Molly anxiety depression help

[Justinlj9493]

I know you've all probably heard this a million times, but I need help and really have nowhere else to turn anymore. I will start off by saying I am 19 years old and was introduced to the rave scene about a year ago by some friends who also introduced me to the most amazing drug I have ever had before. MDMA. Right when I started going to raves I loved the sociability and acceptance of everyone around me. I just felt like I was meant to be there... Basically I never ever experience any happiness anymore and can't understand what people are saying to me most of the time anymore. I have no humor and no personality like I used to. I once was a happy person and very sociable I wasn't the most popular guy in high school but I didn't care I had my friends that I loved to be around and could talk to girls and be myself without a care in the world. I don't have that anymore, my days are now spent looking back and wishing I could be who I once was and have started contemplating suicide in the past months because the anxiety and depression only seems to get worse, and I've started drinking very heavily because I feel that I'm not happy or sociable unless I'm high or drunk. This drug has taken me down a road that only seems to get darker by the day. I'm not trying to get attention by any means by posting this. I just need some legitimate advice. Please help.

 

[Steven325]

Stop using anything.

It's hard for a while, and then after one/a few months you see nothing actually went away (your personality etc) it was just covered up by the drugs, and the days wash all the drug use slowly away until you feel exactly like last year. It's not like you abused drugs for years, you most likely won't have any damage.

 

[matt2012]

recovering from MDMA abuse takes a long time. you are not going to feel like this forever. I went through it and its not cool but its not the end of the world either. first thing is, you are hear asking questions about it so you associating the feelings you have to your drug use. now that you know why you feel this way you can take steps to improve your condition.

first thing is to stop using drugs even weed and booze. both can make your situation worse. next you need to improve you health. start exercising and eating right. go to the gym and get on a healthy sleep schedule. tyr this for a few weeks and I am sure you will feel better. it may take a long time to come back from MDMA abuse so be patient.

 

[Folley]

MDMA comedowns can be scary, but fade quickly and, unless your a serious abuser, rarely have permanent consequences.


Get exercise, sunlight, and a healthy diet with foods high in L-Tryptophan like Turkey, Fish, Nuts, Seeds and other goods. All of these things will help you recover faster, but alone they will do nothing... it's really a combination of the 3 ESPECIALLY with a healthy diet that leads to a faster recovery. Plainly put, live a healthy lifestyle!



I would also like to note that if MDMA abuse is making you this depressed, you may have an underlying condition that the drugs are exacerbating. I disagree with the other posters in that you need to stop ALL drugs, shit take what makes you feel better. I've smoked weed constantly in and out of MDMA abuse and feel it only made the problems easier to deal with.. but that's my experience. Hell even LSD really helped me turn my life around, but the key point is MODERATION abusing any drug will make your situation worse.... so keep things responsible, only you can look after yourself!





Don't worry, you'll be better soon... but the road to a recovery is a long one, and one that involves not taking MDxx for quite some time.

 

[SAMCRO]

Please remember suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Like anything self improvement takes time and hard work. It's going to be tough at first but just by starting to cut out a cpl of bad things in your life and beginning to eat and do more healthy things u will gain momentum and before long u will notice a big difference.

 

[jumpupbambi]

Would be useful to mention the doses and frequency of these doses, monthly, weekly or whatever, take the advice these guys have given and remember, "mind over matter" i personally have stressed over my usage unnecessarily, focusing on what damage has or hasn't occurred is not beneficial and you just need to be good to yourself now.

Is there outside stresses or woes in your life? these are hard enough sober let alone on a comedown, take a look at your life to see if something or someone has crushed your spirit in anyway, this happened to me and i blamed mdma despite being reasonable with it. give it some time and hang in there,

 

[Justinlj9493]

When I first started it was at most 2 times a month on 1-2 points, but got worse as the year went on and met people who had it not far from where I lived. It got to the point I was taking it weekly even when I knew my brain was all out of saratonin I would rail a line just to have that feeling even for 5 mins I would feel on top of the world. The most I did in a short period of time was go through a gram in 2 days. I do appreciate the help and advice.

 

[Dawglaw]

You will be fine. Read my old posts. I had a terrible comedown and am fine now. You will be ok, most of it is in your head. Time and healthy living will fix everything.

 

[pattyn]

I concur. I abused it by taking it 2-4 times a week for 2 months; once I even binged 14 days in a row with the first day using 1.6 gram of mdma (8 pills of 200 mg), so all other consecutive days i felt nothing to barely nothing. still i kept trying to get that feeling back. didn't work and ended up in a severe depression. After a couple of weeks I recovered though. so unless there's another problem, you'll be fine

 

[OniOnnnnn]

I would definitely say this is more mental than physical. I agree with what was said previously that you should look at the stresses and events in your life because if these are causing your depression it certainly benefits you to identify the problem Sometimes after first being exposed to this world, having the best time of your life, meeting all of the intriguing and loving people, your regular day to day life just seems blah and will never stack up to the sensory overload you have blitzed your mind with. This however is something I believe is completely mental because your dosage and usage is not at this point at a level where it has permanently lowered serotonin levels or have an effect on your receptors or re-uptake etc. What you are thinking maybe by, "never ever experience happiness anymore" that like your brains capacity for pleasure is lowered, or even lowered permanently which addiction studies (I believe on dopamine and primarily cocaine though) show is possible but only with extreme use. So I would say its mind over matter.

However if your after rave depression persists you may want to go to the doctor and possibly a psychiatrist. Besides a mentally and physically healthy lifestyle to improve you outlook also know everyone agrees here that the feeling and damage are not permanent for you at this point.

Some outside things to consider though is that MDMA (and psychedelics) use is strongly recommended against for anyone with previous mental health issues. Manic depression, bipolar disorder, split personality and schizorphrenia are examples where sometimes underlying or previously subdued episodes come out or return with drug use. You mentioned anxiety which could have been an initial factor that you are just seeing as a symptom now when really it could have been developing all along. Also if you are on medications (like MAOI inhibitors) or have recently stopped taking anything this can certainly have a strong effect on you mental state, social life etc. Don't be afraid to ask for help. Even if don't feel a psychiatrist or therapy are necessary reach out to good friend or relative. There are many experienced and amazingly intelligent ravers out there that don't use MDMA or stay sober all together and could give you some advice or guidance!