightened" and my life would change, etc.. but yeah, it doesn't quite go like that when drugs are involved. The comedown was more physical than mental, and probably not helped by being awake for twenty-four hours. I felt weak and shaky and sick, and paranoid about what damage I'd done to my body. I felt like crying and running away. I had all the symptoms of panic but without any emotional cause for it. Ended up eating some fruit, and making coffee. Then I brought it into N.'s room and we all watched a movie. The movie was very strange for me. Every time the characters argued, I would feel it intensely, and almost start crying because I couldn't stand the conflict. My psychological defenses were completely off and the littlest things would send me into either euphoria or depression.
Then the coffee kicked in, and thank god, it saved me! For some reason caffeine really calms me down after any trip, probably because I'm addicted and my body was crying out for it. I quickly made myself another cup! And after that I felt very peaceful, very sleepy and content. I layed around for hours, and then ended up walking all over town for hours more, still hallucinating and looking like a wreck. Somehow I caught the Greyhound and made it home, and slept for... oh.. about a day and a half.
Got sick. Started feeling the same comedown feelings on Tuesday.. shakiness, anxiety, weakness. I drank coffee again and got better physically, only I was hallucinating again! Going outside was torture. The bright sunlight, the people, the energy around everything was almost too much so here I am for the time being, holed up inside my little apartment and not too eager to go out and do more errands. So yes, hippyflipping.. I only recommend it for someone who has at least two days off afterwards! I don't plan on doing it again for at least a month, maybe more. Fucking awesome, but hard to recover from..
Roughly 1/16 of mushrooms, half a pill
Experienced with E, semi-experienced with shrooms
Strangely, even after my intense and not entirely pleasant mushroom trip of the night before, I decided to try a few stems at this rave, along with some E. I had been to tons of parties at that venue, I knew a lot of people, so I figured this would be the best place to try a new drug combination. I chewed one stem before getting to the party, then found a pill about an hour later... I took half. About two hours later I lost the other half of the pill, so I chewed up a couple more mushroom stems. At first I got the normal ecstasy feelings -- euporia, friendliness, energy, love for the world, etc. -- and was rolling pretty hard for a couple hours. I gave people some reiki, massages, some lightshows, and just talked a lot and was very sociable. Danced here and there, but only when they were playing breaks (the rest was house music, which I'm sick of). When the music slowed down, I would stop dancing. After I came off the peak, I took a percocet to even things out. Got a massage from my friend N. on his massage table, put my head into the cradle and just relaxed, and I came up on the mushrooms just as I was getting a good back massage!! The feeling was utterly different than what I'd experienced the previous night. I still had that melting feeling, but it didn't feel like I was dying this time. I felt smooth, sensual, earthy. When I danced it took on a whole new meaning. I sat down next to the speaker and let the music vibrate through me, and gave my energy to the ground.
The party got busted around four thirty in the morning, for noise. Usually this kind of thing tends to make me confused and let down, but this time I was actually glad. My energy was low and I felt very peaceful, very accepting of anything that would happen. So what happened is that I walked home with N. and our friend G., and we watched the sunrise slowly make it's way across the sky. We ended up walking about two miles to N.'s house, and I chattered happily along the way about everything I could think of. I could not stop talking!! But I felt very happy and centered, not excitable and driven like I usually do on E. I looked around at the grass and the trees and everything looked so amazing and beautiful and magical!! I felt like God, or some similar spirit, was close by and watching over us. There is no way to describe that feeling of absolute peace and love and certainty, but I had never felt it before. It was a glimpse into a beautiful state of being, and it lasted for quite a few hours. We got home and crashed in N.'s room, cuddled and slept. I went on the computer for a bit and chatted to N.'s Mom, who made me some wonderful chai tea!! Went back to the room and tried to sleep, but for the life of me, I just could.not.sleep. I rested for a few hours, but after a while had to get up and make myself some breakfast.
Around ten o'clock, ten hours after i'd started doing all this stuff, I experienced some nasty, horrible feelings that took me completely by surprise -- I really thought that my state of peace would last forever, I thought I'd been "enlightened" and my life would change, etc.. but yeah, it doesn't quite go like that when drugs are involved. The comedown was more physical than mental, and probably not helped by being awake for twenty-four hours. I felt weak and shaky and sick, and paranoid about what damage I'd done to my body. I felt like crying and running away. I had all the symptoms of panic but without any emotional cause for it. Ended up eating some fruit, and making coffee. Then I brought it into N.'s room and we all watched a movie. The movie was very strange for me. Every time the characters argued, I would feel it intensely, and almost start crying because I couldn't stand the conflict. My psychological defenses were completely off and the littlest things would send me into either euphoria or depression.
Then the coffee kicked in, and thank god, it saved me! For some reason caffeine really calms me down after any trip, probably because I'm addicted and my body was crying out for it. I quickly made myself another cup! And after that I felt very peaceful, very sleepy and content. I layed around for hours, and then ended up walking all over town for hours more, still hallucinating and looking like a wreck. Somehow I caught the Greyhound and made it home, and slept for... oh.. about a day and a half.
Got sick. Started feeling the same comedown feelings on Tuesday.. shakiness, anxiety, weakness. I drank coffee again and got better physically, only I was hallucinating again! Going outside was torture. The bright sunlight, the people, the energy around everything was almost too much so here I am for the time being, holed up inside my little apartment and not too eager to go out and do more errands. So yes, hippyflipping.. I only recommend it for someone who has at least two days off afterwards! I don't plan on doing it again for at least a month, maybe more. Fucking awesome, but hard to recover from..
I imagine the mushrooms would have made anyone feel dirty just for being there.