Mushrooms (3.8g) - semi-exp - Sunday Afternoon I Died

[MrLeading]

Yesterday was pretty fucked up. My friend and I both digested 3.8g at around 12:45. Within 1/2 an hour both of us started feeling the effects. But shortly after that I realized that my friend had just lost his fucking mind. I somehow held off the effects of the mushrooms until I knew that my friend was alright to hang out by himself. I sat around watching him run around trying to figure out what the fuck was happening. He was so fucking out of it he completely forgot where we were, who he was, who his parents were, and where the fuck spain was. Haha, I litterally had to point spain out on a globe for him, only problem was he had no fucking clue what a globe was. This went on for 4 damn hours. 4 hours of my friend being completely gone. I asked if he wanted to go outside and smoke a bowl with me. It's now been 4 hours into my trip and I haven't allowed myself to trip out yet. (Which I though was fucked up that I could just contain the effects with such little effort.) So we go outside to smoke some pot and he takes a hit. About 10 seconds after he takes a rip he just kind of looks at me and goes "...................shit dude.." I say, "what's up man?" Which my buddy responds with "holy shit............im fucking back." Haha this guy was absolutely insane for 4 hours and then just after smoking a little pot he finally got his grip on reality. And at that second where I saw that my friend was back in his body I just started to trip balls. Like instantly just tripping baaaaaaaaaaaaaalls. I started laughing harder than I have ever laughed before. It was absurd to this that my friend Will and been gone for 4 fucking hours and all he needed was a little pot to straighten him out.

After laughing for a good long while really feel the effects of the mushrooms. I kinda start feeling wierd and I say to Will "Will........I'm losing my god damn mind...."

The next thing I remember was laying on the cement driveway Thinking I had died........really believe that I had died. I heard Will yelling my name and trying to wake me up. When I realized that I could still move I got up and asked Will what happened. I guess I told him I was losing my mind and then I just fucking biffed it. So we go back in the house and I just layed there believing that I had just died and come back to life. Let me tell you, that is a fucked up place to be. I have to suggest that if anyone reads this, try not to think you are dead while tripping balls on mushrooms. It's really fucking depressing.

So anyway the rest of the trip went pretty nice. After we had determined that I had not died we started just talking about patterns that we had noticed in life and how the entire universe is probably just patterns. I wish I would have wrtoe down some of the stuff we talked about because I was digging it for sure.
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[Jabberwocky]

hey good story! Feel free to go more into detail about what happened to you, what were your thoughts, sensations, feelings, emotions, etc when you died. I'm very interested in hearing people attempt to articulate ego death experiences on tryptamines.

I retitled your TR to conform to standards. I made up a title so if you don't like it just PM me what you want it to be.

peace,
samadhi

 

[MrLeading]

haha the title is all good, i didnt know it wasnt up to standard, thank you!

Anyway I wish I could remember more of what it felt like to think that I was dead. I remember lying on the ground and only seeing white light (the sun through my closed eyelids) and thinking that I had died and am moving on. My thoughts went straight to my family and my friend Will who I was tripping with. I felt unexplainably sorry for what I though I had just put him through. He was going to have to explain to my parents what happened and why it happened.

I then heard his voice asking if I was ok. I popped back up and ran into his house and just layed on the floor in there not knowing what was happening. I was 100% sure that I had died but why was I still on Earth? Had I come back? Was I actually in Will's house or had my soul just left my body laying out in Will's driveway with him standing over me trying to wake me up? That thought seemed the most likely so I go up and looked out the window to where I had previously been laying (but at this time I thought I would still be out there.) Right when I looked out the window Will walked in the door and asked me again if I was alright. I fell back to the ground again but kept consciousness this time. I then started to accept the fact that I had died but had just come back to life.

I then started thinking if I had died..........why hadn't anything happened? Did this just prove that there was no God, or did God just not want me just yet. Did God have a mission for me or did he just not think it was my time to die yet. But in any case why hadn't he talked to me.

I thought that it was weird that I was thinking all of this because I do not believe in any kind of organized religion. I actually have absolutely no faith in group like that. So that made me all the more confused why I was searching for God after I thought that I had died. If I died shouldn't I have just accepted the fact that nothing was going to happen?

I layed on Will's floor for a good half an hour not sayin a single word to him. I just thought to myself about death. That was not a good place to be while tripping. It was one of the single most depressing experiences of my life. I had just died and there was no God. End of story.

Later on when we kind of sobered up we came to the conclusion that I had not died I had just passed out for the rush of euphoria I had from Will regaining his mind. Still, it was a fascinating experience that I will never forget.

 

[Jabberwocky]

What do you think now thats its been a few days since the 'death experience'? What does it mean for your life now, I'm curious?

Did you think anymore about what this means for your beliefs in God's existence or whether there is a 'plan' for you?

hey, feel free not to answer these questions as they are very personal...you can explain as much or nothing as you want...this is a great place just to unfold your thoughts though...either in dialogue with me (and others if they are so inclined) or just in a dialogue with yourself...

thats what this forum is all about!

peace!
samadhi smiles