Gooduser I am intrrested to know if after smoking for that length of time youve experienced any health proplems you would directly relate to your use?
I've been scoring from the same guy for over 4 years now. The stuff I have at the moment is pretty good. But yeah the quality goes up and down. If I get a couple of points and it's gone in a couple of hrs I don't rate it. If I can have a decent pipe, then put it down and get doing other things for a few hrs I know it's ok.
I'm trying to reduce my intake to a couple of points a fortnight, on payday. Got paid last night and since the stuff I got last night was good I grabbed more today.. Now my goal is no more for two weeks. Mmm we'll see.
Hey popeyes mate
Good question... The flip side to my usage over that time is that it has definitely affected me health wise.
Let me start right off with from my honeymoon period I’ve always understood drugs can be risky. I read as much information as I could find on everything I was taking, from as many sources and as varied as possible. I think starting using in NZ where because the scene is so much smaller and underground helped me immensely as well. In NZ users educate & look out for new users a lot
I've always tried to eat as healthy as possible, exercise, I take multi vits & fish oil caps, some 5-htp here and there keep my brain challenged. All that has probably helped heaps.
Different drugs have had different effects on me, as far as damage done from smoking shard I am pretty much ok except my teeth are fucked.
Ironically and luckily everyone comments on my nice straight teeth (about once a week at least) Nice as in the front teeth look great, look closer and you can see my grinding have literally ground them perfectly straight. My rear teeth however have been riddled with holes. This was mostly done in the two or so years smoking in NZ, about one month after moving to Melb I got the most intense pain all day & all night. I went to a dentist who said I need 8 fillings and a root canal, possibly 2 root canals if I didn't get one filling then and there.
From the front you wouldn't even notice and so I work hard to look after them now so I don't look like some meth mouth poster child. Always have brushed once a day but and almost in the habit of twice a day now. and ALWAYS after a shard binge or mid binge if needed.
I've had some mental health problems from time to time. Periods of depression and anxiety, anxiety attacks etc. I always felt conflicted when I was depressed because I would get so so low but in the back of my mind I knew I was still the same awesome funny guy, beat myself for knowing I was him and not being able to be him then turn it around be back on form and more me than ever. This went in cycles in various forms. I'm happy I now know I can pull myself out of any hole, mind of matter for sure & am feeling pretty good these days :D
One thing I don't understand is all my usage and the sleep deprivation hasn't aged me like I thought it would. I'm 30 now but easily pass for 24 - 26. Don't get that at all.
How is your health going? I read about your leg and foot... totally see a doctor if it persists even if it's only when you use. I figure if it worries you get it checked
I'm pretty much just buying 1 - 3 points every fortnight at the moment. Have being self controlled with it but not perfect. I like to test myself to see how long I can hold onto it without tapping into some, just so I know I can. The fiend definitely comes out for the occasional appearance with out a doubt.
When you said 'am I addicted? Like, what the fuck does that even mean.' I instantly thought, I totally get that.
Thought that myself a bit now time to time... think maybe we a similar to an extent. I have been paying off bills for the last year and don’t have much spare money, just getting by, when I need to be responsible for rent or bills or even if a mate just really needed money I would be there but shard def eats a lot of my cash. Won't be such a big problem in a couple of months once I get a new job but I'm feeling it now.
I figure because I can always manage to handle any bad shit that happens in my life, I’m not at the point I need to worry. Although I'm always aiming to be back to where I can use and still live how I would like to live, stupid simple stuff like go out for dinners, buy new clothes or go on a holiday now and then.
I may miss on some good things but I won't let myself dig a hole, and sometimes if I do start to dig down I pull my shit together cause its either that or give up in my eyes. I literally say that to myself. Sort my shit or give up on myself. Easy choice
Oh yeah and drugs make me ramble a lot obviously.
Onit.