DP, I went through something very, very similar. I even wrote a book about it after feeling compelled by my experiences to do so; to try to share what I had learned, or more aptly "remembered".
You've been given a lot of good advice in this thread. Some of it would have helped me a lot when I went through my 'awakening' as it is. I was 'blinded by the light' and tried to integrate my experience in rather unskillful ways, looking back. Long story short, and maybe I'll get to this in greater detail later, I had an intervention popped on me by my family and have a year to the day of probation remaining, for possession of mushrooms, mescaline, and DMT. They remain utterly convinced that my 'spiritual awakening' was merely a psychosis induced by addiction to psychedelics. So much for opening up and being honest.
While my use of psychedelics, up until roughly a year ago, had clearly shown me that 'God' is far more than a means unscientific people tried to explain life and existence with, I didn't ever feel like that meant much or that it was of any real significance. Ok, so maybe God is real; what does it matter anyway? I thought maybe God just used us strictly as entertainment or something.
But that started to change when I began using DMT. Mushrooms, LSD, mescaline, etc conveyed to me that there was God. DMT pushed this a lot farther by showing me in the most clear and impacting way that I am God; that everyone is - that life really is a dream, and that the boundless, mystical, spiritual realms that DMT takes people in general and me in particular to are the other side of the dream, the real reality. The whole notion of spiritual awakening took on a whole new paradigm for me, because I understood that we are all really asleep right now. Were we to be fully awakened, the unimaginably fantastic reality that IS available to us - right now - would render one without any desire to 'sleep' ever again, or to even blink really, or to be unhappy. I had found the next ultimate answer - next because I also understood that there is never any final enlightenment, that life is a game that has no end.
I believe, as do others with whom I've shared these experiences with, that I have seen what is truly possible. There's no way to exaggerate how amazing our lives could be: the closest comparison I could come up with would be holding the winning lottery numbers for your entire lifetime. And that doesn't even touch it, really.
Naturally I wanted to share this with everyone. That is the only way any of it would or will happen, is if we awaken each other. Trying to do so has really fucked my life and sometimes I wish I never knew - or believed that I knew in case 'knowing' the truth sounds offensive to you- any of this. It's changed my life permanently.
I wrote a book, like I said, but I never ended up getting it published or even widely circulated. I enjoyed doing so and it helped me in various ways to understand...everything I guess. There's already a lot of books out there that all say the same thing about spirituality. It's kind of hard to break new ground in the arena of eternal truth. I don't mean to be discouraging but you probably won't get a lot of people to read your work and to those who do it will be preaching to the choir.
I don't know where I'm going with this. I'll just offer you some of the same advice presented here. The insights are fleeting. Our mind isn't wired to remember these experiences (thank God, because I would go sit somewhere and think about certain experiences I've had until I died were I able to recall them). I found that the best way for me to keep that spark within and burning alive was to awaken other people. It worked pretty well until I started being branded as a cult leader, drug addict, etc. Keep quiet and don't ruin your reputation. Psychedelics are BAD BAD BAD and spirituality is a joke to most . Don't expect anyone to take you seriously. Don't expect anything major to come of your experiences. I am ear deep in resentment towards my family and the system and dissatisfied with life to the extent that somedays nothing sounds more appealing than the thought of a nice tall bridge to jump off. So much for all that writing I did about unconditional love of self and others and how awesome my life was. The real work IS within. You've opened pandora's box. It's a double sided coin. I wish you the best of luck, and if you ever want get deep about this stuff or relate to someone who has been in your shoes shoot me a PM.
