Venting Meth Escape

[yandere]

greetings to all. so before i get into what I'm going to talk about is how I initially got introduced to meth, which was buy an ex boyfriend of mine. initially i heard acquaintances speak about it but i was still a baby (16) didn't care about it until i laid my eyes on my ex boyfriend and was willing to do whatever it took for me to impress him. few weeks we went at it but eventually broke up. that's when I also broke up with the meth in the process cause I had no idea how to go about buying it for myself.

fast forward i graduated from high school and got my own place, life hasn't been treating me the best so i decided to buy some meth for myself and it became a habit lately but recently i went completely cold turkey cause i got a shock when I didn't reach where I wanted to be with the amount I usually buy. so in a nut shell my tolerance went quickly high in a short space of time (a month) so that kinda threw me off because im very educated when it comes to addiction and the signs but also how there's such a stigma against meth or hard core drugs but it's only been 2 weeks without smoking, and I do think about it from time to time you know, don't blame me.

so in actual fact i just would like to know some of your early days and how you went about it? subconsciously knowing that you driving yourself to a ditch but still heading to it anyway? just at 20km per hour lol. and if you interpreted my joke in the wrong way loosen up lol

anyone who relates?

 

[speed-limper]

Crazily I use meth to break other bad habits. It makes me just forget about them. Binge for two weeks, stop any other drugs, then crash and stop the meth.

But damn I love the sex on it.

 

[rentedbythehour]

In the early days I had no issue doing it and stopping. Having thoughts/cravings is very normal. It's what makes meth so hard to put down for good. The relapse rate is pretty high, even after years of not using.
There is a stigma with meth/hard core drugs as you say, but I don't know if it's deserved. Meth is like any other drug. It's going to affect people differently. Some people can fully function and have a normal life while using. Others are the people that gave meth that stigma. Some people can use occasionally, others can't put it down.
As someone who is an every day, long term user, I would tell you to leave it alone. It does wreck havoc on your body, more than most people know. It will affect your relationships with friends, family, employers, significant others. It does affect your mental health. It's really not worth it for something that will eventually leave you numb.

 

[garygroundwork]

I use it as an escape. I use it once a week. One dose. I use it for sex. Its the best feeling ever.

Even though it's never more than once a week, I know I have a problem because it's all I think about all week.