fifleman
Bluelighter
Hi everyone. I wanted to post my old myspace music page and see what you think of (or if you can stand) my old school jams. I have written music and songage for over ten years, but get so amped up and nervous around people (my mind shuts me down) that I cannot perform. I have "self-diagnosed" anxiety, and I believe I can sing if I exist in the moment, but I am always so damn worried about what people think of me (even alone), even though it's my own artistic creation and expression from the heart. Who can judge our own creativity? 
Anyways, all of these were recorded with a crappy stock mic with no recording software other than audacity, if that even counts. No mixing, nothing, just raw "goin-with it".
"Anything You Say" was written when I was drinking a pint of Crown every night. It's about the adverse affect my girlfriend had on me, how much she infiltrated me. I could only find solitude in my music. It was an oasis in a desert of pure terror. "Anxious" was written after my cocaine binge, about 45 grams in a month. I was fried. Sam Jqam is a spontaneous crapshoot with a childhood friend. The "freestyle " one is just me recording chords and voice, then recording over with a little chikin' pikin', all on the same crappy microphone .
Anyways, if you have time for just one, check out "Anything You Say" and let me know what you think. Let it resonate with your soul and if you agree or disagree with my style/pitch/clarity/whatever, let me know.
Thanks, Words.
lyrics to anything you say
anything you say (x3),
you must mean,
anything you say (x3),
i don't have to believe,
i've fallen once again,
took it on the chin,
learning what went wrong and next time how to win,
these broken wings are meant to fly,
you're more dangerous, high,
i know you can't be trusted,
and that's why i stay in bed,
anything you say (x3),
must be right,
anything you say (x3),
makes me stay up all night,
these broken wings drink too much,
a lush dramatic on the body,
and i think i need cleaner blood,
you're stopping before you even started,
oh wait a minute, it's three years departed,
that's ok, i found sane,
just not here, not today,
anything you say (x3),
breaks my weakened heart
anything you say (x3),
check the price and throw it in the cart,
i just want to die,
no wait i just want to live,
it's a constant battle of, what you're willing to give,
i know what i want right here,
i know that i'm afraid of fear,
everything you are, you're so far,
Anyways, all of these were recorded with a crappy stock mic with no recording software other than audacity, if that even counts. No mixing, nothing, just raw "goin-with it".
"Anything You Say" was written when I was drinking a pint of Crown every night. It's about the adverse affect my girlfriend had on me, how much she infiltrated me. I could only find solitude in my music. It was an oasis in a desert of pure terror. "Anxious" was written after my cocaine binge, about 45 grams in a month. I was fried. Sam Jqam is a spontaneous crapshoot with a childhood friend. The "freestyle " one is just me recording chords and voice, then recording over with a little chikin' pikin', all on the same crappy microphone
.Anyways, if you have time for just one, check out "Anything You Say" and let me know what you think. Let it resonate with your soul and if you agree or disagree with my style/pitch/clarity/whatever, let me know.
Thanks, Words.
lyrics to anything you say
anything you say (x3),
you must mean,
anything you say (x3),
i don't have to believe,
i've fallen once again,
took it on the chin,
learning what went wrong and next time how to win,
these broken wings are meant to fly,
you're more dangerous, high,
i know you can't be trusted,
and that's why i stay in bed,
anything you say (x3),
must be right,
anything you say (x3),
makes me stay up all night,
these broken wings drink too much,
a lush dramatic on the body,
and i think i need cleaner blood,
you're stopping before you even started,
oh wait a minute, it's three years departed,
that's ok, i found sane,
just not here, not today,
anything you say (x3),
breaks my weakened heart
anything you say (x3),
check the price and throw it in the cart,
i just want to die,
no wait i just want to live,
it's a constant battle of, what you're willing to give,
i know what i want right here,
i know that i'm afraid of fear,
everything you are, you're so far,
