Mellabopper
Bluelighter
study hard
have some fun
go out to eat
do more work
go to class
go to class
sleep
seems fair enough
even a good life, no?
but throughout all of this
i kept myself busy
maybe even avoiding
connection
relation
to people
almost forgot what it feels like to love
or to be loved
and held
just held
and looking into his eyes
with a small smile
that tells a thousand words
walking down the street just talking about
whatever came to our minds
and to my surprise,
and my delight
his hand finds mine -
he squeezes,
and i squeeze back.
and when i play cheesy love songs
listening to them on my headphones
so no one else will hear
i can think of you
and i can be filled with the joy you give me.
just to exist
and be happy
i havent heard a cheesy love song in a long time
there wasnt any reason to
however there still isnt
except to remember how good it felt
to have an 'other'
someone to be with
think about
and hold.
but its all empty and my heart has grown cold.
and now while i listen to a sappy song mix cd
that i made a long time ago
with each song bringing an old memory with it
i forget how it felt to think i was in love
to have a crush
to get that tingly feeling
when he would look my way
i miss that
i really, really do.
i miss the old times
i miss being with you
i miss the old places
and the old friends
the old feelings
and how it felt
to be filled with so much emotion
i forget what it feels like to be crushed
to have a broken heart
to cry over a boy
or to be in love with one.
ever since way back when
that summer, do you remember?
when i thought i'd never love again
i dont think i have since then
i wouldnt let myself in fear of being hurt.
its been so long
i almost forget what love is
and i feel like i have a part
missing from my life.
and having ignored this hole,
it has grown too big for me to fix
until now.
well i'm ready to get out there now
i'm ready to bare my soul
to have someone to cry with
and laugh with
and make me feel like a princess.
and even if i get hurt
i will at least be able to say i tried
and i didnt deny myself love that could have been.
that i didnt miss out
on the best feeling in life.
10-10-01 (12:35 am)
Mellabopper
[This message has been edited by Mellabopper (edited 11 October 2001).]
have some fun
go out to eat
do more work
go to class
go to class
sleep
seems fair enough
even a good life, no?
but throughout all of this
i kept myself busy
maybe even avoiding
connection
relation
to people
almost forgot what it feels like to love
or to be loved
and held
just held
and looking into his eyes
with a small smile
that tells a thousand words
walking down the street just talking about
whatever came to our minds
and to my surprise,
and my delight
his hand finds mine -
he squeezes,
and i squeeze back.
and when i play cheesy love songs
listening to them on my headphones
so no one else will hear
i can think of you
and i can be filled with the joy you give me.
just to exist
and be happy
i havent heard a cheesy love song in a long time
there wasnt any reason to
however there still isnt
except to remember how good it felt
to have an 'other'
someone to be with
think about
and hold.
but its all empty and my heart has grown cold.
and now while i listen to a sappy song mix cd
that i made a long time ago
with each song bringing an old memory with it
i forget how it felt to think i was in love
to have a crush
to get that tingly feeling
when he would look my way
i miss that
i really, really do.
i miss the old times
i miss being with you
i miss the old places
and the old friends
the old feelings
and how it felt
to be filled with so much emotion
i forget what it feels like to be crushed
to have a broken heart
to cry over a boy
or to be in love with one.
ever since way back when
that summer, do you remember?
when i thought i'd never love again
i dont think i have since then
i wouldnt let myself in fear of being hurt.
its been so long
i almost forget what love is
and i feel like i have a part
missing from my life.
and having ignored this hole,
it has grown too big for me to fix
until now.
well i'm ready to get out there now
i'm ready to bare my soul
to have someone to cry with
and laugh with
and make me feel like a princess.
and even if i get hurt
i will at least be able to say i tried
and i didnt deny myself love that could have been.
that i didnt miss out
on the best feeling in life.
10-10-01 (12:35 am)
Mellabopper
[This message has been edited by Mellabopper (edited 11 October 2001).]
) I said what the hell.. and here i am again at the beginning, moving forward 1 step at a time,.
