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Low dose methamphetamine mediates neuroprotection through a PI3K-AKT pathway - PubMed
High doses of methamphetamine induce the excessive release of dopamine resulting in neurotoxicity. However, moderate activation of dopamine receptors can promote neuroprotection. Therefore, we used in vitro and in vivo models of stroke to test the hypothesis that low doses of methamphetamine...
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Since a severe overdose I have lost in my opinion, 25-40% of my brain capacity. I suffer from numbness in my legs, panic attacks, depersonalization, depression. None of this happened before I stopped breathing for 7 minutes.
Now I have seen lots of post demonizing meth, and I agree with them wholeheartedly. When I use meth, past and present, (though it seems I have been able to break through hallucinations, delusions, paranoia etc with reason). While this is an entire other subject I do believe meth allows us to see things that we normally can’t. Spirits, demons, other things that are real, just not real in our physical world.
My point being here, I have been using meth occasionally the last few weeks, for me I can only use it once (a shot of .05-.1 of high purity crystal) a week, it takes me a few days to recover. But I feel it has drastically boosted my brain capacity, critical thinking, response time, coordination.. motivation.. I went back to the gym for the first time today in months.
I believe that using drugs can “reset” some of our brain that is “dormant” or basically in homeostasis.. but I used to wonder how I’d feel if I never touched any drugs how smart I would be, and maybe the answer is more depressed than after all the drugs I have.
I don’t know where this new wave of motivation has came from, the only explanation being I’ve shot meth, heroin (but that was about a week ago, used a gram in 3 days) and cocaine .. after a period of sobriety.
I just feel a new sense of purpose and discipline and the only contributing factor I can say would be the meth, either rewiring or “resetting” something in my brain. I was near suicidal before this relapse but I just signed a new apartment lease, I got a promotion, I just ordered a book “the secret teachings of all ages” I am diving deep into the spiritual realm and the purpose of life and I have to accredit that to one, my relentlessness, but two, to methamphetamine doing something to my brain.
Thoughts? Conclusions? Throw me in the asylum?
