UltimaWeapon
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Alright, im very new into the world of psychadelic (however u spell it) drugs, im also a newbie to ecstasy (although im waaaaay more informed about it than anything else). I am at a stage right now where i just want to try stuff and just gain some experiences to see if im missing out on anything special. Im 3 months into E, but about id say a month ago, i tried my first psych drug, Mushrooms...this is my story...
I was going over to a buddie's apt, to hang out and practice some glowsticking moves and just chill and whatnot. i had no money, so i was pretty sure i would have no drugs. well when i get there, i find out they are doing shrooms that night, so we go and pick em out. im still unsure at this point if i wanna do them. especially since ive never done any type of research on it.
1:30am - I start eating away, i ate about 8 kinda medium sized shrooms (im sorry guys, i dont know grams and all that shit), anyways they said it was a fairly large dose for first time, but to just go ahead and do it. so i did. taste was HORRIBLE, but whatever, i chased with a beer. and it was all good. heres a key point in my trip though.... While i was eating the mushrooms, i kept having thoughts of "what if this trip goes wrong?" then i saw a knife sitting at the dinner table. and thought again "what if we all get fucked up, and something bad happens with that knife?!!" then i just tried to not think about it. and just kept eating.
2:00am - im kinda hungry so i eat a steak lol. im chillin' still waiting to come up, but im feelin a bit nervous/anxious. i dunno. im just a little concerned about what could go wrong.
2:30am - its kickin in, i feel kinda "drunk?" i dunno.. i knew i had to sit down. so i sat for a bit, and about 4 more of our buddies showed up. and they drank some of the tea they made with the stems... i then just started laughing for no freakin reason. i just found everything funny. i stood up for a bit to say hi to everyone. i knew my vision was gettin a bit weird, i started seeing light trails, and everything was starting to wave around, kinda hard to explain. all i know that my vision was really weird now.
3:00 - im laying back on the floor. they start playing some trance. and im just there sitting and i start seeing some visuals. patterns that just made no sense at all, "Dancing Cartoony mushrooms?!?!!?" LOL, yea, that kind of shit. even when i closed my eyes i saw the patterns, it was hilarious and i couldnt stop laughing.
3:30 - everyone sits down in the living room cuz theyre coming up from the tea. im on my peak at this point. visuals were intense, too intense. i kept having the patterns, and everything was changing colors. even the ppl. time was lost from here on out. i just sat down, and everything was so trippy. when i talked i could barely hear myself talk. and i would talk to the beat of the track that was being played. and i would repeat words so that they sound like theyre being mixed in the music.....weird ass shit........ all my movements, speech and stuff were based on the music that was playing. visuals at this point were just overwhelming. it was like i was inside a pinball machine. we started to give each other lightshows at this point. wow.......just.........wow...... lightshows are cool on E. but, now im spoiled. the lighshows u get while tripping is just incredible. Ive never seen anything like it. anyways, i get up to do my lightshow, so i get my Photon's and i start to do some really awesome stuff with them, everyone there knew me and knows me for never really doing lightshows and all. cuz im new to all this, and i suck. but anyways, i was doing some really cool stuff with the Photons and everyone loved my lighshows. i then remember.........the knife........... i looked around and i kept seeing my buddy with a suspicious look on his face, and i would see him hide the knife from me as if he was to do something (NOTE:THIS IS ALL IN MY HEAD, BUT AT THE TIME I DIDNT KNOW). anyways, i go about my business. i remember parts of the trip that really just fucked with my head such as getting up and going to the kitchen, and looking back in the living room, and i SEE myself sitting down!!! then i would just appear back on the ground as if i never got up. that really fucked with my head. i went outside for a bit, and the whole outside world looked like a cartoon city. very funny indeed. well trip continues, and the knife keeps making appearances with the same vision, i see one of them hiding the knife from me. well time goes by. and next thing i remember, i am by myself.... i look around.......theres noone there....... im sitting there thinking....ok wtf? i look next to me, and there is a knife. the same knife. it starts to get hot. then.... i hear a voice. its a deep dark voice, that said "you just killed your friends. theyre gonna find out, youre going to jail. your life is over....so KILL YOURSELF" i was like......no fuckin way.....i am tripping. ....right? i didnt know what was real at this point. i didnt know if i was still tripping or if the trip was over, and something really happened. well i sat there, and i kept hearing the voice " JUST KILL YOURSELF NOW, BEFORE YOU GET INTO MORE TROUBLE" and i kept looking at the knife.... and i saw this poster on the floor that had a devil on it. (that was real btw). I dunno about most of u guys. but i am a believer in God, the devil, Heaven, hell and all that stuff. so me, being raised in a christian household..... i honestly believed that it was the devil talking to me. I felt that yeah, i killed my buddies. now i will either face the consequences or kill myself. but since i AM a christian.. i also knew that for a fact, if i killed myself i would go to hell. but, if i stayed alive, i would have a chance for forgiveness. so im glad i had a bit of sense still in me. and my religious beliefs saved me that night. well then heard a voice, this time it was different... it was a more friendly, and welcoming voice. the voice said "are you afraid?" i said yes. "you see what happens when you mess with drugs?" "you can do stuff you will regret" by that time, i was in total panic, i was scared cuz i truley believed i heard the voice. so i was really scared, and i called my best friend i still didnt know if i was actually calling her of if i was imagining i was calling her (I really did call her), so she answers the phone..
5:30- she answers the phone, and says whats wrong, and i just start rambling on all crazy "omg omg omg, i hear voices and im scared and i dont know whats going on....HELP ME!!" she tried to calm me down as best as she could, i didnt want to tell her that the voices said i wanted to kill myself, because i remember her best friend before me, killed himself while on a certain drug. so i didnt want her to think she would lose another friend due to drugs, so i didnt tell her that. i just wanted her to come get me, but i didnt know where i was exactly, it was my first time there in that place. im still freaking out, but she calms me down just a bit telling me its just a trip, and it will be over soon. well i tell her im ok, i put down the phone. and again, the voice comes back (the good one), i honestly believe this was God talking to me (plz if you dont believe this sort of stuff, id preffer if you just not comment on the religious aspects of this report thx). the voice said "you are afraid., most ppl never get a second chance. consider yourself lucky. you are getting a second chance. your friends......theyre not dead." and as soon as that senstence was said, my 2 buddies came in the door with some whataburger breakfast LOL. they had already come down from their trip (they do it alll the time, so theyre experienced). they sat down, and im like.....holy fuck you guys!!! you guys are alive?!?!!? they just looked at me and told me to chill out, that i was coming down already. and just relax. i look at the kitchen, and the knife is sitting at the table.......not next to me anymore =O. well i still dont know if any of this is real or not. so i just say, fuck this shit. im leaving... so i leave and they tell me not to. and tell me not to get in my car. so i dont. i remember that a buddie of mine lives fairly close, so i walk to his house at 6am LOL, wake his ass up, and ask him to take care of me for a couple hours. he agrees. he tells me to just lay in bed and chill out. so i do, i just wait in bed.
8:00am - i feel a bit better but still have that feeling of "what if im STILL tripping?" it was still kinda haunting me. but fuck it, i drove home. i went to sleep, skipped work. and swore i would never ever EVER do mushrooms again.
well..... i felt that way for a while. now i think im prepared for what mushrooms do to you, so i really wanna do them again. i think what happened was that because my buddies left me all alone, that my mind started to fuck with me. and thats why i got so freaked out. because other than that.the whole trip was a blast. i definetly want to do it again but this time with ppl im closer with, and in a safe environment, like my house.
hope you guys found this report useful. sorry its so long. this could help anyone who has never tried mushrooms see a story about a first timer, and then they can make their own decisions on wether to do it or not. id say if just inform yourself really well, and know what to expect.
party safe, and responsibly - UltimaWeapon
I was going over to a buddie's apt, to hang out and practice some glowsticking moves and just chill and whatnot. i had no money, so i was pretty sure i would have no drugs. well when i get there, i find out they are doing shrooms that night, so we go and pick em out. im still unsure at this point if i wanna do them. especially since ive never done any type of research on it.
1:30am - I start eating away, i ate about 8 kinda medium sized shrooms (im sorry guys, i dont know grams and all that shit), anyways they said it was a fairly large dose for first time, but to just go ahead and do it. so i did. taste was HORRIBLE, but whatever, i chased with a beer. and it was all good. heres a key point in my trip though.... While i was eating the mushrooms, i kept having thoughts of "what if this trip goes wrong?" then i saw a knife sitting at the dinner table. and thought again "what if we all get fucked up, and something bad happens with that knife?!!" then i just tried to not think about it. and just kept eating.
2:00am - im kinda hungry so i eat a steak lol. im chillin' still waiting to come up, but im feelin a bit nervous/anxious. i dunno. im just a little concerned about what could go wrong.
2:30am - its kickin in, i feel kinda "drunk?" i dunno.. i knew i had to sit down. so i sat for a bit, and about 4 more of our buddies showed up. and they drank some of the tea they made with the stems... i then just started laughing for no freakin reason. i just found everything funny. i stood up for a bit to say hi to everyone. i knew my vision was gettin a bit weird, i started seeing light trails, and everything was starting to wave around, kinda hard to explain. all i know that my vision was really weird now.
3:00 - im laying back on the floor. they start playing some trance. and im just there sitting and i start seeing some visuals. patterns that just made no sense at all, "Dancing Cartoony mushrooms?!?!!?" LOL, yea, that kind of shit. even when i closed my eyes i saw the patterns, it was hilarious and i couldnt stop laughing.
3:30 - everyone sits down in the living room cuz theyre coming up from the tea. im on my peak at this point. visuals were intense, too intense. i kept having the patterns, and everything was changing colors. even the ppl. time was lost from here on out. i just sat down, and everything was so trippy. when i talked i could barely hear myself talk. and i would talk to the beat of the track that was being played. and i would repeat words so that they sound like theyre being mixed in the music.....weird ass shit........ all my movements, speech and stuff were based on the music that was playing. visuals at this point were just overwhelming. it was like i was inside a pinball machine. we started to give each other lightshows at this point. wow.......just.........wow...... lightshows are cool on E. but, now im spoiled. the lighshows u get while tripping is just incredible. Ive never seen anything like it. anyways, i get up to do my lightshow, so i get my Photon's and i start to do some really awesome stuff with them, everyone there knew me and knows me for never really doing lightshows and all. cuz im new to all this, and i suck. but anyways, i was doing some really cool stuff with the Photons and everyone loved my lighshows. i then remember.........the knife........... i looked around and i kept seeing my buddy with a suspicious look on his face, and i would see him hide the knife from me as if he was to do something (NOTE:THIS IS ALL IN MY HEAD, BUT AT THE TIME I DIDNT KNOW). anyways, i go about my business. i remember parts of the trip that really just fucked with my head such as getting up and going to the kitchen, and looking back in the living room, and i SEE myself sitting down!!! then i would just appear back on the ground as if i never got up. that really fucked with my head. i went outside for a bit, and the whole outside world looked like a cartoon city. very funny indeed. well trip continues, and the knife keeps making appearances with the same vision, i see one of them hiding the knife from me. well time goes by. and next thing i remember, i am by myself.... i look around.......theres noone there....... im sitting there thinking....ok wtf? i look next to me, and there is a knife. the same knife. it starts to get hot. then.... i hear a voice. its a deep dark voice, that said "you just killed your friends. theyre gonna find out, youre going to jail. your life is over....so KILL YOURSELF" i was like......no fuckin way.....i am tripping. ....right? i didnt know what was real at this point. i didnt know if i was still tripping or if the trip was over, and something really happened. well i sat there, and i kept hearing the voice " JUST KILL YOURSELF NOW, BEFORE YOU GET INTO MORE TROUBLE" and i kept looking at the knife.... and i saw this poster on the floor that had a devil on it. (that was real btw). I dunno about most of u guys. but i am a believer in God, the devil, Heaven, hell and all that stuff. so me, being raised in a christian household..... i honestly believed that it was the devil talking to me. I felt that yeah, i killed my buddies. now i will either face the consequences or kill myself. but since i AM a christian.. i also knew that for a fact, if i killed myself i would go to hell. but, if i stayed alive, i would have a chance for forgiveness. so im glad i had a bit of sense still in me. and my religious beliefs saved me that night. well then heard a voice, this time it was different... it was a more friendly, and welcoming voice. the voice said "are you afraid?" i said yes. "you see what happens when you mess with drugs?" "you can do stuff you will regret" by that time, i was in total panic, i was scared cuz i truley believed i heard the voice. so i was really scared, and i called my best friend i still didnt know if i was actually calling her of if i was imagining i was calling her (I really did call her), so she answers the phone..
5:30- she answers the phone, and says whats wrong, and i just start rambling on all crazy "omg omg omg, i hear voices and im scared and i dont know whats going on....HELP ME!!" she tried to calm me down as best as she could, i didnt want to tell her that the voices said i wanted to kill myself, because i remember her best friend before me, killed himself while on a certain drug. so i didnt want her to think she would lose another friend due to drugs, so i didnt tell her that. i just wanted her to come get me, but i didnt know where i was exactly, it was my first time there in that place. im still freaking out, but she calms me down just a bit telling me its just a trip, and it will be over soon. well i tell her im ok, i put down the phone. and again, the voice comes back (the good one), i honestly believe this was God talking to me (plz if you dont believe this sort of stuff, id preffer if you just not comment on the religious aspects of this report thx). the voice said "you are afraid., most ppl never get a second chance. consider yourself lucky. you are getting a second chance. your friends......theyre not dead." and as soon as that senstence was said, my 2 buddies came in the door with some whataburger breakfast LOL. they had already come down from their trip (they do it alll the time, so theyre experienced). they sat down, and im like.....holy fuck you guys!!! you guys are alive?!?!!? they just looked at me and told me to chill out, that i was coming down already. and just relax. i look at the kitchen, and the knife is sitting at the table.......not next to me anymore =O. well i still dont know if any of this is real or not. so i just say, fuck this shit. im leaving... so i leave and they tell me not to. and tell me not to get in my car. so i dont. i remember that a buddie of mine lives fairly close, so i walk to his house at 6am LOL, wake his ass up, and ask him to take care of me for a couple hours. he agrees. he tells me to just lay in bed and chill out. so i do, i just wait in bed.
8:00am - i feel a bit better but still have that feeling of "what if im STILL tripping?" it was still kinda haunting me. but fuck it, i drove home. i went to sleep, skipped work. and swore i would never ever EVER do mushrooms again.
well..... i felt that way for a while. now i think im prepared for what mushrooms do to you, so i really wanna do them again. i think what happened was that because my buddies left me all alone, that my mind started to fuck with me. and thats why i got so freaked out. because other than that.the whole trip was a blast. i definetly want to do it again but this time with ppl im closer with, and in a safe environment, like my house.
hope you guys found this report useful. sorry its so long. this could help anyone who has never tried mushrooms see a story about a first timer, and then they can make their own decisions on wether to do it or not. id say if just inform yourself really well, and know what to expect.
party safe, and responsibly - UltimaWeapon
