Meth Psychosis and reality discussion

[Siccness909]

Wassup guys was just curious, is it normal or maybe in a way sad lol I guess that I've been in meth psychosis so many times that I can walk in the streets in full blown amp psychosis and look normal & not freak out? BTW my Psychosis's personally are ALWAYS law enforcement involvement scenarios which are genuine STAND OFFS

I walk around and hear from cops phrases such as "suspect is high on methamphetamine approach with caution" "confirmed go for the kill" I mean its really Intense and of course fragile state to be in.

The first time I ever entered the state when dabbling with meth I completely LOST MY MIND on the floor twitching but also a gram of meth included so simultaneous OD. All bad never again can I describe what I seen

Anyway 2 experienced Years later still now heavily addicted to meth binge so hard about 3-4 day sleep deprived and at times off .5-gram every 2 weeks or so I enter it but can fully keep my self sane and tell myself it's not real and go through 2-3 hours even publicly and walk amongst hallucinated helicopters, FBI agents with weapons full visual mind you of body aiming at me, calls for back up etc again ALL in FULL BLOWN delusional psychosis & just not even care its their aside from sure a little agitation and elevated BP but nothing I can't handle.

Honestly is that really sad or weird I can react so well I used to fear sleep dep psychosis cause its like a legit walking dreamed nightmare fully awake/aware you know? Pure Terror...used to freak out frantically screaming in fear of those states now I walk like its not their and just let it ride.

Anyway opinions wanted, really interested in hearing thoughts

 

[MrSpeedyG]

Lucky you lol, I suppose it's a good thing you can differeentiate dellusions from reality?

 

[tweex]

You know, antipsychotics do a pretty excellent job.

 

[tyrael]

....Honestly is that really sad or weird I can react so well I used to fear sleep dep psychosis cause its like a legit walking dreamed nightmare fully awake/aware you know? Pure Terror...used to freak out frantically screaming in fear of those states now I walk like its not their and just let it ride.

Anyway opinions wanted, really interested in hearing thoughts

Sad? Yes! Weird? Yes!

I'd firstly say if you're (especially knowingly) entering a state of psychosis - STOP USING! You're doing damage to yourself! Also, from what you're describing I wouldn't call it a full case of psychosis - if one is in the depths of a psychotic episode, one will not know it, however you're definitely showing all the symptoms of psychosis. As such, you may think you're in control, but you're not - you don't know what you may do to yourself or otherwise around you. You are putting others in danger by doing this. Last time, and every other time before that you may have been able to tell yourself "it's not real" and dismiss it....it's that one time you can't which unfortunately will end badly.

If there was ever a sign of an addiction progressing too far....this is it! See you're GP, seek treatment (if not for others you're putting in danger, for yourself for the damage you're physically and psychologically doing).

You know, antipsychotics do a pretty excellent job.

Why try to treat a serious ADR caused by over consumption of an illegal drug? Really not the best course of treatment.


Anyway, good luck mate. I hope things turn out for the best!

 

[.:Holy::Toast:.]

I wonder if this would even classify as a psychosis because you are able to differentiate between your hallucinations and reality, perhaps just sleep deprivation and drug induced hallucinations.

 

[MrSpeedyG]

I wonder if this would even classify as a psychosis because you are able to differentiate between your hallucinations and reality, perhaps just sleep deprivation and drug induced hallucinations.

Yeah isn't psychosis not being able to differentiate what is real and what is not? Like if you are well aware and not bothered about the hallucinations then you are not psycotic you are just hallucinating whereas if you were unable to tell the difference then you would be psycotic?

I dunno dude, you might be playing with fire and as mentioned it could just take the one single time that it does fuck you up.

 

[BlueHues]

Wassup guys was just curious, is it normal or maybe in a way sad lol I guess that I've been in meth psychosis so many times that I can walk in the streets in full blown amp psychosis and look normal & not freak out? BTW my Psychosis's personally are ALWAYS law enforcement involvement scenarios which are genuine STAND OFFS

I walk around and hear from cops phrases such as "suspect is high on methamphetamine approach with caution" "confirmed go for the kill" I mean its really Intense and of course fragile state to be in.

The first time I ever entered the state when dabbling with meth I completely LOST MY MIND on the floor twitching but also a gram of meth included so simultaneous OD. All bad never again can I describe what I seen

Anyway 2 experienced Years later still now heavily addicted to meth binge so hard about 3-4 day sleep deprived and at times off .5-gram every 2 weeks or so I enter it but can fully keep my self sane and tell myself it's not real and go through 2-3 hours even publicly and walk amongst hallucinated helicopters, FBI agents with weapons full visual mind you of body aiming at me, calls for back up etc again ALL in FULL BLOWN delusional psychosis & just not even care its their aside from sure a little agitation and elevated BP but nothing I can't handle.

Honestly is that really sad or weird I can react so well I used to fear sleep dep psychosis cause its like a legit walking dreamed nightmare fully awake/aware you know? Pure Terror...used to freak out frantically screaming in fear of those states now I walk like its not their and just let it ride.

Anyway opinions wanted, really interested in hearing thoughts

Call it what you want....Strangely, this impresses me as a fellow drug addict that's experienced paranoid delusions from stimulants! Hallucinated helicopters, and you're just walking around ignoring that shit?! Yeah, you should stop with the crystal, but you're a fucking trooper that's for sure!

 

[Siccness909]

I've lost it probably genuinely 2x to where I was screaming for cops to not shoot me thinking it was real etc but as of now, I've been in many "psychosis" events to where my mind played it out like a story, like my mind was trying to fuck with me BAD. Let's just say if I wasn't focused on how fake it really is I would of DEFINITELY lost it, it is obviously hard to just walk amongst thepublic when its going on I still get agitated.

I mean its like my psychosis's are like I said ALWAYS stand offs with law enforcement and they get as HARDCORE all out as it gets. For example I'll approach a corner and Ot plays out like a story pop up book, FBI agents etc pop up like targets but look REAL as a real human in reality and say things like "GET DOWN" "ALL UNITS APPROACH WITH CAUTION SUSPECT IS ARMED" "TAKE HIM DOWN SUSPECT IS HIGH ON LARGE AMOUNTS OF METHAMPHETAMINE" Lol I mean for someone who goes into that for sleep dep no matter how used to psychosis they are would go APE SHIT at how fuckin scary it is. But I just stare at the ground to avoid it taking me over and getting on the ground with my arms on my head like a fucking schitzo lol

I literally walk past tanks, black hawks, humvees, RPGs etc the helicopters actually have cops on ropes propelling down towards me and shoot missiles at my body which I close my eyes as they hit me and vanish LOL My states are suppose to be FUCKED UP but I've learned to deal with them as they progress and don't wig out when I experience them. I don't know I just find it so interesting I can bypass all the crazyness without a problem.

And I would still call it PSYCHOSIS vs reality because it is still hard and frustrating trying to act normal with things popping up at me and shooting st me lol definitely not reality, In a way I do see your point though. Also quick question, would anyone know why my states with voices and psychosiss are always really sinister? Cars passing me hearing body's being chainsawed from the engine sounds, hearing family's being killed and them screaming from different houses?? Not normal obviously but even for sleep dep its crazy, is it justmy mind? cause it just seems to go really far, scary I don't lose it either

 

[sonicwhite]

My psychosis first one was about cops....then changed to cannibals and zombies......I was in jail for two months with no advocate so I was just melting away. That psychosis lasted seven months. I learned my lesson is the point.....There is no reason to treat your mind with torture......But hey if you can stand those commanding voices then well my advice will not help. Just think one day you may become brain dead from all this.

 

[Intenselife]

Lol this reminds me when i worked night shift at one of my old jobs a few years ago, and my meth addicted job friend (a young female) would always tell me about stuff regarding meth addiction, since i recreationally used it and asked a lot of questions about it.

Needless to say amongst our many many conversations, she told me when she would be going home from work she would be walking and seeing stuff come out of the ground, and people who aren't their, and the trees getting bigger/smaller floating white stuff in the air etc. And she was one of the lucky few like you who was still able to look and act fairly normal despite of everything like a weird bizzare dreamy different world. She also said it would be so bright, and things just looked so dreamy.

However i have seen many people that can't handle it as well, and they would be walking around on the sidewalks, looking extremely unhealthy, talking to themselves while walking real fast, sometimes stopping to look at things carefully etc. Idk your post reminded me about my friend and the information i have stored somewhere in my brain that relates to your post.

 

[Siccness909]

Yeah honestly unless I go on binges for 4-6 days I hardly even look like a meth addict. Not in denial either, I've abused it quite consistently for about 2 years nowand have never picked at my skin etc. I'm literally becoming somewhat immune to Tinas harsh side effects in so many ways its sad how I've learned to deal with this. I can act normal in public and never get a 2nd look for anyone even when I'm spun outta my mind.

& yeah I'm very experienced with that dream like state, it changes your entire perception on reality. Its like a altered view on reality everything looks so distorted and has this mystical aurora around it. It's called well from my research "Oneirophrenia", caused by severe prolonged sleep dep. It's pretty cool and interesting of course when in the right mindstate and not wigging out