Mirrors

[zero9zero]

Looks like you got me again, didn't you?
Just when I thought I had you beat, too.
You've managed to rear your ugly head.
I can't understand why you're my favorite
Crutch to lean on and why I keep going
Back to you, when all you do is
Make my life a living hell and
Unleash this pain on me that's like
Nothing I've ever felt before.
I can't sleep.
I can't eat.
I can't focus.
I can sit there and stare into space,
Sucking down cigarette after cigarette.
I can lay here in bed wanting to beat
My head into the wall in hopes to
Make something hurt worse than this.
I can lay here in the darkness,
Choking on my own tears and
Strangled gasps for air, wishing,
Hoping, praying that the blood would sto
Running from my nose...
To restore a conscious reality that
I freely submitted to you.
Tommorw I will battle your aftermath more,
And try to regain my strength that..
For a brief while you make so great,
Only to take it all away, without notice.
Maybe I'm using you, so I can look into
Your mirror and see how much I hate myself.
I only know one thing.
I've got to put you down.
Once and for all.
dave
2:12pm.
5/13/01

 

[marbica]

"i feel you, man"
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"i'm no angel, but please don't think that i won't try and try" -dido

 

[zero9zero]

^
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hehehehe
-d

 

[cand-E bamber]

youve got a helluva way with words

 

[curiousity]

That was powerful... really well written, straight from the heart.
It's the "once and for all" part that's hardest to stick to. Follow-thru is a bitch.

 

[LiQwidVibeZ]

Nice...I like how you leave the interpetation open. Most could relate whether it be about a substance, regrets, mistakes, or the little demons or flaws that surface about now and than.
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