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I'm going through a bit of a tough time in my life right now. Actually, my life is effectively perfect, but a girl just messed with my head. I'm trying to get over her, but the whole episode has made me mildly depressed.

My friends are going out this weekend and will be popping some molly. Normally, I'd be super stoked, but I'm a little nervous about what I might be like the day afterwards.

On the one hand, I think that it might make me think of the whole thing from a positive and clear light so I might be able to put the whole thing behind me. On the other, I don't know what my mental state may be the next day.

My usage has been moderate recently. Probably 6 times in the last 6 months, so about 1/month. The last time I did it was 6 weeks ago.

I've always been super upbeat when taking it, so I'm not sure how I'll react in this mental state.

Any people here ever taken it while mildly depressed? How did it affect you?
 
My experience has always been best when I go into the roll in a good mood, but even if I'm feeling a little down the worst is I might not have as much fun. It's not like I'd expect to have a bad time or anything.

Have you had a hard time the next day in the past? If not, I'd say try to take a positive attitude, like you say, and see if it can help clear your head. If so, all the better.

OTOH, if you've felt blue after the roll before you kinda know what it's like, and you might expect to feel down for a couple days. That's the price many of us are willing to pay, but I guess you need to decide for yourself if it's worth it.

Good luck!
Have you had a hard time the next day in the past? If not, you might feel more blue for a couple days.
 
You may be able to see things more clearly or from a more empathy based point of view while under the influence but in the ensuing days your emotions are more likely to spill over in a bad way.
 
The roll without a doubt will make you feel good. Whether or not u will have less of a "good" time depends on the venue. If it is a place u are used to going to with that girl you may end up missing her more but if it is a new place and u have enough distractions (granted you are going into it with a good attitude) you might not even think about her or get over her all together!
IME if im rolling without my love all i can do is think about him :/

P.S. Be cautious in the few days after you roll... Medicating your depression with a drug may make you feel great at first, but worse than b4 later... that's when addiction begins to kick in. I rolled for the first time after a horrible break up bcuz it was the only thing that could make me feel better.. long story short i had to sever all ties with any dealers and rolling friends for about 6 months to kick the habit. GL my friend! PLUR
 
When you use the word "depressed" it tends to conjure an image of a diagnosed psychological condition. But there's a huge difference between "I'm clinically depressed" & "I'm feeling emo over some girl". If your only problem in life is feeling a bit mopey because a girl blew you off, sure go for it!
 
You could always take 5-htp the next 2-3 days after using I always found that helped out with the depressing feelings following a good night if ragin . . You can find em at ur local hemerys or anyplace with vitemians
 
Theonly way isup said:
You could always take 5-htp the next 2-3 days after using I always found that helped out with the depressing feelings following a good night if ragin . . You can find em at ur local hemerys or anyplace with vitemians
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This is a good idea. Proper pre-loading and post loading can make the hangover be shorter and easier. Take 1-2 grams of vitamin c and if you have it, 2-3 grams of piracetam. There are scientific studies that show taking anti-oxidsants helps prevent some of the damage to serotonin receptors (or something like that). Before you go to sleep after your roll is done, take 2 pills (500 mg) of 5-htp. Then take the same amount of vitamin c and piracetam the next morning and maybe more through out the day. Take only 1 pill of 5-htp that night. Repeat until you feel normal, although don't take the 5-htp for more than a week. When I do this, my day after rolling is bearable, and my next day is pretty much normal.

As for the girl thing, I'd say go for it unless you were prone to depression before this. If you are just getting over a girl, you should be fine, or at least okay enough for it to be worth it. I was in a similar situation last summer with a girl and all and I was a little down for a few days afterword, although that was after my second roll in 6 days. That was before I learned to space rolls at least a month.
 
It depends on what your usual experience with MDMA is. If you are usually able to maintain some of the empathic perspective that you experienced while on it, it may help you shift your perception of the situation and deal with certain emotions. If this is not something that happens then it may be more difficult to return to your current perspective after having experienced something different, but that isn't necessarily a bad thing.
 
It is best to roll with a healthy dose of serotonin in the brain. If you are on anti depressants, which depletes natural levels, it is all but impossible to roll. ( from exp)

There are supplements you can purchase at health stores that are supposed to increase serotonin levels. Take them then roll.
 
My girlfriend had a down period around the beginning of our relationship. After a while she became curious about MDMA (the first time we met I was rolling, basically I owe the relationship to it lol) and I agreed to get her some. Her family has a history of depression, and she herself is a pretty melancholy person, and after doing it, even family members have commented on how much happier she seems. It improved her outlook, helped her deal with some issues she had, and generally had an overwhelmingly positive effect.

Not saying that will be the case with you, but it worked for her.

5-HTP is definitely a good idea too.
 
MazDan said:
You may be able to see things more clearly or from a more empathy based point of view while under the influence but in the ensuing days your emotions are more likely to spill over in a bad way.
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THis is exactly what I was thinking.

It also really depends on the dose, and whether you get enough sleep, Vit C, and possibly 5HTP afterwards (get as much sunlight as possible the couple days afterwards).

I personally wouldn't do this, even on a low dose - something like 70-100mg, but that's just me - I'm at a time in my life where if I'm in a bad mood, I know not to take drugs as the (after) effects seriously exacerbate my bad mood.
 
Ecstasy literally changed my life. I was in a 2 year depressed state, then after taking ecstasy, My life was literally changed in the matter of a month. I hail it supreme, as I had tried 4 different anti-depression pills and no luck. MDMA is a miraculous drug, but cannot be abused.
 
clover3258 said:
I'm going through a bit of a tough time in my life right now. Actually, my life is effectively perfect, but a girl just messed with my head. I'm trying to get over her, but the whole episode has made me mildly depressed.

My friends are going out this weekend and will be popping some molly. Normally, I'd be super stoked, but I'm a little nervous about what I might be like the day afterwards.

On the one hand, I think that it might make me think of the whole thing from a positive and clear light so I might be able to put the whole thing behind me. On the other, I don't know what my mental state may be the next day.

My usage has been moderate recently. Probably 6 times in the last 6 months, so about 1/month. The last time I did it was 6 weeks ago.

I've always been super upbeat when taking it, so I'm not sure how I'll react in this mental state.

Any people here ever taken it while mildly depressed? How did it affect you?
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Ill lay it out for you how i see it then u can use common sense from there.


"im depressed, should i take mdma and plummet myself further into depression by burning the last bit of seratonin my brains clinging too and slowly producing"

Think about that, ur answer id obvious.
 
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