LunchBoxMuncher
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Hey y'all, (please read everything)
I tried writing out this amazing story for you guys about my hamster, but then the big bad Internet crashed and deleted it, so I shall try again and apologize if it's not what it was. I'm going to just detail each section.
Current Hamster meds : Suboxone 8mg 2x Daily, Benzo and XR ADDERALL when needed and a dose of good ol blood pressure meds cause that's all the rage right now. Also does and has smoked Marijuana for all of this time (on, off, frequent, slowly etc.)
PAST PART1: Before current hamster he loved indulging in IV Dope and Dilaudid. Started snorting and moved on cause Perks and Vikes are for the weak (his obvious mindset at the time)
PAST PART 2(FURTHER BACK):
Hamster had a crazy couple years before part 1 (he can't remember much) through school and loved MDMA and Cocaine. Started as every weekend popping pressed X tabs (10 or so over a 24 hour time) then progressed to getting molly caps (probably cut with speed) 15 or 20 at any day going till his body shut down. Usually all this had coke involved in some times or Coke was used lone.
On hamsters down time he used mushrooms frequently(way more than a few) and some good ol Lsd (so im told) 2 or 3 times. On top of this he drop triple C's commonly when other sources were missing.
Previous to all stated above my hamster would just pop pills as they were available
This part is about hamsters personal days currently and he doesn't expect any sympathy, more of trying to prevent the things that are.
Hamsters Daily Life:
Lives day to day with a horrible brain fog (wonder why) feels like a burning to almost a swelling feeling all through his brain region. This directly causes a detachment from reality. This is matched with horrible memory and constant random. Headaches/Migraines. Thus feeling is paired with an impossible routine, he cannot sleep properly, hes lucky if he falls asleep at 2 or 3 am. This is then followed up by a impossible wake up situation. He can open his eyes at 10am(example) and still not be able to get out the door until 4pm. This is due to this impending doom feeling, social anxiety and dealing with all listed above. (he also has a LTR and a daughter from a different relationship ontop of all this.) its truly crippling, He's not sure how to even begin here.
The time awake he spends is hands down the worst time I he spend. His brain does everything it can to make day to day a living hell. Looking forward to rest when it's not even available.
Before anyone points out SOBRIETY my hamster has gone extensive time periods without any foriegn substance and has resulted in worse mental states. Also I have been through psychiatrists and any medication has opposite effects on my mental. Idk what to even say there. Probably because you can't fix serotonin if there is none.
Now he knows this most likely stems from his past indulgences. He understand the damages but is more looking for coping and tips from anyone whom may experience similar tendencies.
Last but NOT LEAST. I am bringing my hamster to this site mostly for the most important issue, which is helping. Anyone, anywhere I want you to learn from my mistakes, experience and forthcomings. I can't stress how much I would not even wish the day to day life my hamster deals with, it's downright unbearable.
Please if you find yourself before, during or after any situation listed above please reach out to me so you can be smart about your life. Hamster doesn't want to feel selfish but using his mistakes to help other may just give him what he needs to keep going. Even just questions, comments, whatever.
Your all beautiful souls and Mr. Hamster ruined his so please let it help yours, I wrote save but that is just to intense a word these days it seems.
I tried writing out this amazing story for you guys about my hamster, but then the big bad Internet crashed and deleted it, so I shall try again and apologize if it's not what it was. I'm going to just detail each section.
Current Hamster meds : Suboxone 8mg 2x Daily, Benzo and XR ADDERALL when needed and a dose of good ol blood pressure meds cause that's all the rage right now. Also does and has smoked Marijuana for all of this time (on, off, frequent, slowly etc.)
PAST PART1: Before current hamster he loved indulging in IV Dope and Dilaudid. Started snorting and moved on cause Perks and Vikes are for the weak (his obvious mindset at the time)
PAST PART 2(FURTHER BACK):
Hamster had a crazy couple years before part 1 (he can't remember much) through school and loved MDMA and Cocaine. Started as every weekend popping pressed X tabs (10 or so over a 24 hour time) then progressed to getting molly caps (probably cut with speed) 15 or 20 at any day going till his body shut down. Usually all this had coke involved in some times or Coke was used lone.
On hamsters down time he used mushrooms frequently(way more than a few) and some good ol Lsd (so im told) 2 or 3 times. On top of this he drop triple C's commonly when other sources were missing.
Previous to all stated above my hamster would just pop pills as they were available
This part is about hamsters personal days currently and he doesn't expect any sympathy, more of trying to prevent the things that are.
Hamsters Daily Life:
Lives day to day with a horrible brain fog (wonder why) feels like a burning to almost a swelling feeling all through his brain region. This directly causes a detachment from reality. This is matched with horrible memory and constant random. Headaches/Migraines. Thus feeling is paired with an impossible routine, he cannot sleep properly, hes lucky if he falls asleep at 2 or 3 am. This is then followed up by a impossible wake up situation. He can open his eyes at 10am(example) and still not be able to get out the door until 4pm. This is due to this impending doom feeling, social anxiety and dealing with all listed above. (he also has a LTR and a daughter from a different relationship ontop of all this.) its truly crippling, He's not sure how to even begin here.
The time awake he spends is hands down the worst time I he spend. His brain does everything it can to make day to day a living hell. Looking forward to rest when it's not even available.
Before anyone points out SOBRIETY my hamster has gone extensive time periods without any foriegn substance and has resulted in worse mental states. Also I have been through psychiatrists and any medication has opposite effects on my mental. Idk what to even say there. Probably because you can't fix serotonin if there is none.
Now he knows this most likely stems from his past indulgences. He understand the damages but is more looking for coping and tips from anyone whom may experience similar tendencies.
Last but NOT LEAST. I am bringing my hamster to this site mostly for the most important issue, which is helping. Anyone, anywhere I want you to learn from my mistakes, experience and forthcomings. I can't stress how much I would not even wish the day to day life my hamster deals with, it's downright unbearable.
Please if you find yourself before, during or after any situation listed above please reach out to me so you can be smart about your life. Hamster doesn't want to feel selfish but using his mistakes to help other may just give him what he needs to keep going. Even just questions, comments, whatever.
Your all beautiful souls and Mr. Hamster ruined his so please let it help yours, I wrote save but that is just to intense a word these days it seems.
