Readyforchange1111
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- Sep 12, 2020
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Hey, am looking for a bit of advice and insight,
Iāve taken Ket before , and MDMA both many years ago, thatās many years ago because I fucked up and took too much of each of them the last time and had panic attacks (separate occasions)
I was not very spiritual back then atall and despite being extremely high and things being intense AF Iāve never hallucinated before , never seen anything thatās not there Iāve had distorted vision but thatās about it, Iāve had a few panic attacks on coke before and I think I just have āthe fearā of losing control of my body/mind.
i am a very clean and spiritual woman now , Iām 30, I smoke weed at night, thatās about it now. I take no medication at all ,no mental health diagnosis but I clearly have abit of anxiety over loss of control. Iām intuitive and work within the spiritual community, I feel so ready to have this experience but that fear of not coming back to normal, or.. thereās this scenario that freaks me out where i lose control of my mind/body and end up killing myself or hurting myself or something mad like that. Anyone ever had the fear and done it anyway and been able to trip in peace??
Or any advice for how to overcome this? I have traumas I know may come up nothing too horrendous , but .. yeah I guess Iām just seeing if anyone had anything like what Iām talkin about before taking them? I just donāt wana fuck myself up into a bad trip by being afraid, same time I donāt wanna miss out. Am planning on taking psilocybin Iām in the UK and have a good clean source .. then eventually Iād love to have a DMT experience.. but Iām wanting to start small, open my mind and ease myself in, so ANYYYY tips much appreciated thank u in advance xx
Iāve taken Ket before , and MDMA both many years ago, thatās many years ago because I fucked up and took too much of each of them the last time and had panic attacks (separate occasions)
I was not very spiritual back then atall and despite being extremely high and things being intense AF Iāve never hallucinated before , never seen anything thatās not there Iāve had distorted vision but thatās about it, Iāve had a few panic attacks on coke before and I think I just have āthe fearā of losing control of my body/mind.
i am a very clean and spiritual woman now , Iām 30, I smoke weed at night, thatās about it now. I take no medication at all ,no mental health diagnosis but I clearly have abit of anxiety over loss of control. Iām intuitive and work within the spiritual community, I feel so ready to have this experience but that fear of not coming back to normal, or.. thereās this scenario that freaks me out where i lose control of my mind/body and end up killing myself or hurting myself or something mad like that. Anyone ever had the fear and done it anyway and been able to trip in peace??
Or any advice for how to overcome this? I have traumas I know may come up nothing too horrendous , but .. yeah I guess Iām just seeing if anyone had anything like what Iām talkin about before taking them? I just donāt wana fuck myself up into a bad trip by being afraid, same time I donāt wanna miss out. Am planning on taking psilocybin Iām in the UK and have a good clean source .. then eventually Iād love to have a DMT experience.. but Iām wanting to start small, open my mind and ease myself in, so ANYYYY tips much appreciated thank u in advance xx