Meth will take over

[METHAMPHEDAMAN]

Recently I have been over come by an "addiction" to meth(amphedamene) I am currently only 15 years old and I am very ashamed of what I have turned into because of this drug, no longer was I a smart, polite, energetic, and friendly person (not to boast). This drug was taking over my emotions and my way of life every night I would stay up and get wasted as I did yesterday. I feel like I can't stop! I know I should stop but all I can think about is meth. I feel depressed every day, my friends get suspicious, and I'm just unhappy with life. For example: last night my gf who moved away months ago was texing me I've always been madly in love with her but i had just snorted a load of meth and I snapped at her I told her she was a bitch and I even called her a slut (the reason, because she is bullied by kids calling her these names) I am just getting out of control I can't take this Kimd of pressure anymore. I never pictured something like this happening but this addiction is just becoming out of hand, I need help I want my life back but every time I think of quitting, I just think about how much I hate the word I think about all the shit I been through and I don't wanna leave meth I don't know what to do. I feel on the verge of insanity for lack of a better word

 

[tripnotyzm]

Hey dude.
It's very concerning to read this post coming from such a young person..
You're 15 years old.. I know you have probably been told this time & time again, but you have a whole lot of life yet to experience.
How do you think things will turn out if you keep snorting meth through the rest of your teenage and young adult years..??
It is already starting to bring trouble to your life, and you realize this...
So the obvious thing for you to do is GET CLEAN, go to school and study... Forget about meth and other drugs for now.
15 years old is so young, the opportunities you currently possess are limitless.
If you think it is too late for you to change, you are wrong.
It will be too late when you see yourself living a life of poverty & crime, driven by constant acts of desperation all caused by one long-term untamed methamphetamine addiction that you should have taken care of when you were 15.
PM me if you need to talk to somebody.
Good luck

 

[GenericName12]

The feeling that there is no world outside the drug is an extremely common one so know that you are not alone in that feeling. Trust me, I feel the exact same way right now. A week ago the feeling was even stronger. A week from now the feeling will be less strong. The feeling will come and go but the longer you hold off the better it gets.

But it's still insanely scary and nobody is going to tell you that is will be easy.

You can get clean and you can do this. There is likely some form of free drug counseling in your area for teens if you do not want to talk to your family/friends about it.

 

[NeckHudson]

I feel for you. but you got this. for me I had to look at the world in a whole different way. now I totally loathe the way I used to be though it was only 30 days ago exactly.. I actually enjoy waking up in the morning and just drinking a coffee and going to work. I have less experience with meth.. though I have stayed up for days on binges, its a take it or leave it type of thing for me. but I know a good amount of ex-tweekers who are completely clean and sober. the main thing is NEVER GIVE UP, and commit to at least trying to quit... if it doesn't work out you know the marching powder aint going anywhere. I came off a gram of day of black tar heroin, and I gotta say its way better right now than I was a month ago. I understand they are two different substances but addiction is a set of behaviors the substance of choice is less important.

REMEMBER: 1.Never give up.
2. The marching powder is not going anywhere.
3. Stay busy
4. Create realistic goals. I like to think of it as my personal stepladder. like finish school, then land a job, work that job for 6 months to a year, go back to school, finish school, land a new job in a higher pay scale... etc. that was a generic one I know but the step ladder has helped me out so fuckin much its no joke. it can be used in sobriety goals as well. just make it for yourself. keep us posted.

 

[herbavore]

You are going to have to get help to do this. What is your relationship with your parents like? Do you think they would be supportive of getting you some help? You need to commit to this now and start with a plan. You will need to confide in someone in your life--a sibling or a close friend, to give you the strength to get help.

PM me if you want. I'm a mom. I might be able to help you figure out a way to talk to your parents. I'm so glad you came on here and posted in TDS. You can get off this and go back to who you were. You have not permanently damaged anything and your brain and body can heal. You just need support and faith.

 

[bunnymunro]

Man, the weird thing about meth is that it tricks you into thinking that you need it.
When you get out its clutches, you will look back at these times and at your mindset at present, and probably kick yourself.
Don't get me wrong, I am not saying that you won't want to use again, you probably will, but once you step away from it for even a week, you will be able to see that its not really as good as it tells you it is.
But as others have said, you need to be able to learn to step away while you are young, because it can really stuff up your life.
Good luck with it, the first step you have made in realising that it is an issue for you is very important.

 

[Chipping Away]

Dude, I can relate.

I was 16 when I first tried it. That turned in to 9 year thing. It was horrible.

Being only 15 I'm sure your time with it is short, so physically you shouldn't have too many problems. When I quit it took 6 months for my energy to return but I don't remember any physical WD's ( withdrawals) so I'm pretty sure it's not physically addictive.You are dealing with a mental addiction.

You need to distance yourself from other users. Who cares who they are you need to stay away. I moved cross country cause I was so saturated in it and it kept showing up. I remember thinking I would never make it to 30 y/o and if I hadn't stopped I don't think I would have. It will destroy your life in more ways than one. I wish you would go to your parents ( if possible, I didn't have any to go to at that age)and tell them you need some help.

Meth is the most evil drug that exists(IMO,IME), it will make you do things you would not ever even think about sober, and you will regret it for many many years.Get out now.

P.S if your parents are doing it, I would go talk with a school consoler.