unsp0
Bluelighter
I am recently getting back to my hometown after about 2 years being in the military. When I was here I had done my share of meth, along with an assortment of other drugs, so I naturally missed being away from them for so long. After getting my contacts and friends together we started what would become a 7 day ordeal of nonstop smoking/shooting of meth. I know I should have gotten sleep and eaten in the middle of all this but it's easy to forget these things.
I was at my friends house and I had just gotten a ball. I told my friend to load 4 up for each of us with half the ball. I wasn't satisfied with what I had taken, even though it was a tremendous amount and decided to load another in my friends bathroom. I was already noticeably paranoid about what was being said in other rooms as I always think people are talking about me or plotting when I get deep into the zone. I get this hit of about 30cc from my friend and he said "I don't know what you need man, but that's gonna blow your mind". I accepted and continued to shoot this into my right arm. I remember the exact moment that felt like a blur had come over my vision. I was no longer myself.
I felt an instant revelation that this whole set up of being at my friends house was a drug bust. There was no questions asked that I had figured out the truth about what was going on. I sat in front my my two friends who were playing chess at the time and asked them both questions like "so when did you get caught for drugs?" trying to prod them and let them know I was onto them. I was hearing them say things such as "your surrounded" as if they were trying to let me know without actually telling me. This was actually happening, though he was talking about chess moves. I said I'd like to go for a cigerette, though I don't smoke, just to see outside and look for any suspicious cars. Of course everything I saw was cop oriented in some way. The abandoned apartment across the street was a perfect lookout. A huge garbage bin was where I swear I saw a team ready to come raid, and actually hearing footsteps around the house of assembling police teams. This Was Really Happening. I looked at each of them with disgust in how they could do this to me, and they both looked blankly as if acknowledging I was right. I almost took off on foot weating nothing but socks. Not getting into specifics, I readied myself for the imminent and decided we should all go in and get this over with. Getting inside my friends room I was catching on to little things such as the computer he had was connected to the next room to communicate with the "troopers" there. I started making all kinds of remarks regarding how slow these troopers were in arresting me and I was getting irritated.
I was very calm throughout all of this, and very aware of my surroundings, yet I had flipped a fucking switch and now was in mental hell. I looked at my friend and he said "listen, their not gonna come unless you be quiet for 30 seconds". He says he never said this but this is my world. I stayed quiet for 30 seconds at a time and could hear the team assemble at the ready outside but at the end of every 30 seconds I would fuck with them and start talking, so I would actually hear them start moaning and groaning about me not staying quiet. I built a relationship with these what turned out to be team of girls on the computer in the next room. I laid out on my friends mattress with my hands on my head and said I was ready. This turned out to be the biggest trip of all. With all eyes closed I would have the most intense audio hallucination I think the human mind could reach.
I heard the front door being broken in. I heard every room being swept and cleared. Yet they couldn't come into this room until I was completely motionless and silent. This is where it gets fun. They tell me I am being scanned, and that the only way they can be sure I am not going to attack them is if I comply. No motion, No sound. The movie "The Descent" is playing in the background, and apparently they've manipulated the movie to speak directly to me from the next room. This was full visual/audio hallucination and I was fucking complying with these things. This team of girls would direct me to stay still and I would, but when I moved I would hear this movie scream at me and they would tell me to start over. I tried to stay so still with my hands behind my back my fingers were turning blue.
This went on for hours as my friends watched and halfway scared at what was happening to me. I tried every position possibly, sometimes with my face pushed firmly into the mattress almost to the point of suffocation. It was almost extraterrestrial what was happening, I can't even explain. I was feeling them scan my body to see if they could detect movement. These things weren't human. My friends weren't who they said they were. I felt them test me to see if I would attack if they came close. I physically felt one come and tap my shoulder to see if my fingers would move to defend myself. The "girls" in the other room developed a relationship with me being that they liked my attitude towards the whole situation I would hear them reshowing the tape of me figuring the scenario out. They would talk to me and try to walk me through the process.
They were finally talked into leaving by my friend who was outside the door, pleading they let me stay and that I had nothing to do with what they wanted. The girls said their goodbye's through the T.V. and I waited for silence. I sat up and looked around. As I slowly came back from all of this it was a state of utter disbelief as to what had happened. I only half trusted my friends that they weren't some fucking alien cops. The only thing that calmed me down was getting onto bluelight and looking up drug induced psychotic episodes. It explained it perfectly.
It's been 3 days since this experience and I still feel groggy and a little not there. I hope it goes away soon, I really thought I fried my brain permenantly with that. This is just a rough draft of what happened, I could only explain in person what I really went through. I gave away the rest of that dope and swore off of it from that point on. It was like a calling that said "if you do this shit again, we're not letting you go next time"..I hope it never happens again, but by far the best trip of my life due to the realism and the respect I have for what my mind is capable of now.
I was at my friends house and I had just gotten a ball. I told my friend to load 4 up for each of us with half the ball. I wasn't satisfied with what I had taken, even though it was a tremendous amount and decided to load another in my friends bathroom. I was already noticeably paranoid about what was being said in other rooms as I always think people are talking about me or plotting when I get deep into the zone. I get this hit of about 30cc from my friend and he said "I don't know what you need man, but that's gonna blow your mind". I accepted and continued to shoot this into my right arm. I remember the exact moment that felt like a blur had come over my vision. I was no longer myself.
I felt an instant revelation that this whole set up of being at my friends house was a drug bust. There was no questions asked that I had figured out the truth about what was going on. I sat in front my my two friends who were playing chess at the time and asked them both questions like "so when did you get caught for drugs?" trying to prod them and let them know I was onto them. I was hearing them say things such as "your surrounded" as if they were trying to let me know without actually telling me. This was actually happening, though he was talking about chess moves. I said I'd like to go for a cigerette, though I don't smoke, just to see outside and look for any suspicious cars. Of course everything I saw was cop oriented in some way. The abandoned apartment across the street was a perfect lookout. A huge garbage bin was where I swear I saw a team ready to come raid, and actually hearing footsteps around the house of assembling police teams. This Was Really Happening. I looked at each of them with disgust in how they could do this to me, and they both looked blankly as if acknowledging I was right. I almost took off on foot weating nothing but socks. Not getting into specifics, I readied myself for the imminent and decided we should all go in and get this over with. Getting inside my friends room I was catching on to little things such as the computer he had was connected to the next room to communicate with the "troopers" there. I started making all kinds of remarks regarding how slow these troopers were in arresting me and I was getting irritated.
I was very calm throughout all of this, and very aware of my surroundings, yet I had flipped a fucking switch and now was in mental hell. I looked at my friend and he said "listen, their not gonna come unless you be quiet for 30 seconds". He says he never said this but this is my world. I stayed quiet for 30 seconds at a time and could hear the team assemble at the ready outside but at the end of every 30 seconds I would fuck with them and start talking, so I would actually hear them start moaning and groaning about me not staying quiet. I built a relationship with these what turned out to be team of girls on the computer in the next room. I laid out on my friends mattress with my hands on my head and said I was ready. This turned out to be the biggest trip of all. With all eyes closed I would have the most intense audio hallucination I think the human mind could reach.
I heard the front door being broken in. I heard every room being swept and cleared. Yet they couldn't come into this room until I was completely motionless and silent. This is where it gets fun. They tell me I am being scanned, and that the only way they can be sure I am not going to attack them is if I comply. No motion, No sound. The movie "The Descent" is playing in the background, and apparently they've manipulated the movie to speak directly to me from the next room. This was full visual/audio hallucination and I was fucking complying with these things. This team of girls would direct me to stay still and I would, but when I moved I would hear this movie scream at me and they would tell me to start over. I tried to stay so still with my hands behind my back my fingers were turning blue.
This went on for hours as my friends watched and halfway scared at what was happening to me. I tried every position possibly, sometimes with my face pushed firmly into the mattress almost to the point of suffocation. It was almost extraterrestrial what was happening, I can't even explain. I was feeling them scan my body to see if they could detect movement. These things weren't human. My friends weren't who they said they were. I felt them test me to see if I would attack if they came close. I physically felt one come and tap my shoulder to see if my fingers would move to defend myself. The "girls" in the other room developed a relationship with me being that they liked my attitude towards the whole situation I would hear them reshowing the tape of me figuring the scenario out. They would talk to me and try to walk me through the process.
They were finally talked into leaving by my friend who was outside the door, pleading they let me stay and that I had nothing to do with what they wanted. The girls said their goodbye's through the T.V. and I waited for silence. I sat up and looked around. As I slowly came back from all of this it was a state of utter disbelief as to what had happened. I only half trusted my friends that they weren't some fucking alien cops. The only thing that calmed me down was getting onto bluelight and looking up drug induced psychotic episodes. It explained it perfectly.
It's been 3 days since this experience and I still feel groggy and a little not there. I hope it goes away soon, I really thought I fried my brain permenantly with that. This is just a rough draft of what happened, I could only explain in person what I really went through. I gave away the rest of that dope and swore off of it from that point on. It was like a calling that said "if you do this shit again, we're not letting you go next time"..I hope it never happens again, but by far the best trip of my life due to the realism and the respect I have for what my mind is capable of now.
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