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  • BDD Moderators: Keif’ Richards

Meth psychosis in only 3 days?!

No I know that & trust me when I say this, I Do method now every couple weeks recently been doing it more like 3 times every 2 weeks.

But back 2 years ago that's when I was a TWEAKER that's when I was addicted, staying up 4-5 nights out of a week for 3-4 months. I don't do even close to that anymore, I also went into a severe 9 day psychosis/ OD on meth and ended up in ICU. So yeah trust me I've been in the dope game enough to see what it does.

HEY I have a weird scenario that I don't know what to do about. Well as today was day 5 my psychosis started early and ALL DAY. So all the stand off cops etc were behind my window where I was around all day & about an hour ago my.psychosis started fading away and they disappeared obviously.


Buuuut...yeah theirs a I don't know? A psychosis straggler? Lol? He's running around the back of my window legitly back and forth screaming for back up I think? He hasn't gone away in the past # hours and worst I hear him running but the visual of him is missing? Just the voice is their

WTF SO I have a glitch in my fucking MIND?!! Something tells me even when I go to sleep tonight he's still gonna be there.... Thoughts???
 
IME once you've spent two days high on meth and don't sleep but don't get high the third day you get a little out of it it just gets worse the longer you stay up i stayed up for about 2 weeks once and tried to kill myself even though i had a toddler and was a single parent don't underestimate the insanity meth can cause
 
4 days is max for me before things start getting wierd. Stranged looping thoughts and internal dialog and the phantom radio station constantly playing songs in your head. Fortunately by day 4 my g is finished so i never found out how much worse it can get. I would have liked to see a shadow person at least once though. Closest i got was hearing gnomes having a party outside in my garden in the middle of the night.

Food, vitamins, water and (for me at least) some alcohol helps to keep things sane even if you dont get any sleep, it does help alot. The last thing you want to do is eat but when you force yourself to it tastes amazing due to the hightened senses.
 
I get movie theatre vision. Where everything looks like cinematic like just ASKING psychosis. I don't move when I get it by day 3 or 4. My psychosis is so frightening I can't stand seeing those cop visuals. At least not outside or unexpected. Its fucking scary I can't even explain.

I'm.still waiting for someone to comment on my psychosis situation though. Why do I keep the same full blown psych everytime? I know voices are considered psych to some people depending on what their saying to you (Talking bad, negatives about you creating a story) but for me I don't cause I can tell its fake. The full blown psychs however, are always the same. Stand off cops same cops each time with m16s? Why? Any insight?
 
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Isnt psychosis built off your mind? Like what you see is supposedly your deepest hidden fear or something? I thought i read that somewhere.
 
why would you be surprised by any of this OP?

over time psychosis becomes more easy to achieve as it becomes part of everyday life. that's how serious mental health problems come from meth abuse

hence cut down use if you cant sleep its bad over time
 
Hard to explain what I mean exactly, Psychosis is still absolutely terrifying to me but I'm just surprised at how well I can function when its present & especially how severe mine is when I have it. Not saying I'm the only meth user ever to be able to react this way, but mine is pretty fucking intense compared to some of homies states that they describe at 4-5+ days.

Like I said previously, its still a frustrating experience when in public & not expected. I hate it with a passion, only quality about stem abuse that truly puts me off actually. even though voices shadow people disturbing thoughts etc are apparent & included in meth use age. When by themselves not including full blown visual psychs, I don't mind them honestly.

Not saying I'm a deranged borderline schizophrenic already, but I can differentiate reality from mental pretty damn well. Only my experiences in the beginning of my tweak use (first 1-3months) were unprepared for & terrifying. Sleep deprivation was all new to me actually. Anyway yeah, now about 3 years in the dope game later. I've mastered the art of my own mind with it. Not saying that's an accomplishment to be proud of but it is what it is. I don't know I realize regardless of how well I am with psychosis I need to cut back on use leading into it because I know you can eventually go into one & some users never come back out. Scary shit, by the way sorry for the rambling I'm uhh yeah...Lifted :) lol
 
Like I said....Your breaking the law and that will make your theme about cops more real......Thats how it started with me.......Like someone said STOP! while your still ahead...
 
I just don't understand why you think dope is more important than your mind......Get to the point to where you think you have died and cannibals and zombies are after you and everybody is green like a zombie and the thing that is noticeable is there teeth....You grab a gun and start blowing peoples heads off. There is a point of no return. That is what you don't understand....You think that you have been thru this so many time that it's always going to turn out the same way........Either I couldn't handle the dope....or the psychosis was so intense that it took control over me......All I did was cry out to God for help....I needed it.......Meth was my favorite drug out of them all so I know what your going thru....But when I abstained the psychosis just kept getting worse and worse because I was in jail that I thought was a cannibal infested human meat market to chop people up in the end times......My theme is Religous. Yours is about cops.....I think mine had a lot to do with my up ringing ......Being made to go to church every Sunday.....Also there where tons of other drugs that I was using at the same time too so it could of been a mixture of a bad combo.
 
I don't know if you have read this but, this is my story in short.




Okay when I was 20 in 05......I started to get paranoid about my ex having another relationship.....I was doing almost pure ICE everyday for two month's. I slept but not often.....I had sex with this gal about four months before me and my ex got together. She gave me a std....Well I go to the deprartment of human services and get all cleaned up. It was one that can be cured. So After almost a year of being with my ex I started to get really paranoid because At the department they asked me do I want a blood test for HIV. and I said yes but I never went back for the results. So I start asking my friend. Do you think I gave her HIV? and they said no but i was convinced that I did......So at the beginning of April I just couldn't shake the thought that I killed her. She knew something was wrong but I wouldn't say out of fear I was going to go to prison. Then crap really started to hit the fan. I heard a voice say PILLS. It was a commanding voice. And I thought my roommates where trying to drug me. So my roommate and I agree to go back to the department and see the result's. Well when we got there everybodies conversation seemed like it was aimed at me.





I started to hear Herpes and other STD's from my friends mouth but he said he didn't say anything. I go back there and they do my blood pressure and My heart was beating so fast and hard she was like did you do drug's....and walked out to get somebody. I walked out and went to the car and my roommate had to get some teeth pulled so we went to go do that which was only like a half mile away. And I could hear my ex screaming.....I thought I was in a grand theft auto game and the police where just trying to find a reason to bust me.....I left my friend and walked all around the city regretting that I never gotten the result's. I thought my ex was at every corner and all I wanted to do is see her. After finally walking for 7 hours across the whole city I went to a payphone and I called the cop's. The operator that answered was a K9 officer that I stole like 10 gram's of 98% pure coke from two years prior so that made me even more paranoid. I called the cops and told them I gave a gal HIV. You can imagine there reaction and the leading cop that talked to me I thought he was God in the flesh. I ask if I can be taken to a hospital where I could see my results.





Well after fearing I was going to die and making a scene and the lobby TV wouldn't stop talking to me. The cop that worked at the hospital called the cop that took me there and I went to jail for a bench warrent. I go to one or the worst jail in the midwest. Then I went thru detox for five days which I lost it by now.I get out and my roommate has this angry look on his face. I thought he was the devil.....So we go to the clubs I worked at and he loads a bowl of weed and I take a hit and the face got even madder. Now he had some E and asked did I want some so I can chill and I took all five when I was supposed to take one and I wanted to die. I thought I was in Dawn of the dead and cannibals and zombies where after me. After making a big scene at a store a block away. Two cops come and one beats the crap out of me and throw's me into his unit and there I go back to jail the same day. They asked me what did I take and how much and I said five so they threw me into a stretcher and I thought for sure I was going to get chopped up and shot me up in both forarm's with some gun that knocked me out. I wake up in detox and then I go home.





My fear of my ex cheating on me consumed me so I wanted to see her but I was in no shape to see her. But I did anyway despit her telling me not to come over. Hear voice changes into that first cop that arrested me and she grow's a blond beard and I thought I could make things move with my mind and everything and made her look bad in front of the entire neighborhood and I walk and she's walking behind me and then a cop comes andtells me I look high so I go back to jail but in a different county. I get out over night andby this time I had lost it. I invited my ex to come over and I told her I gave her HIV and that I cheated on her and a bunch of other stuff.....She said that she was going home and my friend took her home. After about an hour I thought what my friend really did was strangle her and throw her down a hole. Now the cannibal thing was getting to me bad so I go to this house that I ran to and there where red and blue light's on the house and I thought they where cops and they could help me kill the cannibals. So I break there window with the weed pipe I had in my hands...They call the cop's and I go to jail a fourth time. By this time I thought everybody was going to kill me. I stayed in jail for two months get out and get help. My ex breaks up with me I still hear voices but I'm on med's.....And it was truly a living nightmares.
 
(No pun intended) lol!



For some reason mods I can't seem to edit so please forgive me for the extra posting!
 
Jesus fucking Christ, I only did about 4 lines last night & it was the Starr of my 1 day......1 DAY & I'm already getting visuals on walls in the dark etc BAD this shit is fucking GOOD. Anyway no more tonight gonna sleep & cut back for a while week or 2 and just do H for awhile. Damn though I think because I had H in me last night I wasn't feeling it really after the 1 1/2 lines I did so I did around 4-5 (with this shit recently 2 lines had me on my level so yeah...H was to blame for this hitting me so hard haha) around 11pm last night and the visuals my vision in general etc are FUCKED Up. No psychosis after a day obviously but yeah this some good crystal.
 
I myself do not partake in crystal but here where I live theres is a skyrocket percent of ppl who are useing that bath salts shit unknowingly. They're being sold the junk as meth & having similar effects as you describe. I don't know 4 sure but its now out of the realm of possibility. Id say doing dope piriod is a mistake but one day you will decide your sick of it and quit. Its an epidemic here, sadly.
 
Well I mean that's psychosis it can happen on any stim that keeps you awake. Meth psychosis normally is just more severe than others due to how potent it is & yeah I'm sure I probably will but I don't do crystal "every day" I take small breaks after a binge to recover repeat etc. I'm am addict but not a sense I do it "daily".
 
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