Though I often feel dead inside,
nothing seems to ever die in me.
I am a time capsle, a museum
of my unnatural history.
Is it the past I grip
that weighs me down?
Does it tire me, all these
thoughts I can't complete?
Beneath, in this ocean
of raw emotion I drown.
I cut down nothing, too
busy planting seeds.
If I gave up and just relaxed my hand,
if I rose and swam the way to land safely,
with this all released or burned away,
what on earth would be left of me?
We are not what we own,
and every possession is perishable
if in nothing more than our own expiration date,
but are even the thoughts,
emotion and memories we carry inside
as transient as that melting, unique snowflake?
For I feel so full and heavy,
but in a way so empty,
so complex and racing,
yet, quite simply, stagnant.
What does it mean to change?
To re-evaluate what's there
and rearrange?
Or could it mean that to change,
I must burn it to the ground
and walk away?
Would I find I am nothing behind it all,
just a wide, cold and empty space,
Or is this all a mask, and behind,
I'd meet my true, long lost face?
nothing seems to ever die in me.
I am a time capsle, a museum
of my unnatural history.
Is it the past I grip
that weighs me down?
Does it tire me, all these
thoughts I can't complete?
Beneath, in this ocean
of raw emotion I drown.
I cut down nothing, too
busy planting seeds.
If I gave up and just relaxed my hand,
if I rose and swam the way to land safely,
with this all released or burned away,
what on earth would be left of me?
We are not what we own,
and every possession is perishable
if in nothing more than our own expiration date,
but are even the thoughts,
emotion and memories we carry inside
as transient as that melting, unique snowflake?
For I feel so full and heavy,
but in a way so empty,
so complex and racing,
yet, quite simply, stagnant.
What does it mean to change?
To re-evaluate what's there
and rearrange?
Or could it mean that to change,
I must burn it to the ground
and walk away?
Would I find I am nothing behind it all,
just a wide, cold and empty space,
Or is this all a mask, and behind,
I'd meet my true, long lost face?

