juzproductionz
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jul 7, 2007
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Getting my dope is getting to be an expensive habit and since I have no job and just got turned down for disability I do not know what I am going to do. I have terrible anxiety and depression and opiates are the only thing that make me feel "normal" I know this may seem like a sad accuse to get high, but have been been depressed and anxious all my life. Even when I quite all drugs for a years and explored many avenues of therapy and medicine things were even worse then when I am using drugs now.
The problem is that I deal with a middle man who charges me $5 extra a pack so he can get his cut. And it takes at least 3 packs to do anything.
I don't want to be extremely addicted because money issues plus tolerance so I do this three times a week and on my off days I take tramadol (which does nothing for mood or anxiety) so I don't withdrawal bad.
Since, I know quiting is not an option for me, and I am spending a hell of a lot money than I would be doing at a done clinic, should I get my dope legally.
It sounds good I spend less money, get to take opitates everyday which = less depression for me, and don't have to worry about going to jail.
I know everyone here would advise me against this since I don't have monster habit yet and done withdrawal are horrible, but even then if I ever did want to quit could I just taper and move or too sub?
I figured I would be saving almost $80 a week, that could pay for my car insurance each month and I would still have $200 left over. And the lady at the done clinic sure sounds like she want to take me in, she actually teaches at my school.
Thanks.
The problem is that I deal with a middle man who charges me $5 extra a pack so he can get his cut. And it takes at least 3 packs to do anything.
I don't want to be extremely addicted because money issues plus tolerance so I do this three times a week and on my off days I take tramadol (which does nothing for mood or anxiety) so I don't withdrawal bad.
Since, I know quiting is not an option for me, and I am spending a hell of a lot money than I would be doing at a done clinic, should I get my dope legally.
It sounds good I spend less money, get to take opitates everyday which = less depression for me, and don't have to worry about going to jail.
I know everyone here would advise me against this since I don't have monster habit yet and done withdrawal are horrible, but even then if I ever did want to quit could I just taper and move or too sub?
I figured I would be saving almost $80 a week, that could pay for my car insurance each month and I would still have $200 left over. And the lady at the done clinic sure sounds like she want to take me in, she actually teaches at my school.
Thanks.