Mixed Questions

[Genavieve515]

I lay in bed dreaming of another day.
A day when I will be available to nobody, when I can be by myself. I dream this day will never happen, for I am always available to someone. A caretaker, a friend, a lover, a raver. I want to have others available to me and my schedule. Selfish? Not in the least.
When I never sleep, and thoughts are winding and weaving throughout my brain, I think of you. I think how I will always love you in time of lonlieness and ecstasy. I care for you so much, and you take my love for granted. You are hurting me, but I allow you to. Why do I continue with this game? I care for you.
Even though you are dead, I love you. I wished for you to go in peace, and you did. Your family is sad without you, but they will survive. Will I survive? Always.
Love,
Genavieve
XOXO

 

[supersonic]

Thoughts that wind around your head in the darkness, are always the darkest, but the knowledge that light ascends once more brings the joy, I know how it is to want to have time with your mind, I have it alot which is probably why I write, but I see those who need more time to talk to themselves. My best friend od'd on heroin, so if those words you be speakin aren't metaphors then I know the feeling.