Mid-November Update

Well today I went into the clinic to grab my daily dose and was notified that today was my monthly UA date. I was a little bit uneasy because on Vet's day I dosed 1.5MG Clonazepam. A positive benzo UA at my MMT clinic is very bad. They'll drop your dose something like 20% and make you jump through all these hoops to get it back to where it was before your dirty. You can actually get discharged from the program if you continue to have dirty UA's for benzos. I figured that I am probably safe, today being the 18th and Veteran's Day was the 11th. I took a fairly low dose and it has been a week. That 1and1/2 milligram of Clonazepam is most likely out of my system by now (I hope). I have been thinking about maybe upping my daily methadone dose. Currently I am on 85MG. It has been working OK, but I *am* obviously having cravings to get high - I went and hunted down that Klonopin didn't I? I think 100MG might be a good dose to be at for me. At the MMT Clinic in Spokane, WA (Spokane Regional Health Department) my dose was 115MG and it was the same formulation of methadone (Mallinckrodt Methadose(C) Oral Concentrate 10mg/mL). i'll think more about the raise and make a choice one way or the other soon.
 
Vet's day in the 'States is the 11th right? Same as our Remembrance Day? According to Google, clonazepam's half life ranges from 18-50 hours, but really, unless you have a very slow benzo metabolism I can't see there being much left in your system a week later.

Regardless, it is late enough in the day that you've probably already had your test. Hope it went well!
 
I have been on the program and the craving fer drugs never went away.Oh,it might have lain dormant fer some time, while I happily skipped along to the pharmacy.But without fail my body/mind at one time or another would eventually scream to "consume" something. Guess it depends on how u view the program. If yer using it fer maintenence or just a substitute for feeling high. Probably I bit of both. From what I've read in yer blog.
Listen, I'm really not one to judge. But may I tentatively suggest staying at the dose yer on now. Upping it will just make it all the harder fer u to quit one day.
Unless yer happy and content by being on the program,(cuz it's the only choice fer u) and upping it seems logical cuz yer still getting cravings. If so cheers.
I told myself if I relapse into another serious,year-long addiction. I'm getting on the program. So far I went the cold turkey route. See how this time develops. Also I used a variety of benzos to ease my withdrawals...and now I am fighting myself not to abuse those!!! Those little damn pills are so easy to swallow when they're just sitting in yer cupboard and I'm feeling depressed and have a huge craving to feel better.or to get high.
 
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