DrUgMeSaNe
Bluelighter
Second time: 3 grams dry shrooms
Setting: My friend Hannah's house...her parents were gone for the weekend
My three friends--their first time tripping. No sober trip sitter.
The Trip:
4:30- me and melissa ate the shrooms on peanut butter sandwiches ( my two other friends were out buying weed, so they ate theres about an hour after we did)-i hadnt eaten since the day before- i had the most difficult time getting them down, mainly because i was anxious and nervous about the trip (plus the shrooms have a awful texture/taste)
5:15- i warned my friends about the intensity of the trip...they didnt really understand what i meant. We began to feel the effects. We became extremely happy and i couldnt stop smiling. Everything was hilarious. We were all on the floor laughing and loving it. Melissa kept saying "im so happy, im so happy". It was great. We packed a bowl. Before she took her first hit, i told melissa that it would be extreme, because i had this feeling that it would be, and i asked her "are you sure your ready?". She said she was so we smoked.
5:30- everyone was talking and i start feeling really cold so i curl up in my warm blanket. I turn on the stereo and the sound of dave matthews soothes my soul. I could feel the music in my head. I continued smiling so much that my cheeks hurt. Everything i say feels golden and extremely important, so i try to use my words sparingly, but wisely.
6:30- the effects are in full throttle. im tripping im tripping im fucking tripping. i couldnt get over how hard i was tripping. the wallpaper was 3D, i had to go in a corner by myself and my insides trembled with this feeling. i couldnt breathe, but i loved it. The railings on the staircase were bending, the walls were moving. I prepared for my journey to the downstairs bathroom. melissa came with me and as we traveled the spiral steps, i could see everything spinning and smiling at me. In the bathroom, melissa and i looked in the mirror. i looked strange, but it didnt bother me. I looked at her eyes and saw within, i saw everything. i was afraid of this knowledge, so i looked away. But i was drawn in by her enormous pupils, so i continued to look and i saw the world through her eyes. They were beautiful, so i looked at my eyes in the mirror and loved them. Melissa was seeing "pictures" and was trying to describe them to me.
7:00- we were doing great until melissa's dad called her cell phone and left an angry voice message. her trip turned from a happy carefree one, to a negative, paranoid one within seconds. she was freaking out and kept saying "this is never gonna end". I helped her, i reassured her that she would be ok. She had to call her dad. i persuaded her not to, but she did, and had a full conversation with him while she was in another planet. when she was off the phone, she was distraught, so i went in the hallway to comfort her. she hugged me, and said "never stop hugging me". i didnt
???-- every waking second is percievable. i can feel each moment, each action, each thought, each feeling with full intensity. time is not valid. colors are insane, and many are too bright for me to look at. its so good it hurts. i go outside alone to smoke a cigarette, and as i closed the back door, i felt i was shutting out reality, enclosing myself in the outdoors. Its dark out, and the wind is blowing, the trees are swaying. Im alone in the world, but its ok, because i am all the matters. My brain is on overdrive and im talking to myself, and thinking so much about life and how important it is. I know that i am peaking, that my mind is being explored, that i have full control, yet none at all. i am the earth, the air, and the sky. i exist. each breathe i take is crucial, and i am aware of every one. trance beats vibe in my head. i am at peace with the world.
???- i go back inside, and hannah is laying on the kitchen floor next to her cat, saying how she has the same mental and emotional capacity. i just smile and smile. we are all worried about melissa and her bad trip, but we all try to let it pass so we dont fall into a bad trip as well. i still feel that its my responsibility to help melissa through this, so it brings me down a bit. luckily, melissa talked to her dad again, and realized everything was cool. she was able to relax and enjoy the trip. the pleasant atmosphere allows us all to enjoy each others company in silence, all of us immersed in our own inner beings.
around 9- me and melissa have heart-to-heart conversations about life and everything that feels so important. we really open up to each other emotionally. we have this connection that no one else can understand, and we communicate almost telepathically. we dont need to talk to understand each other. i know exactly what she is thinking and feeling, because i feel the same way. our peak is over, and we both want it back, she kept saying how painful it was, but how amazing. lyndsey comes over and i can see that she is about to peak, so i tell her to grab a blanket and lay down on the upstairs couch. she does.
9:30- we all are upstairs on the couches. melissa draws her hallucinations. hannah draws pictures. i sit and look out the window and think about how amazing drugs are. lyndsey doesnt move or talk. she is really in it. i love everyone.
10:30- same spot, i gain a sort of lucid awareness. the beautiful thought of the four of us lying in our own blankets, in our own minds, in our own worlds, together externally, but internally, all individuals. we all understand things differently- equally. we are all so comfortable. i never want to leave this spot or the way i feel.
12- i have to drive home. bad idea. i was no longer tripping hardcore, but i was still feelin the shrooms. the traffic lights and the lights on the cars were distracting and they drew me in. i kept thinking that the lane i was in on the road would end. it was unreal. i made it home ok. i chilled out to my ipod and relived the night over and over
conclusion: wow. incredible. i cant wait for the next trip.
Setting: My friend Hannah's house...her parents were gone for the weekend
My three friends--their first time tripping. No sober trip sitter.
The Trip:
4:30- me and melissa ate the shrooms on peanut butter sandwiches ( my two other friends were out buying weed, so they ate theres about an hour after we did)-i hadnt eaten since the day before- i had the most difficult time getting them down, mainly because i was anxious and nervous about the trip (plus the shrooms have a awful texture/taste)
5:15- i warned my friends about the intensity of the trip...they didnt really understand what i meant. We began to feel the effects. We became extremely happy and i couldnt stop smiling. Everything was hilarious. We were all on the floor laughing and loving it. Melissa kept saying "im so happy, im so happy". It was great. We packed a bowl. Before she took her first hit, i told melissa that it would be extreme, because i had this feeling that it would be, and i asked her "are you sure your ready?". She said she was so we smoked.
5:30- everyone was talking and i start feeling really cold so i curl up in my warm blanket. I turn on the stereo and the sound of dave matthews soothes my soul. I could feel the music in my head. I continued smiling so much that my cheeks hurt. Everything i say feels golden and extremely important, so i try to use my words sparingly, but wisely.
6:30- the effects are in full throttle. im tripping im tripping im fucking tripping. i couldnt get over how hard i was tripping. the wallpaper was 3D, i had to go in a corner by myself and my insides trembled with this feeling. i couldnt breathe, but i loved it. The railings on the staircase were bending, the walls were moving. I prepared for my journey to the downstairs bathroom. melissa came with me and as we traveled the spiral steps, i could see everything spinning and smiling at me. In the bathroom, melissa and i looked in the mirror. i looked strange, but it didnt bother me. I looked at her eyes and saw within, i saw everything. i was afraid of this knowledge, so i looked away. But i was drawn in by her enormous pupils, so i continued to look and i saw the world through her eyes. They were beautiful, so i looked at my eyes in the mirror and loved them. Melissa was seeing "pictures" and was trying to describe them to me.
7:00- we were doing great until melissa's dad called her cell phone and left an angry voice message. her trip turned from a happy carefree one, to a negative, paranoid one within seconds. she was freaking out and kept saying "this is never gonna end". I helped her, i reassured her that she would be ok. She had to call her dad. i persuaded her not to, but she did, and had a full conversation with him while she was in another planet. when she was off the phone, she was distraught, so i went in the hallway to comfort her. she hugged me, and said "never stop hugging me". i didnt
???-- every waking second is percievable. i can feel each moment, each action, each thought, each feeling with full intensity. time is not valid. colors are insane, and many are too bright for me to look at. its so good it hurts. i go outside alone to smoke a cigarette, and as i closed the back door, i felt i was shutting out reality, enclosing myself in the outdoors. Its dark out, and the wind is blowing, the trees are swaying. Im alone in the world, but its ok, because i am all the matters. My brain is on overdrive and im talking to myself, and thinking so much about life and how important it is. I know that i am peaking, that my mind is being explored, that i have full control, yet none at all. i am the earth, the air, and the sky. i exist. each breathe i take is crucial, and i am aware of every one. trance beats vibe in my head. i am at peace with the world.
???- i go back inside, and hannah is laying on the kitchen floor next to her cat, saying how she has the same mental and emotional capacity. i just smile and smile. we are all worried about melissa and her bad trip, but we all try to let it pass so we dont fall into a bad trip as well. i still feel that its my responsibility to help melissa through this, so it brings me down a bit. luckily, melissa talked to her dad again, and realized everything was cool. she was able to relax and enjoy the trip. the pleasant atmosphere allows us all to enjoy each others company in silence, all of us immersed in our own inner beings.
around 9- me and melissa have heart-to-heart conversations about life and everything that feels so important. we really open up to each other emotionally. we have this connection that no one else can understand, and we communicate almost telepathically. we dont need to talk to understand each other. i know exactly what she is thinking and feeling, because i feel the same way. our peak is over, and we both want it back, she kept saying how painful it was, but how amazing. lyndsey comes over and i can see that she is about to peak, so i tell her to grab a blanket and lay down on the upstairs couch. she does.
9:30- we all are upstairs on the couches. melissa draws her hallucinations. hannah draws pictures. i sit and look out the window and think about how amazing drugs are. lyndsey doesnt move or talk. she is really in it. i love everyone.
10:30- same spot, i gain a sort of lucid awareness. the beautiful thought of the four of us lying in our own blankets, in our own minds, in our own worlds, together externally, but internally, all individuals. we all understand things differently- equally. we are all so comfortable. i never want to leave this spot or the way i feel.
12- i have to drive home. bad idea. i was no longer tripping hardcore, but i was still feelin the shrooms. the traffic lights and the lights on the cars were distracting and they drew me in. i kept thinking that the lane i was in on the road would end. it was unreal. i made it home ok. i chilled out to my ipod and relived the night over and over
conclusion: wow. incredible. i cant wait for the next trip.
