mother, mother

[beanpoophead]

Made me
seventeen sweet years ago
created by your flesh
made me whole
through you in - in you
made me, me with you and you

now you kick me down
now you make me nothing
your life, you push me away
for good - forever, push
because of the one good thing
I ever did, to push you to me

so tired now
of all the yelling
now, im growing tired
of all the things you say
can’t help but feel this way
towards you, now

push me away, push
push me down
now again and again
keep making me
keep taking me
it feels like your
raping me
of the life I wanted
of the happiness
I’ve never had
that you never could give me

of this life you built
begged and torn
tried and trialed, tried so hard
to be the person you wanted to be
now your living through me
beg me to be
you and me and her and we
in us and what we cannot see
or at least you think we can
because I cannot now, not now
not then, not ever again

and I wish I could love you
wish I could love you again and again
could do the things I did again
for you, in me, to make us again
to build upon what we were
no, no it just cannot be

mother, best friend, companion
wish those were true
wish I could be there for you
you just never let me, be me
never got to know me
you cant let yourself know me
your to afraid of seeing you
in me

and im alive through this
waiting for you to see me - clear
wondering if you care
mother, mother
please just love me
for me

 

[cherub]

mother and daughters relationship can be the best and worst thing...... in time girl, i bet things will change. Life always does.

Great work!