Marauder
Bluelighter
I take bupropion which helps with the MPA comedown (there isn't one) but it also limits how high MPA can take me. I also take a lot of vitamin C and other antioxidants. There is a study that shows 5-10 grams of vitamin C 30 minutes before ingestion of meth stops most of the neurotoxicity. Anyway, I have a real problem on my hands (pun.)
To keep it short, MPA has been the best productivity drug I have ever used. I have been using it heavily in July and then started again mid August and since my day begins with insufflation of about 40 mg. I'm sad there is no information about its long term use. It completely destroys adderall, meth, Ritalin and PV, not as a "stimulant (recreation implied) but as a performance enhancing drug. The only thing that comes close is Modafinil but this chemical has a weird habit of only working the first 1-2 times you try it. After that it has zero noticeable effects. Same with Adrafinil (analogue.)
I have been working on and off for the past 3 years. I have been unable to hold down a job for more than 7 months, and these are *good* fucking jobs. 6 figures, non-corporate, a lot of telecommuting, etc. Anyway, the medication (bupropion and ssris) stopped working way back and the only way I can get out of bed is with a stimulant.
So the day starts 9 AM with 40 mg total (2 lines) and I insufflate 40-60 mg at work maybe ~1-2 PM. I usually don't dose again after that except when I'm going home (7 PM.) I feel great that the day is over and insufflate maybe 60 mg. When I get home I don't redose for hours or may take a small line to ward off the mental fog if I need to concentrate. On weekends I insufflate 25 - 50 mg lines almost every 2 - 3 hours. Sometimes I stay up all of Friday and Saturday.
During this entire period I've had no side effects except when I tried much higher doses (150 mg built up over 30 mins.) During these periods a thought flashes in my head: "This is like PV's cousin. Wow." This happens especially if I'm sleep deprived.
The past 3 days I've been noticing hand tremors. They come on very subtly over a long period (unlike 30 mins after a big PV dose) and I kind of ignored them, knowing that I was depleting my dopamine reserves and the only real solution is time away from stims. I can't do this right now however. We are working on important projects and I need to be there everyday at 10 AM both mentally and physically. The MPA doesn't just make me feel awake and laser focused on productive things, it helps a lot with confidence, without the jitteriness of most stims. I just feel happy, normal and more importantly, being communicative and social is a part of the job. It's as important as the work I do.
I failed many interviews when I went in depressed and quiet. "He knows his shit, but we don't think we will jive with the team. We rely on teams working side by side and cohesion matters as much as his talent." That's what they tell my recruiter.
I absolutely love my current job and the MPA is a trade off. I will not keep taking it forever but I'm only on a trial period. So far they love my work but next month they decide whether I'm permanent or not.
Today I was giving a presentation and noticed my hand tremors stronger than usual. I had to hold onto something or keep gesturing to avoid bringing attention to this. I don't know if anyone else noticed and I know that if I begin thinking that, it's just paranoia from the stim itself. However, I need something for the tremors, ASAP. Once that's under control I will begin tapering off (started already actually.) If there's a drug test I can pass it. I never had a job that gave drug tests, but I can only pass a urine test at this point. A blood or hair sample will unveil my secret weapon and who I really am. Ironically, if I'm working my ass off and the test sounds an alarm at the amount of methamphetamine found in my system, you'd think the company would want to hire more of us. The functional junkies. It's half a joke .. let's not get into it and back on topic:
What commonly prescribed meds would help with tremors?
What OTC supps help?
I'm out of muscle relaxers (Rx ones) but the Indian pharmacies take a month. I need something in 2-3 days.
Benzatropine is readily available but I'm not sure how effective it is for stimulant induced tremors, nor what reaction it will have with MPA.
Like Benzatropine (and wellbutrin) I can give other anticholinergic drugs a try. Dramamine?
Nicotine and caffeine counter the drugs above, so I know to stay away from them.
What common conditions can cause acute hand tremors? What excuses would be valid besides: we stop in the halls and they notice, I say: "I had too much coffee, it's one of those days, hahaha (coworkers: I know that feeling, hahaha) and we all move along" Overtime they will pick up on it. This dude goes to the bathroom and comes back fresh and clean and suddenly becomes hard to distract. He sniffles a lot. A cold? perhaps? For months? Patterns. It's all about picking up information to form patterns and see trends.
To keep it short, MPA has been the best productivity drug I have ever used. I have been using it heavily in July and then started again mid August and since my day begins with insufflation of about 40 mg. I'm sad there is no information about its long term use. It completely destroys adderall, meth, Ritalin and PV, not as a "stimulant (recreation implied) but as a performance enhancing drug. The only thing that comes close is Modafinil but this chemical has a weird habit of only working the first 1-2 times you try it. After that it has zero noticeable effects. Same with Adrafinil (analogue.)
I have been working on and off for the past 3 years. I have been unable to hold down a job for more than 7 months, and these are *good* fucking jobs. 6 figures, non-corporate, a lot of telecommuting, etc. Anyway, the medication (bupropion and ssris) stopped working way back and the only way I can get out of bed is with a stimulant.
So the day starts 9 AM with 40 mg total (2 lines) and I insufflate 40-60 mg at work maybe ~1-2 PM. I usually don't dose again after that except when I'm going home (7 PM.) I feel great that the day is over and insufflate maybe 60 mg. When I get home I don't redose for hours or may take a small line to ward off the mental fog if I need to concentrate. On weekends I insufflate 25 - 50 mg lines almost every 2 - 3 hours. Sometimes I stay up all of Friday and Saturday.
During this entire period I've had no side effects except when I tried much higher doses (150 mg built up over 30 mins.) During these periods a thought flashes in my head: "This is like PV's cousin. Wow." This happens especially if I'm sleep deprived.
The past 3 days I've been noticing hand tremors. They come on very subtly over a long period (unlike 30 mins after a big PV dose) and I kind of ignored them, knowing that I was depleting my dopamine reserves and the only real solution is time away from stims. I can't do this right now however. We are working on important projects and I need to be there everyday at 10 AM both mentally and physically. The MPA doesn't just make me feel awake and laser focused on productive things, it helps a lot with confidence, without the jitteriness of most stims. I just feel happy, normal and more importantly, being communicative and social is a part of the job. It's as important as the work I do.
I failed many interviews when I went in depressed and quiet. "He knows his shit, but we don't think we will jive with the team. We rely on teams working side by side and cohesion matters as much as his talent." That's what they tell my recruiter.
I absolutely love my current job and the MPA is a trade off. I will not keep taking it forever but I'm only on a trial period. So far they love my work but next month they decide whether I'm permanent or not.
Today I was giving a presentation and noticed my hand tremors stronger than usual. I had to hold onto something or keep gesturing to avoid bringing attention to this. I don't know if anyone else noticed and I know that if I begin thinking that, it's just paranoia from the stim itself. However, I need something for the tremors, ASAP. Once that's under control I will begin tapering off (started already actually.) If there's a drug test I can pass it. I never had a job that gave drug tests, but I can only pass a urine test at this point. A blood or hair sample will unveil my secret weapon and who I really am. Ironically, if I'm working my ass off and the test sounds an alarm at the amount of methamphetamine found in my system, you'd think the company would want to hire more of us. The functional junkies. It's half a joke .. let's not get into it and back on topic:
What commonly prescribed meds would help with tremors?
What OTC supps help?
I'm out of muscle relaxers (Rx ones) but the Indian pharmacies take a month. I need something in 2-3 days.
Benzatropine is readily available but I'm not sure how effective it is for stimulant induced tremors, nor what reaction it will have with MPA.
Like Benzatropine (and wellbutrin) I can give other anticholinergic drugs a try. Dramamine?
Nicotine and caffeine counter the drugs above, so I know to stay away from them.
What common conditions can cause acute hand tremors? What excuses would be valid besides: we stop in the halls and they notice, I say: "I had too much coffee, it's one of those days, hahaha (coworkers: I know that feeling, hahaha) and we all move along" Overtime they will pick up on it. This dude goes to the bathroom and comes back fresh and clean and suddenly becomes hard to distract. He sniffles a lot. A cold? perhaps? For months? Patterns. It's all about picking up information to form patterns and see trends.