mirrors

[Shuddr2Think]

laying in my bed again.
after another late night...
turned into a new day...
which turned back into night.
i hear you near me
...but still so far away.
i just want to be near you...
i just want to hear you say
i will be okay...
and as i
walk thru the house alone...
unsure of what is happening...
and i avoid looking
at the sad reminders of
another rock star night
full of memories...
mirrors.
i hate mirrors.
they allow me to see that look in my eyes.
and the feeling of
trembling hands
which yet again
shake off that mask of being okay...
all these things...
reminding me of
the extremes
of which i am going to regret
that last one...
and the one after that..
and i promise, this is it for me...
always more...
head poised perfectly...coz im a pro.
inhale...
exhale...
and here we go.
until it ends
and
this feeling of being trapped
inside...myself again
no escape from the endless noise
and still no one to calm me down.
except myself.

 

[lilygirl]

"trembling hands
which yet again
shake off that mask of being okay..."
i know exactly how you feel. this poem was so amazingly beautiful, i don't know how to describe it.
~lil

 

[up all night]

this was amazing... thats all i can say...amazing