mixed feelings..

[unicorn83]

you think im crazy and maybe i am
you say you love me
and maybe you do,
you don't understand my past, "it's too hard to grasp"
well what can i say,
i got this disease that killed me mentally.

i was young, fearful, and in despair.
i lost my friends, my dignity and my respect.
i left home, and left the world that kept me in control.
i was all alone, 17, destructive and had no home.

i was all alone, and found one way, to call someone my own.
it wasn't the best, it wasn't right, and now im paying
for the mistakes that make up my past.

i lied, i cheated, and i cried
tears that comforted me all night.
i was confused i was scared, i had no other choice.
but to give up my purity, and hopefully have a home.

my life was a mess, but im back in control,
i no longer cheat, i can't lie, even if it means
ruining my life.
i learned my lesson, i got back my respect,
but the past will haunt me, and maybe
ruin the love i would never expect.

you ask me how do i know if your the one
"you loved so many before"
your the one, cause you make me smile, your the one because
you rworthwhile,
your the one cause you brought back the sparkle in my eyes,
and your the one, because i need you in my life.
not because im desperate and need a guy, but because i love you
and want you in my life.

you begged me to tell u, why i cried,
you begged me to tell you why i didnt sleep all night
well i did, and now u think it's too hard to grasp
well if u cant handle it then why the fuck did u ask?

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im confused i dont know what im thinking i love this guy, but arghhh im just confused!

 

[bisKi]

Very nice work, I guess most of us have experienced that at some point in our relationships with a loved one. And the hardest part is always coming up front with them about our feelings, and them not being able to handle the truth - and us going over in loops inside our heads - "if only i didn't tell you".

Hope it works out well

 

[frostyangel]

Falling in love opens many doors.. and many times it's not what a person exspected.. but, everything that has had happened made you ... well you.. things either make you or break..they might be hard at times.. but the ones around you need to support you and except everything that comes inside the package..

And everything that you had to deal with in you life... is what makes you certain of who you are and what you want in this life..

Listen.. we can promise the world today.. and not give a shit tomorrow but that is the chance we need to take.. when you jump you jump... we don't have wings just yet.. tell that s/o of yours... if their in for the haul.. there is going to be some bumps in the road... we don't live in wonderland.. nothing goes perfect..

I've seen alot and it does take alot to get past everything;even years at times.. but if it's love it excepts with no question..
you can only give the words you speak.. trust.. is more than anyone realizes ...

good luck.. if you need to chat.. aim frostyE1331 any time!!!