Midnight, sleepless & rambling

[katmeow]

This is me
at midnight and
eight minutes
sleepless and rambling
the clock ticks
metronomically
in time with
the rain that falls
on my soul
and I left
my umbrella
hooked on the
seat of the train
and somewhere
along the line
I also lost
the childish desire
to jump
in the puddles
so instead
they're welling up
and overflowing
and I'm drowning
but you think
I'm just waving
because I neglected
to mention
that my smile
is just a farce
this is me
at midnight and
thirty-two minutes
sleepless and rambling
missing, maybe lost.

 

[Dastrix Slogan]

Feeling this way so much right now, the insomnia too

*hugs*

your writing.

 

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

hiya
long time no see.

 

[raverchik]

Beautiful Kat

 

[colicolo]

Sweet - I really like this.

 

[cherub]

I feel you girl , outstanding job~

 

[onetwothreefour]

wow kat.

really.

i went to quote my favourite parts, but i couldn't; it all flows together so perfectly that i just ended up highlighting the entire thing.

this is one of the best pieces of yours that i've ever read. i really like it.

sorry if my enthusiasm probably doesn't gel too well with your feelings though. feeling lost isn't very fun

 

[Dandy]

Great work kat,
I can relate somewhat to that feeling that when left alone everything is sort of put into perspective. When we're not sleeping or when we have lapses and begin to concentrate on something that appears to be deep to us it can really make you think about where you are and what you're doing - something we're not free to do with all the distractions a typical day provides. %)

 

[up all night]

Perfect flow. This will sound so cheesy but it does feel like that late night emotional trickle. Nothing dramatic, just a constant empty presence. Hope all is okay.

 

[katmeow]

Hadn't looked at words for a while, thank you guys

Dandy - you're right that those times when we're not sleeping are often the times we can delve deep into our minds, but I seem to find that this is when I lose all perspective... it's crazy the way my thoughts run away sometimes!

 

[smileyfish]

Kat this is great stuff! Not the best headspace to be in, but you've captured it so well. I love the whymsy of the umbrella line

 

[katmeow]

Apologies for bumping my own work...

I can't seem to write anything these days, so this piece will have to suffice for tonight

 

[(Wordy)]

Perfect flow. This will sound so cheesy but it does feel like that late night emotional trickle.

Not cheesy at all - I totally agree. This piece captures a headspace that I know all too well, and captures it very well.

Writer's block sucks. It hasn't struck me for a while, but when it does, it can sometimes set in for weeks or months. But I think to overcome it, ultimately you just have to force yourself to write, and throw out any preconceived notions about what sort of thing you should be writing, about quality, about being critical of your work... that can come later if it has to. Just write, and you'll probably write pages of trash, but with any luck there'll be a word, a phrase, or an idea amongst the dross that is worth following up and building upon.

Also I find at times when I haven't written for quite a while, I'm less likely to jot down an idea if one occurs to me. If I'm low on confidence about my writing, then sometimes I stop doing these little things that can keep the creative wheels in motion. I think it's really important to keep doing these little things, to keep up these writer's habits like writing a journal, jotting down ideas or inspiring quotes, taking photos of things that are strange and demand expression.

I find meditation helps too - it helps me stay focused and not lapse into negative patterns of thinking, like "I can't write" or "there's nothing to write about", and it can certainly help to stave off insomnia and racing thoughts!