After having a profoundly deep relationship with the most pleasing and desirous girlfriend of my life; Heroin, she became too taxing, needing all my money for our love affair to continue. Frequently causing me to run out of money and then be left alone, as my heart and body broke into shreds without her by my side.
And though in time I'd always be able to have enough for her to come back over for one night stands, our relationship became so dysfunctional that I was nearly always on the verge of suicide. Craving her return with all of my being, only able to quell the pain when I could again inject her into my veins, as she washed away all the pain and filled me with her otherworldly pleasures. Staying with me but only for brief a time, then leaving just as quickly as she arrived.
Eventually I realized the only way out from this relationship was suicide, even though I could still occasionally get the money needed to convince her to come back, my life was filled with so much turmoil continuing this relationship much longer would certainly lead to my planned demise.
However I decided I would see if I could find something else to replace her, to ease the pain so I could continue living, despite never feeling her caress again. And thus I was lead to Methadone. Far enough from my previous romance, but the proper kind of medicine to balance out the hardships I had endured.
And though in time I'd always be able to have enough for her to come back over for one night stands, our relationship became so dysfunctional that I was nearly always on the verge of suicide. Craving her return with all of my being, only able to quell the pain when I could again inject her into my veins, as she washed away all the pain and filled me with her otherworldly pleasures. Staying with me but only for brief a time, then leaving just as quickly as she arrived.
Eventually I realized the only way out from this relationship was suicide, even though I could still occasionally get the money needed to convince her to come back, my life was filled with so much turmoil continuing this relationship much longer would certainly lead to my planned demise.
However I decided I would see if I could find something else to replace her, to ease the pain so I could continue living, despite never feeling her caress again. And thus I was lead to Methadone. Far enough from my previous romance, but the proper kind of medicine to balance out the hardships I had endured.
However aside from a relief that came with the knowledge the Heroin cravings were no longer eating at me as they once were every sober (and withdrawing) moment of my life, I've only had the mildest, hardly noticeable buzzes from Methadone...
I'd heard from both friends and folks online that Grapefruit Juice can act as a potentiator and augment parts of the effects of Methadone, so since the first day on it I've drank around one glass of it shortly after dosing, with very, very little noticeable difference. That is until today, when I decided to, rather than only drink a glass of grape fruit juice, chug half a carton after around 40 minutes from my dose, and have since nearly consumed the whole thing after taking a liking to the effects which basically produced a very subtle, yet pleasant buzz comparable in strength to drinking slightly over one alcoholic drink, only with a feeling more catered toward my style. (I'm actually getting a very, very, very light nod going on. Not enough to nod out, but enough to cause me to relax enough to close my eyes and take it all in.)
Yet despite enjoying utilizing this little trick, I am curious if it can pose any negative interactions with the drug, such as: Could the buzz possibly be a result of the Methadone being more rapidly metabolized into my system, and thus possibly decreasing it's duration. Could the acidic nature of the juice possibly be breaking down part of the Methadone still being absorbed within my system? Might this effect eventually no longer work after my body is fully stabilized on the Methadone? If I were to no longer drink Grapefruit Juice with my Methadone, might I experience slight withdrawal like feelings?
Though I know a reasonable amount of drugs and their effects, this particular interaction is something I know very little about, and only made use of it after hearing it has an interaction with orally taken opiates by a friend and a few people online, (if not coming from people who have demonstrated enough knowledge on the subjects of drugs, I would have scoffed as it being ridiculous and likely have never bothered to try it.) With the aforementioned four concerns also being rumors I've come across, I decided I'd bring this to the folks at Blue-Light in hopes of being offered some enlightening insight into this curious interaction, it's benefits and it's possible downsides. (And even if there are further methods to augment the Methadone and thus give me an even nicer little buzz.)
So yeah, obviously I am still looking to feel good off this drug. Just because I've switched over to Methadone doesn't mean I'm a straight shooter. Despite the people of NA likely frowning upon an addict who doesn't want to basically despise feeling good off of all substances, I still greatly enjoy intoxicates, and would have loved if Heroin Maintenance made it to the US, as I'd obviously be on that asap. Likewise, I still play a role in the Drug counter culture, and am in favor of it all, looking at it as a personal freedom of the individual to choose for oneself.
Also, though I've specified this topic as dealing specifically with Methadone and Grapefruit Juice, anyone who is likewise curious about the effect of this with any other Opiates (or even other drugs) desiring to share their experience, etc, are by all means encouraged to. I'd not see that as deviating from the initial topic at hand, but rather expanding upon it.
Anyway, thanks for reading! For those who read my metaphoric story, I hope you didn't find it too pretentious (or flat out dorky as fuck.)
As an explanation I was compelled to phrase it that way in this particular topic as for me, Heroin literally was viewed as a form of romance, though not with a psychical entity, it certainly posed much of the seemingly nurturing, compassionate, and sensual aspects the best of relationships could only come close to. I even derived sexual pleasure from rubbing my fingers across the bags in my possession as I road back to my house from my hood of choice. So yeah, that should indeed illustrate the type of attachment to Heroin, which I termed a "New (or hidden) Sexuality."
Anyway, thanks for reading this slightly disjointed topic.