-Guido-
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While a lot of the old timers here know me as the infamous CG, to the newbies I have used heroin for 7 years and then switched to Methadone Maintenance. At the end of this month it will be 7 years on Methadone.
We recently got a new doctor who was a former employee at a drug court and thinks of us as scum. She despises anyone being on benzos or any other medications because she thinks we will eat them or sell them. She also refuses people requests to lower doses as well as other faggotry.
Anyways I was given the choice to either do to a benzo detox for my 2mg a day Klonopin script from my Psychiatrist and stay on the program or get kicked off by a "Medical Detox". My clinic's Medical Detox entails of reducing your dose by 10mg immediately and then 10mg every three days. Once you hit 30mg they reduce you by 5mg every 3 days and then send you off.
I more or less told the doctor to fuck herself because she had no right to overide my psychiatric care. I also never got a fair hearing, an appeal, nor the paper one is to sign when being detoxed. I could give a shit because I did want off at this point, much slower of course, but I reported her along with nearly every other patient to the State of NY and some advocate groups such as OASAS.
I'm currently on 20mg of Methadone now. Originally I started at 100mg. Tomorrow I start 15mg. The only other medication I am on besides 1mg of Clonazapam twice a day is Hydroxyzine, which I have available in 25mg capsules and 50mg capsules. I'm a steroid user as well but currently I am only on a low dose of Testosterone and some Dianabol to maintain my body and help get myself out of bed. Occasionally I cop a 1mg Xanax or 10mg Valium to help with things.
I feel like shit. Cold. Hot flashes once ina while. Aches. No energy. No desire to eat. Hard to sleep. Depressed. Angry. No other symptoms to report aside from the fact that if I didn't have a family and loved ones I would probably top myself.
I can deal with feeling depressed but as far as everything else goes, fuck that. I would like to get a job ASAP in order have the funds to alleviate any PAWS with Etizolam as well as prevent my body from remaining in a catabolic state. I don't want to go the Suboxone route. My question is how long is it going to take before I don't feel shitty like this once my detox is over?
We recently got a new doctor who was a former employee at a drug court and thinks of us as scum. She despises anyone being on benzos or any other medications because she thinks we will eat them or sell them. She also refuses people requests to lower doses as well as other faggotry.
Anyways I was given the choice to either do to a benzo detox for my 2mg a day Klonopin script from my Psychiatrist and stay on the program or get kicked off by a "Medical Detox". My clinic's Medical Detox entails of reducing your dose by 10mg immediately and then 10mg every three days. Once you hit 30mg they reduce you by 5mg every 3 days and then send you off.
I more or less told the doctor to fuck herself because she had no right to overide my psychiatric care. I also never got a fair hearing, an appeal, nor the paper one is to sign when being detoxed. I could give a shit because I did want off at this point, much slower of course, but I reported her along with nearly every other patient to the State of NY and some advocate groups such as OASAS.
I'm currently on 20mg of Methadone now. Originally I started at 100mg. Tomorrow I start 15mg. The only other medication I am on besides 1mg of Clonazapam twice a day is Hydroxyzine, which I have available in 25mg capsules and 50mg capsules. I'm a steroid user as well but currently I am only on a low dose of Testosterone and some Dianabol to maintain my body and help get myself out of bed. Occasionally I cop a 1mg Xanax or 10mg Valium to help with things.
I feel like shit. Cold. Hot flashes once ina while. Aches. No energy. No desire to eat. Hard to sleep. Depressed. Angry. No other symptoms to report aside from the fact that if I didn't have a family and loved ones I would probably top myself.
I can deal with feeling depressed but as far as everything else goes, fuck that. I would like to get a job ASAP in order have the funds to alleviate any PAWS with Etizolam as well as prevent my body from remaining in a catabolic state. I don't want to go the Suboxone route. My question is how long is it going to take before I don't feel shitty like this once my detox is over?