EV-inc
Bluelighter
Alright this is my experience i had last night...Im having trouble remembering a lot but ill try, the intensity of it all is still kind of fucking with my head, I should also mention that i have had problems with anxiety and depression prior to this, for the past 5 years or so.
It all began with me and a friend we'll call R going to our friend C's house. We arrive there and smoke a fat joint. Approximately half an hour later we walk a few blocks and purchase 6 grams of shrooms, which me and R were going to split half and half. We proceed back to C's house and i down them all quickly in a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. The taste doesnt bother me and i can't even really say i tasted them at all.
My cousin L arrives and we get a ride to her house, as its empty. Im starting to feel the "rushes" and excitement of the trip coming on. I walk from her kitchen to the living room, anxiously. About half an hour after arriving here i start to realize that i underestimated these shrooms, which was my first mistake. I sit down in an armchair and everything in the living room is swirling and melting together, which suprised me because it usually takes longer for anything like this to happen. Hysterical laughing ensues and i fight the urge to become overwhelmed. Soon it is decided that we are going to go to an elementary school nearby so the rest of the girls, which is now including M, can drink.
I start to feel a slight panic, Im REALLY fucking high, the colors around me are amazing and im in total awe, i feel glued to the armchair. The curtains in front of me are shrinking and growing hugely before my eyes. As we are leaving my sense of balance gets totally thrown off and I am having a very hard time walking. My judgment of the ground is out of wack as well as i find myself holding onto the wall and stepping out the door as if we are on a steep hill.
As we are walking I am tripping my fucking ass off, i can barely see and the euphoric body rushes im getting are so intense. I continuously think that i see somebody running ahead of us. My legs begin to feel as if they are shrinking and the trouble im having using them is becoming harder and harder. As we approach the school, I suddenly begin to laugh uncontrollably as Im shrinking, and shrinking, and everything is becoming ENORMOUS! I totally didnt expect this trip to be so overwhelming.
We finally reach the school and I find myself repeating "Im in a fucking madhouse" over and over again, i got caught in a loop for a few minutes saying this and i felt the panic creeping up on me again. Im sure any physcadelic user can relate to this feeling, its so hard to describe any of this even now. I took some deep breaths and told myself to just let it go, in utter awe of the colors i was seeing and the morphing of everything around me. Then this fucking asshole comes up to me, and this is definately where it went wrong. He has a look of fear on his face and it is directly rubbing off on me, "Hey hey, did you know at night, the squirrels they come into your room and they chew your face off..". I was so taken aback by this comment I began to laugh once again, but the huge smile on my face was the total opposite of what was going on inside my head. I walked away from the group worriedly trying to calm myself down, the intensity was rising and I wondered if it was so crazy already how much crazier is it gonna get?
I think at this point I experienced egoloss, I don't really remember much from this period of time but im told I had an extreme look of almost painful fear on my face and that i was pacing and saying i didnt feel like I was in my body. My recollection of this was that hell had broken loose on earth, I looked at my other friend who was tripping also and her eyes were flashing red. Everybodys face i looked into (there was 4 other people we met at the school) was twisting into demonic like features, there was an uncomfortable brightness about the area we were in as well. I hallucinating blood seeping out of the bottom of the walls, at what was really just a puddle, and earlier what i had described as a lake, so you can imagine the amoint I was seeing. I was picturing peoples faces, knawed off and dripping with flesh, the evil was enveloping me. Everything was moving way too fast, and the voices in my head were telling me horrible things, none which I can recollect but it definately happened. I began to feel the urge to cry and stopped myself from screaming. Keep it together keep it together. I had totally lost my mind, i held tightly onto a pole to try and remind myself that this was just a mind fuck and that I was going to be okay. I tried calling my cousin J, but he didnt answer and then to my bafflement there was some girl on his answering machine. This made things totally worse, as I completely slipped from reality and landed in shroom hell.
I don't remember much from what happened here or how long we stayed at this school, but i begged my cousin to go back to her house, as R was having a bad trip as well and the vibes i was getting from her were making my trip even worse. Eventually she agrees and as soon as we leave the school I start to feel calm reaching again. Everything is still going crazy around me stretching, melting, morphing, but i start to understand what is real and what is not.
We reach her house and I am once again happy and from this point on I have a fantastic trip. I feel extremely in tune with everybody I was with and I have a giant smile on my face for the rest of the night. I speak to my mom and have a hard time not convulsing with uncontrollable laughter. I am just so releived that the worst is over. I have never in my life thought something so horrific could happen to a human being. I continuously try to go and look in the mirror, but i never turn the lights on because i don't feel ready for that. The image i am getting in the low light was bringing back not too fond memories of the hell i had experienced earlier. I looked like a fucking demon myself. In an effort to continue the happiness i had usually associated with shrooms I sat down and watched an episode of family guy. The floor was moving beneath me and I was still seeeing patterns and such in every direction but i was having a blast.
The rest of the night i still tripped strongly for another few hours, until I eventually went home and began to come down. I felt emotionally and physically drained and tried to recap on what had happened. I found it so strange how i could go literally from hell to heaven and back. That is what i really felt had happened and it was a profound experience
Im still feeling very confused this morning, and Ive had an intense nausea since I woke up. Although this was not necessarily the best experience I am not going to let this deter me in further phsycadelic experiences. Sorry its so breif, enjoy..![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
It all began with me and a friend we'll call R going to our friend C's house. We arrive there and smoke a fat joint. Approximately half an hour later we walk a few blocks and purchase 6 grams of shrooms, which me and R were going to split half and half. We proceed back to C's house and i down them all quickly in a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. The taste doesnt bother me and i can't even really say i tasted them at all.
My cousin L arrives and we get a ride to her house, as its empty. Im starting to feel the "rushes" and excitement of the trip coming on. I walk from her kitchen to the living room, anxiously. About half an hour after arriving here i start to realize that i underestimated these shrooms, which was my first mistake. I sit down in an armchair and everything in the living room is swirling and melting together, which suprised me because it usually takes longer for anything like this to happen. Hysterical laughing ensues and i fight the urge to become overwhelmed. Soon it is decided that we are going to go to an elementary school nearby so the rest of the girls, which is now including M, can drink.
I start to feel a slight panic, Im REALLY fucking high, the colors around me are amazing and im in total awe, i feel glued to the armchair. The curtains in front of me are shrinking and growing hugely before my eyes. As we are leaving my sense of balance gets totally thrown off and I am having a very hard time walking. My judgment of the ground is out of wack as well as i find myself holding onto the wall and stepping out the door as if we are on a steep hill.
As we are walking I am tripping my fucking ass off, i can barely see and the euphoric body rushes im getting are so intense. I continuously think that i see somebody running ahead of us. My legs begin to feel as if they are shrinking and the trouble im having using them is becoming harder and harder. As we approach the school, I suddenly begin to laugh uncontrollably as Im shrinking, and shrinking, and everything is becoming ENORMOUS! I totally didnt expect this trip to be so overwhelming.
We finally reach the school and I find myself repeating "Im in a fucking madhouse" over and over again, i got caught in a loop for a few minutes saying this and i felt the panic creeping up on me again. Im sure any physcadelic user can relate to this feeling, its so hard to describe any of this even now. I took some deep breaths and told myself to just let it go, in utter awe of the colors i was seeing and the morphing of everything around me. Then this fucking asshole comes up to me, and this is definately where it went wrong. He has a look of fear on his face and it is directly rubbing off on me, "Hey hey, did you know at night, the squirrels they come into your room and they chew your face off..". I was so taken aback by this comment I began to laugh once again, but the huge smile on my face was the total opposite of what was going on inside my head. I walked away from the group worriedly trying to calm myself down, the intensity was rising and I wondered if it was so crazy already how much crazier is it gonna get?
I think at this point I experienced egoloss, I don't really remember much from this period of time but im told I had an extreme look of almost painful fear on my face and that i was pacing and saying i didnt feel like I was in my body. My recollection of this was that hell had broken loose on earth, I looked at my other friend who was tripping also and her eyes were flashing red. Everybodys face i looked into (there was 4 other people we met at the school) was twisting into demonic like features, there was an uncomfortable brightness about the area we were in as well. I hallucinating blood seeping out of the bottom of the walls, at what was really just a puddle, and earlier what i had described as a lake, so you can imagine the amoint I was seeing. I was picturing peoples faces, knawed off and dripping with flesh, the evil was enveloping me. Everything was moving way too fast, and the voices in my head were telling me horrible things, none which I can recollect but it definately happened. I began to feel the urge to cry and stopped myself from screaming. Keep it together keep it together. I had totally lost my mind, i held tightly onto a pole to try and remind myself that this was just a mind fuck and that I was going to be okay. I tried calling my cousin J, but he didnt answer and then to my bafflement there was some girl on his answering machine. This made things totally worse, as I completely slipped from reality and landed in shroom hell.
I don't remember much from what happened here or how long we stayed at this school, but i begged my cousin to go back to her house, as R was having a bad trip as well and the vibes i was getting from her were making my trip even worse. Eventually she agrees and as soon as we leave the school I start to feel calm reaching again. Everything is still going crazy around me stretching, melting, morphing, but i start to understand what is real and what is not.
We reach her house and I am once again happy and from this point on I have a fantastic trip. I feel extremely in tune with everybody I was with and I have a giant smile on my face for the rest of the night. I speak to my mom and have a hard time not convulsing with uncontrollable laughter. I am just so releived that the worst is over. I have never in my life thought something so horrific could happen to a human being. I continuously try to go and look in the mirror, but i never turn the lights on because i don't feel ready for that. The image i am getting in the low light was bringing back not too fond memories of the hell i had experienced earlier. I looked like a fucking demon myself. In an effort to continue the happiness i had usually associated with shrooms I sat down and watched an episode of family guy. The floor was moving beneath me and I was still seeeing patterns and such in every direction but i was having a blast.
The rest of the night i still tripped strongly for another few hours, until I eventually went home and began to come down. I felt emotionally and physically drained and tried to recap on what had happened. I found it so strange how i could go literally from hell to heaven and back. That is what i really felt had happened and it was a profound experience
Im still feeling very confused this morning, and Ive had an intense nausea since I woke up. Although this was not necessarily the best experience I am not going to let this deter me in further phsycadelic experiences. Sorry its so breif, enjoy..
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