MollyFein74
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Sometimes I get mini-rolls or MDMA flashbacks when listening to certain songs, basically a song will comeon that ive partied to while clubbing on MDMA and it feels like im a bit euphoric and almost rolling, sort of. Its a common thing for many MDMA users
However, I have been listening to a mixtape produced by a dj that plays at a club I used to roll at every weekend of all the big hit songs from the year. All the songs being played are ones that I have had great times rolling on and instead of getting MDMA flashbacks, BTw this is the first time ive heard this mixtape, I find myself in dysphoria really missing those times and nothing will ever feel as fun and as good. Has anyone else experienced this?
Used MDMA every weekend for over 3 months straight, combining meth for the last month of use so safe to say theres been some serotonergic damage done. Got to the point where rolling on MDMA makes me anxious, floored - but not in the way you want to be floored its a shit cant move feel like sleeping horrible floored, the magical effects of the drug just arent there anymore however if i take it with meth like I used to it works pretty good. This leads me to say... am I getting a mini roll listening to this mixtape, except it is causing the miniroll to feel like MDMA really feels now?
I didnt plan on rolling for a very long time, im talking a solid 12 month break minimum. Still recovering from the affects of abuse with mild depression, can get anxious over things, cognition isnt where it used to be and obviously rolling on MDMA aint fun anymore. However, my life at the moment I have just quit work, 18 and have no direction and socially lost many friends albeit they were never really true friends so that could be causing the depression.
EDIT: Currently listening to a song that I listened to rolling and was super euphoric, right now sober I feel like im having a miniroll however it is slightly euphoric, yet dysphoric and want to cry at the same time thinking of being in the club rolling to this song.
Curious to hear others opinions on this
However, I have been listening to a mixtape produced by a dj that plays at a club I used to roll at every weekend of all the big hit songs from the year. All the songs being played are ones that I have had great times rolling on and instead of getting MDMA flashbacks, BTw this is the first time ive heard this mixtape, I find myself in dysphoria really missing those times and nothing will ever feel as fun and as good. Has anyone else experienced this?
Used MDMA every weekend for over 3 months straight, combining meth for the last month of use so safe to say theres been some serotonergic damage done. Got to the point where rolling on MDMA makes me anxious, floored - but not in the way you want to be floored its a shit cant move feel like sleeping horrible floored, the magical effects of the drug just arent there anymore however if i take it with meth like I used to it works pretty good. This leads me to say... am I getting a mini roll listening to this mixtape, except it is causing the miniroll to feel like MDMA really feels now?
I didnt plan on rolling for a very long time, im talking a solid 12 month break minimum. Still recovering from the affects of abuse with mild depression, can get anxious over things, cognition isnt where it used to be and obviously rolling on MDMA aint fun anymore. However, my life at the moment I have just quit work, 18 and have no direction and socially lost many friends albeit they were never really true friends so that could be causing the depression.
EDIT: Currently listening to a song that I listened to rolling and was super euphoric, right now sober I feel like im having a miniroll however it is slightly euphoric, yet dysphoric and want to cry at the same time thinking of being in the club rolling to this song.
Curious to hear others opinions on this
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bittersweet, I think it is just amatter of accepting it the only thing I can take from it is realising to really appreciate the future fun times even more and learn to treasure the past.
