My latest meth experiences: kinda meh, frankly.
Everyone always talks about how meth is TEH BIG EVIL and once you try it, you're doomed to a life of toothless face-picking hell. That is so not my experience. Especially lately.
Let me tell you about me and meth. I don't smoke it and I don't IV it. I rail it or eat it. I've been doing meth occasionally for fifteen years. My highest usage rate was about every other weekend, for perhaps six months. Before and after that, my average is about every two months. I have gone over a year at certain times. It's never interfered with my life in any significant way, and I don't consider myself an addict.
I have to say all that because of the reputation of the drug. But frankly, the meth I've been getting lately is kinda boring me. I bought a bag recently and it looked great - glittery, crystal clear shards. From Canada, I was told. I was excited.
Then I noticed: this doesn't quite smell right. Meth has a certain odor, and this didn't have it. But ok, maybe it's a different wash or something, I don't know. So, chopped it, laid it out, snarfed it up and....
A mild buzz. That's it. Okay, Nikki, maybe your tolerance has been increased by the adderall you've been taking lately. Try another line. I did.
Same thing. No rush. And noticeably, no burn, either. The drip was positively mild, too. Looks like my pretty shards have been stepped on all to hell. Shit. I could take a couple of Adderall and get a stronger rush than this.
So I put the bag away and got out the coke. Now, I think coke is a slightly wimpy stim. But at least it wears off soon enough so you can actually get to sleep by, say, dawn. So if the payoff is small, at least the investment isn't much either.
The intense rush is the only reason for putting up with all the drawbacks of meth. If it isn't going to be a body-slam, then there's no point in doing it!
So all that hype about how once you try meth, you're a slave forever? Nah. If Miss Crystal doesn't start delivering some better times to me soon, I'm going to have to kiss her goodbye forever.