Pariahprose
Bluelighter
My journey with meth began a short time after I had gotten out of the hospital for a massive pill OD(hydros,xanax,seroquel,klonopin,lexapro,ativan,and ultram in unknown amounts due to blackout) and double pnemonia n my lungs due to vomiting while asleep and swallowing it. I was 16 when I got out(I had spent that bday unconscious and almost dead). You would think that would have scared me away from getting high,but instead it seemed 2 reinforce an idea of being invincible. So I ended up going from pills to raw(powdered meth that was able to be ate,smoked,snorted,or shot up)and ice forms of methamphetamine.
The first time I ate a little put into my soda,didnt do much except give me energy. The nxt time I tried smoking it and that is when I got my first rush from it...I went to school that day and paid more attention,did more work,and answered more questions than I ever had. I was actually motivated! Using it started out as a way to help n school. However, b4 I knew it, I would be drawn deeper into its world...
B4 I knew it I was driving dealers around at all times of night, selling it at school, and staying up for days. But I was still doing good in school,so I thought little of it. This cycle went on for my junior and senior year...using meth,DXM,and pills (of course marijuana 2,but hey,its just weed). Anything I cud use 2 get a buzz at the time.
When I graduated high school is when my dealing days graduated and took off. I was the guy u cud call anytime of day or night and get anything u wanted. Ended up quitting the legit job I had at the time 2 pursue dealing full time,bc hell, I made more $ doing that. I had become skinny and sick looking,eyes sucken into my skull and pick marks on my face,it was ugly.
One of the most disturbing things that I witnessed during this time was when I was going 2 the dopemans house 2 score some more shit. I walked in and saw this girl who was beautiful. So we sit around passing the pipe and come 2 find out l8er on,that girl was only 12 yrs old living with the dopeman! The dope had aged her a little making her appear older but I am sure he knew her age. Its just sick now that I think about it! But back then, I didnt care about things like that.
Finally,this run came to an end with a trip to rehab...when I got out,started right back up but this run was shorter and ended with my dude getting busted and me realizing that it cuda been me...I woke up...never got caught for dealing,but I got lucky...I dont deal anymore and dont recomend it or meth to anyone...but hopefully my story has woke up someone else...l8er...
Pariahprose
The first time I ate a little put into my soda,didnt do much except give me energy. The nxt time I tried smoking it and that is when I got my first rush from it...I went to school that day and paid more attention,did more work,and answered more questions than I ever had. I was actually motivated! Using it started out as a way to help n school. However, b4 I knew it, I would be drawn deeper into its world...
B4 I knew it I was driving dealers around at all times of night, selling it at school, and staying up for days. But I was still doing good in school,so I thought little of it. This cycle went on for my junior and senior year...using meth,DXM,and pills (of course marijuana 2,but hey,its just weed). Anything I cud use 2 get a buzz at the time.
When I graduated high school is when my dealing days graduated and took off. I was the guy u cud call anytime of day or night and get anything u wanted. Ended up quitting the legit job I had at the time 2 pursue dealing full time,bc hell, I made more $ doing that. I had become skinny and sick looking,eyes sucken into my skull and pick marks on my face,it was ugly.
One of the most disturbing things that I witnessed during this time was when I was going 2 the dopemans house 2 score some more shit. I walked in and saw this girl who was beautiful. So we sit around passing the pipe and come 2 find out l8er on,that girl was only 12 yrs old living with the dopeman! The dope had aged her a little making her appear older but I am sure he knew her age. Its just sick now that I think about it! But back then, I didnt care about things like that.
Finally,this run came to an end with a trip to rehab...when I got out,started right back up but this run was shorter and ended with my dude getting busted and me realizing that it cuda been me...I woke up...never got caught for dealing,but I got lucky...I dont deal anymore and dont recomend it or meth to anyone...but hopefully my story has woke up someone else...l8er...
Pariahprose
