yonhyakunijuu
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Greetings
This weekend I have had my very first meth binge. I bought a half G because my friend said it was more economical *smh*
I am well acquainted with other stimulants such as Adderal and "Base" Amphetamine .
I decided to ingest the Meth orally rather than smoking or IVing... My theory was that if I used it orally , the addiction potential would be lower vs the other ROA i mentioned.
Anyway -- At first , I took about just under 0.1 in a capsule..
When the effects started I thought to myself "I don't see what the hype is about , this is just like Adderal but maybe a little stronger"
So , I thought like "yeah , i can totally just pull off a short stint with this and drop it forever and never use again" .. Now I'm having second thoughts .
See, Ive been doing it now 3 days in a row which I know is quite typical for a lot of regular users and first timers too , I slept for like 3-4 hours the first night with the aid of Valium and woke up the next morning and continued to use but this time decided to ingest it nasally .. I feel like snorting it is more addictive than taking it orally in a capsule like I was.. The first red flag I noticed was that I was starting to think about money a lot in a way like "how can I get more money" And it wasn't directly for more meth but I would say it was a meth related activity
Anyway fast forward through the day I ended up taking much more today than the first day , and it was almost like being sober but just with MUCH more confidence and precision etc with very mild euphoria .. It's now 5:30AM and i had another line (not sure how much but less than 0.1) and I realized at that moment that I really enjoy this shit..
So i began to research it just now and I've read some horrible stuff , and the fact that I've now developed like a taste for this mediocre yet alluring buzz kind of frightens me.
I know it's neurotoxic as fuck, not to mention all the other nasty side effects .
I don't want this lifestyle to consume me. I'm in the very very early stage of the addiction still I think however I can see this going very wrong , very quickly .
Basically , I've come here for advice . After reading other BL threads re; meth use I've decided that I don't want to repeat this EVER. I'm not even coming down yet but I am so sure that I am waaay out of my depth when it comes to managing this habit that I really would like to stop it now before it actually becomes a serious issue.
So far my plan is ;
1) Just empty the rest of it out into the sink or toilet or whatever. This will symbolize me being in control , and it not controlling me.
2) Changing my phone number and completely cutting of all other drug users
3) Seek mental health i,e therapy and just try to nail the root cause of what drew me to do this in the first place ; I think I was depressed.
Is it really as addictive as they say it is ?? I quite enjoy the feeling , I mean , it's okay , it's nothing special but at the same time... i seem to be enjoying it more the more I use it ..
Is what they say true with the whole "You never just do meth once ?" I'm sure it's propaganda but I wanna hear opinions from some REAL people not a anti drug commercial
I apologize if this sounds like a total cop out to users who have been using it for much longer and are really struggling , and i sympathize for those people deeply
but if anybody has ANY advice to offer me on how to just put this behind me forever PLEASE teach me ..
I think my method will work if i actually stick to it and just stay busy but we all know it's just not that simple.
So yeah I'm just here for advice really ...
Lastly , Am I gonna cop any actual brain damage from this 3 day binge ??
I would assume so , but it's nothing I wouldn't be able to bounce back from 100% after a month or so of taking care of myself , right ??
As long as I eat healthy, excercise regularly and stuff I probably will just recover right?
The way it wreaks havoc on your brains dopamine just sounds horrific .
Any comments would be highly appreciated !!!
Thank you
This weekend I have had my very first meth binge. I bought a half G because my friend said it was more economical *smh*
I am well acquainted with other stimulants such as Adderal and "Base" Amphetamine .
I decided to ingest the Meth orally rather than smoking or IVing... My theory was that if I used it orally , the addiction potential would be lower vs the other ROA i mentioned.
Anyway -- At first , I took about just under 0.1 in a capsule..
When the effects started I thought to myself "I don't see what the hype is about , this is just like Adderal but maybe a little stronger"
So , I thought like "yeah , i can totally just pull off a short stint with this and drop it forever and never use again" .. Now I'm having second thoughts .
See, Ive been doing it now 3 days in a row which I know is quite typical for a lot of regular users and first timers too , I slept for like 3-4 hours the first night with the aid of Valium and woke up the next morning and continued to use but this time decided to ingest it nasally .. I feel like snorting it is more addictive than taking it orally in a capsule like I was.. The first red flag I noticed was that I was starting to think about money a lot in a way like "how can I get more money" And it wasn't directly for more meth but I would say it was a meth related activity
Anyway fast forward through the day I ended up taking much more today than the first day , and it was almost like being sober but just with MUCH more confidence and precision etc with very mild euphoria .. It's now 5:30AM and i had another line (not sure how much but less than 0.1) and I realized at that moment that I really enjoy this shit..
So i began to research it just now and I've read some horrible stuff , and the fact that I've now developed like a taste for this mediocre yet alluring buzz kind of frightens me.
I know it's neurotoxic as fuck, not to mention all the other nasty side effects .
I don't want this lifestyle to consume me. I'm in the very very early stage of the addiction still I think however I can see this going very wrong , very quickly .
Basically , I've come here for advice . After reading other BL threads re; meth use I've decided that I don't want to repeat this EVER. I'm not even coming down yet but I am so sure that I am waaay out of my depth when it comes to managing this habit that I really would like to stop it now before it actually becomes a serious issue.
So far my plan is ;
1) Just empty the rest of it out into the sink or toilet or whatever. This will symbolize me being in control , and it not controlling me.
2) Changing my phone number and completely cutting of all other drug users
3) Seek mental health i,e therapy and just try to nail the root cause of what drew me to do this in the first place ; I think I was depressed.
Is it really as addictive as they say it is ?? I quite enjoy the feeling , I mean , it's okay , it's nothing special but at the same time... i seem to be enjoying it more the more I use it ..
Is what they say true with the whole "You never just do meth once ?" I'm sure it's propaganda but I wanna hear opinions from some REAL people not a anti drug commercial
I apologize if this sounds like a total cop out to users who have been using it for much longer and are really struggling , and i sympathize for those people deeply
but if anybody has ANY advice to offer me on how to just put this behind me forever PLEASE teach me ..
I think my method will work if i actually stick to it and just stay busy but we all know it's just not that simple.
So yeah I'm just here for advice really ...
Lastly , Am I gonna cop any actual brain damage from this 3 day binge ??
I would assume so , but it's nothing I wouldn't be able to bounce back from 100% after a month or so of taking care of myself , right ??
As long as I eat healthy, excercise regularly and stuff I probably will just recover right?
The way it wreaks havoc on your brains dopamine just sounds horrific .
Any comments would be highly appreciated !!!
Thank you