Summer of Love
Ex-Bluelighter
this account covers around 3/4 of a morning glory trip, because during the last hours i took a gram of p. cubensis mushrooms(still in effect), and want to describe the seed experience alone.
1 pm today- after being washed, chewed and ate 9g of burpee brand pearly gates morning glory seeds
2:30 pm- very nauseous. vommited heavily for around 5 minutes, felt very releived and calm afterwards.
3-9 pm:
major effects experienced. at first i tried to compare the seed experience to lsd in terms of effectivness, but they were completely different. i had never taken mg seeds when completely sober before, a few times in low doses while on mushrooms and smoking cannabis at the same time. the expereince was very unique. visual distortions were present but minimal, sound was highly intensifed actually very similar to lsd, but in more of a calm, lucid way. no cramps, no further nausea fater i vommited. urinary retention.
the mindstae of this experience really, really surprised me. i was expecting this dose of seeds to be a fairly mild experience, but the euphoria and thought patterns during these hours really amazed me. thougts didnt race as much as with many other psychedelics. everything was so clear, so lucid, and each and every thought stuck with me long enough to see, it and feel it to the fullest. everything around me came to life, but it decided it just wanted to lay back and chill for a while. i hardly had any body load despite others' reports of a horrible bodyload even well into the experience. i put infected mushroom-arabian nights on mescaline on repeat, closed my eyes, and just let the plant take me wherever it choses for me to go. everything seemed like it was timed perfectly. each thought was just a single stone building a giant pyramid, and not once was a stone dropped or the building ruined. ive honestly always laughed at the idea of plant spirits and such, but with this experience, the seeds seemed to really come to life inside me and guide me, unlike anything ive ever experienced, including mushrooms. nothing ever got out of hand. when a negative thought came to my mind, somethign inside me would just tell it to buzz off and get on with it. the spirit inside the seeds seemed to tell my mind where to go next, what needs to be done wiht my mind, what i need to know.
before my experience today, my life was gradually becomming duller, more depressing, and having some severe personal problems to deal with.( severe depression in general, family problems) other psychedelic experiences seem common to me, not a beautiful, mindblowing experience like the first several times. i was surprised that something so beautiful could come out of an experience using only something i can buy basically anywhere. the whole nature of this trip wasnt a flashy, sharp edged experience like lsd. the experience was very intense in tis own right, and was the first time i experienced such powerful psychedelic effects while being so relaxed physically and mentally, much more so than even the finest of mushrooms in my opinion. if i had to compare it to other psychedelics, i would have to say it was a cross between cannabis and mushrooms, but with an enexplainable fullness and clarity to it; it was all there, i desired nothing else. i wanted to touch everything, rediscover it, redefine its meaning, and stare at it blankly in awe like a young child. the lack of visual distortions for me actually made the experience much clearer and more intense, because visuals for me are just a distraction away from the actual mindstate; they take away from what could be a more lucid picture; like tears or blotches on a picture on paper. i felt as if i had seen the true form of "reality". this was the most introspecive experience i have had in 3 years. 3 years ago i had my first experience with lsd. in my mind, befoe today, i was already dead after i lost a lot of my friends and my uncle who was basically my father died. everything was so empty and pointless, even other psychedelic experiences; i deemed everything worthless and stupid. it was a dark side of me that i never revealed to anyone. the combination of the lucidity of this experience, the energy that flowed through my brain and my muscles, the total lack of any anxiety or negativity, and the inner despair and anger within that consumed me; it all helped me "resurrect" myself to what i once was before all the death, maybe even better. of course psychedelics arent a cure all, but this particular experinece really reassured me. it told me that life was still worth living, i have so many different things and places to explore, new people to meet. this experience finally allowed something positive to come into my mind, the first time in a long time, and help me to drive away what i have had inside me for so long. i will forever respect this plant and this experience.
1 pm today- after being washed, chewed and ate 9g of burpee brand pearly gates morning glory seeds
2:30 pm- very nauseous. vommited heavily for around 5 minutes, felt very releived and calm afterwards.
3-9 pm:
major effects experienced. at first i tried to compare the seed experience to lsd in terms of effectivness, but they were completely different. i had never taken mg seeds when completely sober before, a few times in low doses while on mushrooms and smoking cannabis at the same time. the expereince was very unique. visual distortions were present but minimal, sound was highly intensifed actually very similar to lsd, but in more of a calm, lucid way. no cramps, no further nausea fater i vommited. urinary retention.
the mindstae of this experience really, really surprised me. i was expecting this dose of seeds to be a fairly mild experience, but the euphoria and thought patterns during these hours really amazed me. thougts didnt race as much as with many other psychedelics. everything was so clear, so lucid, and each and every thought stuck with me long enough to see, it and feel it to the fullest. everything around me came to life, but it decided it just wanted to lay back and chill for a while. i hardly had any body load despite others' reports of a horrible bodyload even well into the experience. i put infected mushroom-arabian nights on mescaline on repeat, closed my eyes, and just let the plant take me wherever it choses for me to go. everything seemed like it was timed perfectly. each thought was just a single stone building a giant pyramid, and not once was a stone dropped or the building ruined. ive honestly always laughed at the idea of plant spirits and such, but with this experience, the seeds seemed to really come to life inside me and guide me, unlike anything ive ever experienced, including mushrooms. nothing ever got out of hand. when a negative thought came to my mind, somethign inside me would just tell it to buzz off and get on with it. the spirit inside the seeds seemed to tell my mind where to go next, what needs to be done wiht my mind, what i need to know.
before my experience today, my life was gradually becomming duller, more depressing, and having some severe personal problems to deal with.( severe depression in general, family problems) other psychedelic experiences seem common to me, not a beautiful, mindblowing experience like the first several times. i was surprised that something so beautiful could come out of an experience using only something i can buy basically anywhere. the whole nature of this trip wasnt a flashy, sharp edged experience like lsd. the experience was very intense in tis own right, and was the first time i experienced such powerful psychedelic effects while being so relaxed physically and mentally, much more so than even the finest of mushrooms in my opinion. if i had to compare it to other psychedelics, i would have to say it was a cross between cannabis and mushrooms, but with an enexplainable fullness and clarity to it; it was all there, i desired nothing else. i wanted to touch everything, rediscover it, redefine its meaning, and stare at it blankly in awe like a young child. the lack of visual distortions for me actually made the experience much clearer and more intense, because visuals for me are just a distraction away from the actual mindstate; they take away from what could be a more lucid picture; like tears or blotches on a picture on paper. i felt as if i had seen the true form of "reality". this was the most introspecive experience i have had in 3 years. 3 years ago i had my first experience with lsd. in my mind, befoe today, i was already dead after i lost a lot of my friends and my uncle who was basically my father died. everything was so empty and pointless, even other psychedelic experiences; i deemed everything worthless and stupid. it was a dark side of me that i never revealed to anyone. the combination of the lucidity of this experience, the energy that flowed through my brain and my muscles, the total lack of any anxiety or negativity, and the inner despair and anger within that consumed me; it all helped me "resurrect" myself to what i once was before all the death, maybe even better. of course psychedelics arent a cure all, but this particular experinece really reassured me. it told me that life was still worth living, i have so many different things and places to explore, new people to meet. this experience finally allowed something positive to come into my mind, the first time in a long time, and help me to drive away what i have had inside me for so long. i will forever respect this plant and this experience.