I've recently come out of a relationship, I was abused physically and emotionally, controlled me financially and intimidated, by the end he was sexually abusing me too by exploiting me when I was on heavy sleep medication, the physical abuse escalated to him busting up my face and causing me to need 16 stitches in my arm.
We split officially last November but got back together for a couple months this May, I felt he'd got me again, I didn't see a way out this time, i was ready to end my life. When I did end the relationship he threatened to take my son and I stood with a knife to my own throat in complete dispair. that was my rock bottom.
If it wasn't for the fact my ex is on bail for domestic violence I'd have never escaped or maybe wouldn't be here today.
Unfortunately the abuse continues indirectly, he has on two attempts tried to take my son. The first time succeeded and I got him back after he broke bail by mocking me the exact time he took my boy from nursery.
He sent me a message of a thumbs up. Has claimed this was accidental. The second he couldn't take my son because I have had no choice but to remove him from nursery whilst I await emergency legal proceedings. He also was arrested again for threatening me indirectly and breached bail. I do believe this was fuelled by my abusive controlling brother though as we don't get along and he told my ex a pack of lies to give him grounds to call social services a second time.
Social services have taken no action though as I've gotten help for my depression and also cut out my drug use to practically nothing.
I was completely honest with them, he made two contradictive statements thus proving he was lying.
What hurts the most is that he has attempted suicide to emotionally blackmail me into staying with him and abused drugs more frequently than I yet still made these allegations and many others that were hurtful.
I've been painted as a bad person to everyone he knows, He has played the victim and I've had no choice but to allow him to keep bullying me in this way as any action is a reaction. It does hurt though but I'm stronger now and I don't allow him to break me down anymore.
Those that mind don't matter and those that matter don't mind.
Since we split almost a year ago he refused to pay towards raising his son as he spends his weekends on drugs at raves, the only time he would pay anything was when I got back with him for a short while but I know my heart wasn't in it and that is why I felt so low, he just never allowed me the distance to get over him.
at the moment I'm awaiting a court date to ensure he can't take my son from My care or nursery's care. Unfortunately it's took quite a long time to get to this point but I'm working towards him having access as well because I don't want my son to suffer and also I'm hoping he will stop trying to control me but I doubt that.
I won't go into too much detail about the abuse but it left me feeling like I was trapped and the pain was unbearable knowing if I left he'd make my life hell and my confidence was already very very low. I was right but I've no doubt it was the best decision I ever made. I didn't love him anymore. At one point when I was in his clutches I would have done anything for him, he was my world. I could never see what was going on, I made excuses for him. I minimized his actions.
I have always been a fan of recreational drugs and used it as an escape at the weekend when I went out as I don't like to drink. I've cut back on my stim use to next to nothing now, I'll never say never again because when I get the rate opportunity to go out I'd rather take stims that have a beer. This is because I'm trying to live a healthier lifestyle.
Lose weight, feel good.
I've started a course and I've changed my life for the better and already feeling my confidence rising. I've never dieted in my life and the positive effect it's had on me is amazing. I'm feeling stronger everyday.
I've survived the hardest point in my life. I've never been scared of anyone, I've always been able to look after myself but my ex, he petrified me. Still to this day I'm wary of leaving the house.
I wish I could say everything was perfect, it's far from....but I'm me again. I'm starting to feel happy again. I'm free!
We split officially last November but got back together for a couple months this May, I felt he'd got me again, I didn't see a way out this time, i was ready to end my life. When I did end the relationship he threatened to take my son and I stood with a knife to my own throat in complete dispair. that was my rock bottom.
If it wasn't for the fact my ex is on bail for domestic violence I'd have never escaped or maybe wouldn't be here today.
Unfortunately the abuse continues indirectly, he has on two attempts tried to take my son. The first time succeeded and I got him back after he broke bail by mocking me the exact time he took my boy from nursery.
He sent me a message of a thumbs up. Has claimed this was accidental. The second he couldn't take my son because I have had no choice but to remove him from nursery whilst I await emergency legal proceedings. He also was arrested again for threatening me indirectly and breached bail. I do believe this was fuelled by my abusive controlling brother though as we don't get along and he told my ex a pack of lies to give him grounds to call social services a second time.
Social services have taken no action though as I've gotten help for my depression and also cut out my drug use to practically nothing.
I was completely honest with them, he made two contradictive statements thus proving he was lying.
What hurts the most is that he has attempted suicide to emotionally blackmail me into staying with him and abused drugs more frequently than I yet still made these allegations and many others that were hurtful.
I've been painted as a bad person to everyone he knows, He has played the victim and I've had no choice but to allow him to keep bullying me in this way as any action is a reaction. It does hurt though but I'm stronger now and I don't allow him to break me down anymore.
Those that mind don't matter and those that matter don't mind.
Since we split almost a year ago he refused to pay towards raising his son as he spends his weekends on drugs at raves, the only time he would pay anything was when I got back with him for a short while but I know my heart wasn't in it and that is why I felt so low, he just never allowed me the distance to get over him.
at the moment I'm awaiting a court date to ensure he can't take my son from My care or nursery's care. Unfortunately it's took quite a long time to get to this point but I'm working towards him having access as well because I don't want my son to suffer and also I'm hoping he will stop trying to control me but I doubt that.
I won't go into too much detail about the abuse but it left me feeling like I was trapped and the pain was unbearable knowing if I left he'd make my life hell and my confidence was already very very low. I was right but I've no doubt it was the best decision I ever made. I didn't love him anymore. At one point when I was in his clutches I would have done anything for him, he was my world. I could never see what was going on, I made excuses for him. I minimized his actions.
I have always been a fan of recreational drugs and used it as an escape at the weekend when I went out as I don't like to drink. I've cut back on my stim use to next to nothing now, I'll never say never again because when I get the rate opportunity to go out I'd rather take stims that have a beer. This is because I'm trying to live a healthier lifestyle.
Lose weight, feel good.
I've started a course and I've changed my life for the better and already feeling my confidence rising. I've never dieted in my life and the positive effect it's had on me is amazing. I'm feeling stronger everyday.
I've survived the hardest point in my life. I've never been scared of anyone, I've always been able to look after myself but my ex, he petrified me. Still to this day I'm wary of leaving the house.
I wish I could say everything was perfect, it's far from....but I'm me again. I'm starting to feel happy again. I'm free!
their awful behavior is progressive. It is not uncommon for it to progress so far that homicide ends up being the end result. 
