Mushrooms - experienced - redose nightmare
Tuesday afternoon i got a phonecall from one of my friends B he just picked up 18 grams of mushrooms. Im excited as i haven't had the chance to pop any mushrooms since the early summer, this will be my 7th time. Later that day i meet up with B.
[16:00] -we spilt the mushrooms into 5 piles and we each eat a pile (roughly 3.5g each) lots of shake mushrooms.. yuck
[16:10] -we decide to talk on msn for a bit and wait for the mush to hit us i already feel a little off
[16:25] -im now getting giggly when i look at my hand it appears to morph a little
[16:30] -we now head downstairs, the mushrooms are definitely kicking in, we play need for speed underground for a little bit. B has a steering wheel attachment which is a blast.
[17:00] -our need for speed skills are beggining to lack, the carpet is morphing different sections of it rise up other sections sink down all at the same time, very distracting
[17:20] -B just put on a cd the music sounds amazing we are now playing pool, which is still semi easy to do. the surface of the pool table which is fairly weathered is taking on very interesting mayan fractal like patterns it takes me a long time to complete any shots as the surface of the pool table is far too beautiful to ignore
[18:20] -the past hour was filled with interesting conversation, i feel VERY good about myself and i am VERY confident, no egoloss.
[18:30] -our other friend T arrives, he wants to take some mushrooms too so we show him to the piles, he brought an 1/8 of weed, we roll up a quick joint while he is eating his mushrooms. foolishly i think the mushrooms which are currently affecting me have died down, so i eat another pile.. and a little bit more, somewhere in the area of 4.5-5 grams
[18:40] -we go outside to blaze and have a cig the first dose of mushrooms come back on strong with the weed, i know im in for a rough night as the second dose still doesn't feel like it has hit
[19:00] -we get back inside, its very cold my fingers are numb, they feel VERY strange, this feeling frightens me.
[19:05] -we go back on msn for a little bit T starts feeling the initial effects.
[19:15] -heading downstairs we pass through B's upstairs living room, T shouts out "B your green, the whole room is green, your like santa B, a greener santa though, this room is so christmassy!" the rambling continued for a little bit, i remeber this quote very well for some reason.
[19:30] -we are sitting down watching tv, the simpsons are on, the black outlines of all the characters are moving like worms and splitting up and moving, very hard to explain, lets just say the characters where extremely distorted, the colours are also VERY bright at this point.
[19:40] -now i feel very frightened, i feel a pain in my chest it scares me
[19:45] -we are sitting on the couch, the mushrooms hit T hard he starts to get really antsy and starts making really odd movements.. he reminds me of a snake this adds to my discomfort
[19:50] -there is a table to my right, and a steering wheel for need for speed to my left, i am tripping really hard at this point everything is moving and shifting.. the table and the steering wheel look like teeth the rest of the room forms a mouth in front of me, i am astonished as i have never seen something that isn't there while i was tripping, ii've only seen distortions (shifting, morphing, etc.) this scares the living hell out of me, my jaw drops, it feels like my insides are being RIPPED apart, i cant emphasize how strong and how REAL this pain felt, my mouth is gaping. I try to look normal in front of B and T and it is failing i cannot ignore this i dontdon'tnk ii'veever been this scared in all of my life
[19:55] -im pouring sweat, everything i look at turns into this horrible, sadistic, and terrifying image, this is the definition of a bad trip.
[20:05] -im on the verge of crying i tell B and T that i need to go chill out and just listen to some music for a little bit, they ask if im okay, which i am not, they say if im having a bad trip i should stay with them and not go off by myself, i tell them to come check on me in 20 i just need to chill out. They reluctantly agree.
[20:10] -i go lay on B's couch in his room, i have my ipod with me, i put on some music. If you have ever seen the flash video flashback... that is what all of my music sounds like, rap, classic rock, emo, it all sounds like that. Im very scared and very disorientated im not almost in a frenzied state, im praying for this experience to be over, i tell myself i can tough it out though, itll it'llbe okay in a few hours. The introspective NIGHTMARE beings.
[20:14] -its been the longest 4 mintuminutes of my life, so many thoughts about myself and what i am like run through my head, which are ALL negative, right now i have absolute ego loss.
[20:16] -i figure that its been about half an hour.. i look at my ipod clock and its been 2 minutes, at this point i think i begin crying a little bit i quickly force myself to stop.
[20:20] -B and T come in to check on me and make sure im okay, they told me at this point i was huddled in the corner of his room laying on the floor. They take me back into the living room and make me stay near them, they try to talk to me, it sounds like they are underwater.
[20:30] -we are watching club dredddreadart laughing a little bit, my disturbing visions still remain, i try to put them aside, my introspective nightmare remains, i radically shift emotions
[21:05] -a commercial comes on for a new horror movie.. im in no shape to handle this i freak out. B and T talk me down.
[21:10] -B and T make me get up and play pool, i can barely hold the pool cue, i am trembling.
[21:30] -i give up on pool and go lay down on his couch in front of the tv i put a blanket over my head. the next 2 hours are a total blur, from what B and T tell me i was having the worst trip they've ever seen
[23:20] -we are watching family guy i remeber the characters being distorted so badly i couldn't tell what show it was, all sounds seem to be very slowed down, they sound almost devilish.
[23:40] -i try to quote dave chapelle randomly, i mess up terribly and end saying something that makes no sense, B and T said i spoke complete gibberish the carpet is a rapid flowing river, the ceiling is drooping, the pool table is swaying, the teeth are still there as well as several other terrifying images.
[01:45] -i don'temeber anything inbetween this time period either.. my trip is concluding i sit on the couch silent, motionless, in total shock, i've never felt so poorly about myself before, the introspective nightmare really took its toll on my mentally.
[02:30] -the mushroom effects have now stopped, i still feel absolutely awful, we go outside for a smoke, all conversation is very akawkwardeveryone seems to be pretty angry. T is still tripping, he smokes a bowl he still reminds me of a snake.
The first portion of this trip was amazingly fun and positively introspective, i was very self assured after this, after i redosed it turned into the worst experience of my life. Im sure i left out many of the things that happened during the second portion of the trip, i truly don't know what happened during some parts of it. This experience definitely turned me off of mushrooms, this was my first bad trip.
I am still astounded at how i actually saw things that weren't there, several of the awful images i spoke of appeared in the middle of the floor. I guess i underestimated the mushrooms and took to much. Well i learnt my lesson thats for sure.
*sorry for the poor editing
Tuesday afternoon i got a phonecall from one of my friends B he just picked up 18 grams of mushrooms. Im excited as i haven't had the chance to pop any mushrooms since the early summer, this will be my 7th time. Later that day i meet up with B.
[16:00] -we spilt the mushrooms into 5 piles and we each eat a pile (roughly 3.5g each) lots of shake mushrooms.. yuck
[16:10] -we decide to talk on msn for a bit and wait for the mush to hit us i already feel a little off
[16:25] -im now getting giggly when i look at my hand it appears to morph a little
[16:30] -we now head downstairs, the mushrooms are definitely kicking in, we play need for speed underground for a little bit. B has a steering wheel attachment which is a blast.
[17:00] -our need for speed skills are beggining to lack, the carpet is morphing different sections of it rise up other sections sink down all at the same time, very distracting
[17:20] -B just put on a cd the music sounds amazing we are now playing pool, which is still semi easy to do. the surface of the pool table which is fairly weathered is taking on very interesting mayan fractal like patterns it takes me a long time to complete any shots as the surface of the pool table is far too beautiful to ignore
[18:20] -the past hour was filled with interesting conversation, i feel VERY good about myself and i am VERY confident, no egoloss.
[18:30] -our other friend T arrives, he wants to take some mushrooms too so we show him to the piles, he brought an 1/8 of weed, we roll up a quick joint while he is eating his mushrooms. foolishly i think the mushrooms which are currently affecting me have died down, so i eat another pile.. and a little bit more, somewhere in the area of 4.5-5 grams
[18:40] -we go outside to blaze and have a cig the first dose of mushrooms come back on strong with the weed, i know im in for a rough night as the second dose still doesn't feel like it has hit
[19:00] -we get back inside, its very cold my fingers are numb, they feel VERY strange, this feeling frightens me.
[19:05] -we go back on msn for a little bit T starts feeling the initial effects.
[19:15] -heading downstairs we pass through B's upstairs living room, T shouts out "B your green, the whole room is green, your like santa B, a greener santa though, this room is so christmassy!" the rambling continued for a little bit, i remeber this quote very well for some reason.
[19:30] -we are sitting down watching tv, the simpsons are on, the black outlines of all the characters are moving like worms and splitting up and moving, very hard to explain, lets just say the characters where extremely distorted, the colours are also VERY bright at this point.
[19:40] -now i feel very frightened, i feel a pain in my chest it scares me
[19:45] -we are sitting on the couch, the mushrooms hit T hard he starts to get really antsy and starts making really odd movements.. he reminds me of a snake this adds to my discomfort
[19:50] -there is a table to my right, and a steering wheel for need for speed to my left, i am tripping really hard at this point everything is moving and shifting.. the table and the steering wheel look like teeth the rest of the room forms a mouth in front of me, i am astonished as i have never seen something that isn't there while i was tripping, ii've only seen distortions (shifting, morphing, etc.) this scares the living hell out of me, my jaw drops, it feels like my insides are being RIPPED apart, i cant emphasize how strong and how REAL this pain felt, my mouth is gaping. I try to look normal in front of B and T and it is failing i cannot ignore this i dontdon'tnk ii'veever been this scared in all of my life
[19:55] -im pouring sweat, everything i look at turns into this horrible, sadistic, and terrifying image, this is the definition of a bad trip.
[20:05] -im on the verge of crying i tell B and T that i need to go chill out and just listen to some music for a little bit, they ask if im okay, which i am not, they say if im having a bad trip i should stay with them and not go off by myself, i tell them to come check on me in 20 i just need to chill out. They reluctantly agree.
[20:10] -i go lay on B's couch in his room, i have my ipod with me, i put on some music. If you have ever seen the flash video flashback... that is what all of my music sounds like, rap, classic rock, emo, it all sounds like that. Im very scared and very disorientated im not almost in a frenzied state, im praying for this experience to be over, i tell myself i can tough it out though, itll it'llbe okay in a few hours. The introspective NIGHTMARE beings.
[20:14] -its been the longest 4 mintuminutes of my life, so many thoughts about myself and what i am like run through my head, which are ALL negative, right now i have absolute ego loss.
[20:16] -i figure that its been about half an hour.. i look at my ipod clock and its been 2 minutes, at this point i think i begin crying a little bit i quickly force myself to stop.
[20:20] -B and T come in to check on me and make sure im okay, they told me at this point i was huddled in the corner of his room laying on the floor. They take me back into the living room and make me stay near them, they try to talk to me, it sounds like they are underwater.
[20:30] -we are watching club dredddreadart laughing a little bit, my disturbing visions still remain, i try to put them aside, my introspective nightmare remains, i radically shift emotions
[21:05] -a commercial comes on for a new horror movie.. im in no shape to handle this i freak out. B and T talk me down.
[21:10] -B and T make me get up and play pool, i can barely hold the pool cue, i am trembling.
[21:30] -i give up on pool and go lay down on his couch in front of the tv i put a blanket over my head. the next 2 hours are a total blur, from what B and T tell me i was having the worst trip they've ever seen
[23:20] -we are watching family guy i remeber the characters being distorted so badly i couldn't tell what show it was, all sounds seem to be very slowed down, they sound almost devilish.
[23:40] -i try to quote dave chapelle randomly, i mess up terribly and end saying something that makes no sense, B and T said i spoke complete gibberish the carpet is a rapid flowing river, the ceiling is drooping, the pool table is swaying, the teeth are still there as well as several other terrifying images.
[01:45] -i don'temeber anything inbetween this time period either.. my trip is concluding i sit on the couch silent, motionless, in total shock, i've never felt so poorly about myself before, the introspective nightmare really took its toll on my mentally.
[02:30] -the mushroom effects have now stopped, i still feel absolutely awful, we go outside for a smoke, all conversation is very akawkwardeveryone seems to be pretty angry. T is still tripping, he smokes a bowl he still reminds me of a snake.
The first portion of this trip was amazingly fun and positively introspective, i was very self assured after this, after i redosed it turned into the worst experience of my life. Im sure i left out many of the things that happened during the second portion of the trip, i truly don't know what happened during some parts of it. This experience definitely turned me off of mushrooms, this was my first bad trip.
I am still astounded at how i actually saw things that weren't there, several of the awful images i spoke of appeared in the middle of the floor. I guess i underestimated the mushrooms and took to much. Well i learnt my lesson thats for sure.
*sorry for the poor editing
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