mind games

[Coreo*~]

I am so confused.
What is going on?
You loved me once,
but left me for another.
You did not give me any reasons
for your departure.
I cry in agony over the emptiness
you have left me with.
Time goes by, then I receive a call.
You miss me?
How can this be? You LEFT me.
You say you want to be friends...
I agree eagerly.
But then all my love for you seeps
back into my body.
You say you aren't ready to come back.
BUT...do I want you back? After all the hurt, all the pain.
You don't know what you want,
you say I was the only one you ever
truely loved.
I BELIEVE YOU.
You come over to talk...
then you kiss me.
What does this mean, have your feelings for me returned?
We move into the bedroom...
you say you still love me,
are you just USING me?
Playing with my head?
You cry as you leave my arms.
What does this mean?
You are confused, I am confused.
Please just LOVE me or LEAVE me.
No more mind games...I don't know how much more I can handle.
Coreo

 

[Squirt]

good writing coreo.
and don't put up with any bullshit. as someone who did for too long, i know how it feels. you deserve more, you're worth more, and happiness is the most important thing in the world. smile!

-- squirt

 

[Goddess]

Very nice girly

Yet, don't let him use you. Remember there's lots of fish in the ocean

Love ya,
The Goddess

 

[Shinobi]

Ahh the battle over the age ole question: Should you take back a once lost lover?
There is an old saying, if you love something set it free and if it loves you it shall return to you.
Probably in your case the relationship was broken off for one reason or another. The other person found someone else, or something came up, life if you will, and you two split. Sounds like the other person let you go and didn't give any reason. Why? Because there wasn't any real just cause.
Often when people are young the relationships they are involved in don't last. No matter what level really. Friends, lovers, people enter and exit our lifes continously. Some we grieve over more than others, some we don't miss others we feel we can't live without.
My advice would be to set yourself as far away from the person who hurt you. They will just hurt you again. There could be a lapse of time where you two might reconsile. But they will just do what they have already done to you previously.
Why do they do this? They are as you put it, confused. These people are unable to reason with themselves on what they want. Once they have something good they need to distroy it. Why? Because they have to have chaos around them.
See, chaos, confusion, drama of any sort is what some thrive on. They will and can't ever admit it. All due to the fact that they will " think " they don't want drama. That on the contary they are fighting against it with their actions. Trust me, they are mistaken. The reasons for being this way are usually dark an hidden. Hince the reason they themselves don't know why. How can one person help another or be with another if unable to help or deal with oneself?
So to avoid the storms that they bare you need to not be involved with them. This is all easier said than done though. Because you and I have longings to be with ones who have hurt us. Our reasons are simple enough. We are able to see into them for the people they " could " be. The persons they once were to us. So we desire, yearn and would do anything to return to those people. Unfortuntly, it is a lost cause.
Now is the time for new beginings. Tell this person you no longer are a part of those mind games they play. That you have moved on to better things and wish for them not to involve you in thier lives any longer. It will be the toughest thing you may ever do, but it will be the best thing as well.
Confusious ( sp ck ) said it best, " Every great journey begins with the first step ". If you need help taking it I'm here for ya

- Shinobi

 

[brownman]

Man, and I thought losing poker games sucked.
We have all been down this road many times. I know this is real tough on you, and you know you can call on me when need be.
In the past month I have gotten to know you, I have seen you have your ups and downs, and through it all, you still maintain your composure. I admire you truly for that.
Time and patience heals all wounds. Right now things are confusing for you, but when the smoke clears and the dust settles, things would have turned out for the very best. One day, you will be able to look back on all of this and laugh. Until then it will be tough to cope with everything.
But from looking at things, you have the support of those that truly care about you, myself included.
You are my sidekick. I have never given anyone that title, and when I call you that, I call you that with high regard. Never forget that I will be right here for you if you ever need anything.
Til then, head up, cheer up...things will eventually go your way. Its that karma thing.

Just continue to be the great human that you are.
Rapidly approaching 1000 posts,

Brownie
[This message has been edited by brownman (edited 21 October 2000).]

 

[Flower]

Much love to ya, girl. Keep that beautiful chin up.

 

[Crow]

You deserve the best.

 

[Yoyi]

"If you love something..set it free.
If it comes back, it is your...
it it doesnt, hunt it down and killit."
Another spin off the poem Shinobi posted.
Easiest advice is the hardest advice.
You know what is best for you. Are you willing to do it? That is the hardest thing to do. Been there. And I am talking about a 10 year relationship. Coreo, put your head up and do what is going to be best for you.

And do it with a smile.

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Remember, happiness doesn't depend upon who you are or what you have, it depends solely upon what you think.

 

[the^sneeker^pimp]

keep your head held high girly. i know it hurts when someone uses your mind, body, and most importantly, your heart like that. like you have told me before, love is blind, and i do understand where you are coming from, but you deserve better.
know that there are people here thinking about you, and if you need anything at all, you know who to call.
kim