Mugz
Bluelighter
Debating whether to post this as a separate thread in TR, maybe I will, will see how it fits here first.
Did a fair amount of methoxetamine last night, started off just about 50mg sublingual while watching some television, this escalated into a couple more sublingual doses of about 70mg then I decided to go to bed with two doses of methoxetamine in water, so I could enjoy the floating around out of my body total chaos/bliss that is the 100mg doses orally that seem to propel me into a totally different world for a few hours.
I must admit that apon "waking" I say waking although I really mean coming back to this world, realising that everything is real, trying to put my brain back together, as though the high dose methoxetamine experience has reaaranged my brain totally and coming back to the real world is a shock to the system, hard to believe that I will ever be able to reintegrate with this world again.
I won't begin to try and describe the experience, because it is really insdescribable. I wanted to make this post to talk about the after effects after a night of heavy MXE use. I will use a few comments that I said to people on msn about my feelings at the times regarding the after effects of the methoxetamine experience.
It took me what felt like a very long time to come back to the real world, it was almost as if my mind really wanted to come back and it knew that it was back but parts of my body and other parts of my mind were not ready to make the transition yet. I always have problems with my language in the transition phase. I struggle to type or speak but have all the words in my head ready to say but they just really can't find their way out.
It is weird how great I feel after the experience, once the transition has taken place and I am in control of my brain again, can speak and type again, despite the headache and dizziness, I feel mentally like I am "The Big Bossman" nah, seriously though, I do feel really well and it's crazy the afterglow from some dissasociatives.
It is weird, I feel like I have all the answers but that I know that it will not be long before the answers will no longer be there. I know that sounds very reminiscent of psychosis but I can't explain it any other way. Even as I am typing this I feel mentally well, although I am on the brink of falling asleep I truly believe that my mind is a lot more switched on in general. I would love to do some experiments with an MRI scanner and some tests to measure how the brain functions in the afterglow stage of methoxetamine and other similar drugs.
It is like the crazy experience has taught me more than my brain can handle at this stage of my life or maybe even too much for human physiology at this stage of our evolution, so I get a lot of the answers running through my brain now but always knowing that it cannot be sustained and they will all fall out soon, I am not saying I have specific answers, such as proofs for complex algebra, but while in the afterglow phase I do feel as though I know so much more.
Almost as if the secrets of the universe have been given to me but because my brain cannot handle so much in such a short amount of time it quickle sheds information, and before too long, it is all gone, and that is the crash.
It is surprising how stimulating this drug is, when I am lying in bed in the middle of my experience, I don't feel stimulation, or tiredness, I guess that is because I am dissasociated, the clue is in the name really 8) .
I can feel the crash is about to come (it is definitely here now, almost about to crash), wish there was a way to prolong the stimmed afterglow/awareness without fully immersing myself into the methoxetamine experience.
Going to stop my methoxetamine ramble pretty soon now, just wanted to say a few words about how much I am interested in this substance, I know moderation is the key, I do love the drug and the insights that it can provide, also the entertainment aspects of it are great too.
I do feel that there is potential for this as a non recreational drug, but I will not be exploring those avenues, I would like to continue to explore this drug when it isn't going to interfere with my life as I have been doing so the majority of the time so far.
Gonna stop typing now or I will never stop. One final word, I would definitely recommend experimenting with this drug at 100mg doses if they feel comfortable with their explorations at lower doses first. It really is a different world.
Did a fair amount of methoxetamine last night, started off just about 50mg sublingual while watching some television, this escalated into a couple more sublingual doses of about 70mg then I decided to go to bed with two doses of methoxetamine in water, so I could enjoy the floating around out of my body total chaos/bliss that is the 100mg doses orally that seem to propel me into a totally different world for a few hours.
I must admit that apon "waking" I say waking although I really mean coming back to this world, realising that everything is real, trying to put my brain back together, as though the high dose methoxetamine experience has reaaranged my brain totally and coming back to the real world is a shock to the system, hard to believe that I will ever be able to reintegrate with this world again.
I won't begin to try and describe the experience, because it is really insdescribable. I wanted to make this post to talk about the after effects after a night of heavy MXE use. I will use a few comments that I said to people on msn about my feelings at the times regarding the after effects of the methoxetamine experience.
It took me what felt like a very long time to come back to the real world, it was almost as if my mind really wanted to come back and it knew that it was back but parts of my body and other parts of my mind were not ready to make the transition yet. I always have problems with my language in the transition phase. I struggle to type or speak but have all the words in my head ready to say but they just really can't find their way out.
It is weird how great I feel after the experience, once the transition has taken place and I am in control of my brain again, can speak and type again, despite the headache and dizziness, I feel mentally like I am "The Big Bossman" nah, seriously though, I do feel really well and it's crazy the afterglow from some dissasociatives.
It is weird, I feel like I have all the answers but that I know that it will not be long before the answers will no longer be there. I know that sounds very reminiscent of psychosis but I can't explain it any other way. Even as I am typing this I feel mentally well, although I am on the brink of falling asleep I truly believe that my mind is a lot more switched on in general. I would love to do some experiments with an MRI scanner and some tests to measure how the brain functions in the afterglow stage of methoxetamine and other similar drugs.
It is like the crazy experience has taught me more than my brain can handle at this stage of my life or maybe even too much for human physiology at this stage of our evolution, so I get a lot of the answers running through my brain now but always knowing that it cannot be sustained and they will all fall out soon, I am not saying I have specific answers, such as proofs for complex algebra, but while in the afterglow phase I do feel as though I know so much more.
Almost as if the secrets of the universe have been given to me but because my brain cannot handle so much in such a short amount of time it quickle sheds information, and before too long, it is all gone, and that is the crash.
It is surprising how stimulating this drug is, when I am lying in bed in the middle of my experience, I don't feel stimulation, or tiredness, I guess that is because I am dissasociated, the clue is in the name really 8) .
I can feel the crash is about to come (it is definitely here now, almost about to crash), wish there was a way to prolong the stimmed afterglow/awareness without fully immersing myself into the methoxetamine experience.
Going to stop my methoxetamine ramble pretty soon now, just wanted to say a few words about how much I am interested in this substance, I know moderation is the key, I do love the drug and the insights that it can provide, also the entertainment aspects of it are great too.
I do feel that there is potential for this as a non recreational drug, but I will not be exploring those avenues, I would like to continue to explore this drug when it isn't going to interfere with my life as I have been doing so the majority of the time so far.
Gonna stop typing now or I will never stop. One final word, I would definitely recommend experimenting with this drug at 100mg doses if they feel comfortable with their explorations at lower doses first. It really is a different world.
. my k dealer just stopped answering her calls like a month a go. makes me wanna cry.
