Hello!
After my first experience with mushrooms i could tell they were something special. And I was right. Now I am not the craziest guy out there when it comes to psychedelics, but i do enjoy a good trip. And the past few weeks have been nothing but chore after chore, with only moments to relax between full days of work. As soon as I found my vacation cancelled I knew i had to do something to relax. If i couldnt physically go someplace then my mind at least could savor the skies.
So on a calm end of summer afternoon I ate about 2,3g of home grown cubensis. For sme odd reason I find them quite awful to eat, but once down I rarely get any nausea. Excited about the trip to come (as well as a bit worried I might not be able to work the next day becase of it) I decided to go for a bicycle ride waiting for the alertness to come.
T+20mins: First signs of coming up, with alertness, a slight body buzz manifesting in wide smiles and an inclination towards dancing in the street to the music in the headphones, and apparent pupil dilation.. The scenery started to look more and more "cinema" like, with the colors enhanced and the contours flowing gently in the sunset light.
T+1h: The trip is establishing itself. From here on for the next few hours I was up there with the best of them. After feeling the trip was fully on I retreated from outdoors to the safety of my own room, with the music still playing in my head. I could literally feel my mind letting go, feeling everything around me closer, friendly and somehow uncaring of petty human worries.
I did not feel out of control. Quite the opposite, I felt probably more in control than ever, like the whole world was somehow filtered through me. I was in the beginning afraid of a bad trip due to some fear of the dark that i had as a child and this was to be my first experience with tripping at night. I had read about it being more personal than daytime journeys but I was not prepared for the sheer beauty of it.
My night might be divided in several episodes, as I moved from place to place, wither physicall or within my brain. I will not describe them all, only the ones that have stuck with me for days after.
The most beautiful thing I saw was the night sky. The moon was rising, the stars were starting to show themselves against he dark sky and then.... they started dancing... the blackness of the background started to change color, with ripples of shades moving, and stars themselves apparently formin connections, like neurons, or drawings like constellations. I suddently felt in touch with the ancient peoples that saw the shapes of gods in heavens. I looked up for probably a whole hour, until my neck began to hurt. I was lost in that beauty, and the silver burning moon... it was as if the moon was a shined mirror, and if looked at closely one could see the curve of the sun, with flames on the edge.
There was even a small encounter between the forces of nature, with the white moon in one corner and a giant tree in the shape of a large ape in the other. Monkey versus sky, man versus god. Everything was out of proportion, and I felt like a flea looking in the business of titans. The leaves trembled of winds, and all I saw was the beating of the heart of nature.
Another episode involved me dancing solo in the near darkness of my room. The music created shapes that my mind loved to fill with colors, with stories, with feelings. Moving limbs, contracting muscles gave a feeling of happiness, and one could even argue it felt slightly erotic. I remember at one point laying on my back and just feeling delighted of the scenery that unfolded right in front of my eyes, a fantasy land designed in a mixture of east and west traditions, where gold met glass. The music sounded incredible, and even though it had been playing over and over for the past 5 hours, never did it feel boring and new and deeper levels became more and more apparent.
In the end I fell asleep, a bit later than I had thought, but happy, relaxed, with my mind fully unwound, body relaxed. I did not have dreams, but the sleep was most realxing. The following day I felt a bit lost, being used to the dreamworld my mind had created, and not the mundane one around. But I was not depressed, just disappointed i couldnt share my expereince with the people around me. My mood remained lifted for a few days, and my anger towards my cancelled plans evaporated.
Most excellent. I cant imagine a better time than this.
After my first experience with mushrooms i could tell they were something special. And I was right. Now I am not the craziest guy out there when it comes to psychedelics, but i do enjoy a good trip. And the past few weeks have been nothing but chore after chore, with only moments to relax between full days of work. As soon as I found my vacation cancelled I knew i had to do something to relax. If i couldnt physically go someplace then my mind at least could savor the skies.
So on a calm end of summer afternoon I ate about 2,3g of home grown cubensis. For sme odd reason I find them quite awful to eat, but once down I rarely get any nausea. Excited about the trip to come (as well as a bit worried I might not be able to work the next day becase of it) I decided to go for a bicycle ride waiting for the alertness to come.
T+20mins: First signs of coming up, with alertness, a slight body buzz manifesting in wide smiles and an inclination towards dancing in the street to the music in the headphones, and apparent pupil dilation.. The scenery started to look more and more "cinema" like, with the colors enhanced and the contours flowing gently in the sunset light.
T+1h: The trip is establishing itself. From here on for the next few hours I was up there with the best of them. After feeling the trip was fully on I retreated from outdoors to the safety of my own room, with the music still playing in my head. I could literally feel my mind letting go, feeling everything around me closer, friendly and somehow uncaring of petty human worries.
I did not feel out of control. Quite the opposite, I felt probably more in control than ever, like the whole world was somehow filtered through me. I was in the beginning afraid of a bad trip due to some fear of the dark that i had as a child and this was to be my first experience with tripping at night. I had read about it being more personal than daytime journeys but I was not prepared for the sheer beauty of it.
My night might be divided in several episodes, as I moved from place to place, wither physicall or within my brain. I will not describe them all, only the ones that have stuck with me for days after.
The most beautiful thing I saw was the night sky. The moon was rising, the stars were starting to show themselves against he dark sky and then.... they started dancing... the blackness of the background started to change color, with ripples of shades moving, and stars themselves apparently formin connections, like neurons, or drawings like constellations. I suddently felt in touch with the ancient peoples that saw the shapes of gods in heavens. I looked up for probably a whole hour, until my neck began to hurt. I was lost in that beauty, and the silver burning moon... it was as if the moon was a shined mirror, and if looked at closely one could see the curve of the sun, with flames on the edge.
There was even a small encounter between the forces of nature, with the white moon in one corner and a giant tree in the shape of a large ape in the other. Monkey versus sky, man versus god. Everything was out of proportion, and I felt like a flea looking in the business of titans. The leaves trembled of winds, and all I saw was the beating of the heart of nature.
Another episode involved me dancing solo in the near darkness of my room. The music created shapes that my mind loved to fill with colors, with stories, with feelings. Moving limbs, contracting muscles gave a feeling of happiness, and one could even argue it felt slightly erotic. I remember at one point laying on my back and just feeling delighted of the scenery that unfolded right in front of my eyes, a fantasy land designed in a mixture of east and west traditions, where gold met glass. The music sounded incredible, and even though it had been playing over and over for the past 5 hours, never did it feel boring and new and deeper levels became more and more apparent.
In the end I fell asleep, a bit later than I had thought, but happy, relaxed, with my mind fully unwound, body relaxed. I did not have dreams, but the sleep was most realxing. The following day I felt a bit lost, being used to the dreamworld my mind had created, and not the mundane one around. But I was not depressed, just disappointed i couldnt share my expereince with the people around me. My mood remained lifted for a few days, and my anger towards my cancelled plans evaporated.
Most excellent. I cant imagine a better time than this.
