meth/e/wiz - first time meth - first hallucinations

[missing_one]

This is a repost of a previous report that didn't have much detail. Seeing as I'm still feeling too shattered to do anything much except bludge around bluelight, I am reposting with details.

Substances imbibed:

• unknown qty/purity, small amount of crystal meth (labelled 'ice') cut into speed. i have never had meth before.
• speed, unknown qty/purity, about 5-10 lines. i have had smaller quantities of speed now and then, up to maybe 5 lines, though its very occasional.
• 'e' (felt definite mdma luvvyness, saw no mda lighting type effects). i have previously had what i think was an mdma/mda combination pill, once. (i say think 'cause i really only have more experienced mates who had 'the same' pill, and comparing my feelings to reading to go on. basically it was def MDxx and what im told was a fairly strong pill, swalled whole)
• alcohol (approx 3/4 large glass of rum, mixed with coke and imbibed over hours at start of the main party) .. beer at the last party. actually i dont have coke or coffee at all usually, so i suppose the caffeine's in the coke's worth mentioning.
• couple of cigs .. normally i dont smoke

Sorry that the times are real vague in this report, time wasn't really of my concern. For environment ... it was pretty matey: dealer put most of the stuff down for free (I think there was some kitty returned from elsewhere, but for me it was free anyway), also he had everything he dished out, which made me more cool with the consumption.

• Day 1, ~8pm: fairly relaxed party at mate's place, did some drinking. some hours later, get e from dealer guy who is friend of friend, didn't drop it.
• Day 2 Morning, pre-dawn: bit of speed comes out, lines passed around. had about 3 lines(?).
• Day 2 Morning, post-dawn: dealer crushes two of the same e's for 5 of us, we snort them (the only prev. e i had, i had swallowed). From hereon time is very vague. When the e came up, I really recognised it taking effect, even though it was a small quantity. Soon I had the same love / no barriers / smoothness of movement / touch sensations increased / pupil dilation effects that i recognised from my previous e. The only effects I saw on others was reduction of barriers .. talking really kicked off, whereas previously I think a lot of people were sped up but starting to close up mentally, maybe even consider leaving. At some point here I remember focusing on my hearbeat, feeling how smooth and peaced out it was, real slow. I noticed my breathing was the same. I said something like "hey, im breathing real slow, I wonder how long I can stop for" .. and then lay down on the carpet. I remember saying something like "I feel soooo flat" .. I felt like I was one with the carpet. Anyway, I told a mate to time me and I close my eyes and stopped breathing for almost a minute. I remember hearing voices like "dude, you have to breathe!" hehe..
• Day 2 Morning, circa midday ("Taking in the beauty..."): E is in peak, I keep telling people I want to go outside. Dealer laughingly disses me as the cheap fuck, as nobody else was rolling much at all. Needless to say, I knew it was a joke and no hard feelings :D. Everyone is open, but not to the same extent or near... Nobody else wanted to come out in to the 'amazing world' with me , so I went on an errand to get some more smokes for a mate. Had a great time going through the different environments to get out of the building (corridoors, lifts with mirrors, foyers, gardens...) .. everywhere seemed to be lit and coloured in its own way, beautiful. Down the street, I had the chargey feeling & was cruising as if flying. I went to get the smokes, but forgot what kind was ordered. Bought the wrong pack & returned, ordering a pizza on the way even though I wasnt hungry. Obviously e'd mate didnt freak when he found out, just peacefully got his shoes on and came down to help me exchange 'em again (he 'knew' the chick at the store, heh!) .. I said something like "nah i dont want to come, she'll know you are getting smashed and stuff, im out of it, look at my pupils" and he goes "nah im always in there smashed". when we got back there, i heard her say "Oh, you!" .. though I dont know what the thought processes behind that exclamation were!
• Day 2, Afternoon ("Caring and sharing"): Getting back with the pizza and smokes, we started watching some movies, and had some more lines of speed over a few hours. I couldnt eat at all, I had zero appetite. Of course I 'shared' it with everyone else and a few hours later when it was just about all gone i realised i had been left a piece ... ate it eventually, dunno what time.
• Day 2 evening, circa nightfall ("Got any more?"): It was at this time that things started to go a bit pear shaped. More speed and then dealerguy cut some meth in to it. I say this coz i remember him getting it out, but I cant actually remember having it. I do remember that after that, when Fear & Loathing got put on TV (which I'd never seen before), I got to the point where I couldnt watch it because it was too scary watching things melt on screen. In hindsight, I reckon I would have gone paranoid at this point if I hadn't been on a great MDMA peak just before. Oh and at some point in the avo I got my shirt washed & had a shower too coz I had been ringing randoms in my phone to chat (no barriers! .. ran outta credit ) .. and had hatched a plan to go out again! Drank a shitload of water coz my throat and lips were constantly dry, but none of it got absorbed. I was pissing water.
• Day 2 Evening, circa 9:00 ("The Hallucination" + "Shit man, these people know I'm hammered"): Split the place with much comraderie after snorting another half pill of the same e a bit before (no idea of hours...). Went with a mate, who was going home. Got to train station, and remember looking at the rocks in the train tunnel. Over a few seconds, the finer shadows in their texture would blur in to a dense collage of chinese characters. I go to my (not quite so shattered) mate "wow, look at that Chinese graffiti". He's like "where??" .. I'm going "over there" .. he goes "what? maybe you're imagining it .." .. and I was. It flipped me a bit to realise I was hallucinating for the first time, but it didn't bother me. I think I was still buzzing from the recent half a pill and therefore accepted it and rolled right on... I did take care not to speak too loud, but turning and seeing faces staring I realised people knew I was well gone.
• Day 2 evening, before 10:00 : Got to city, went out to some bar for awhile, waiting to hook up with people. I went to play pool with some strangers, and started to see the characters in the poolfelt. That was fucked. Halfway through the game or so I heard some guy make some joke (or the end of it) about "....off my face!" and people burst out laughing. I started to get a bit self concious now, realising being alone in public smashed was not a good idea. Maybe the luvvydubbyness was wearing off? Oh, and I think I drank a schooner of beer here too... by this time (took a piss here too, but had been pissing back @ the party as well), piss was total water.
  Corresponded with the people I was planning to meet (two seperate parties), one was slammed & couldnt make it, one was running late, went for some food, called someone else, party down the other end of the city in the mean time. Walked, it was damn cold, met 'em and went in.
• Day 2 Evening, ~10:30???: I cant figure out the timeframe here. I mean, how could I go to the previous bar, play 2 or 3 games of pool, go to a restaurant, eat some dinner, pay, walk across the city and meet people at 10:30? I suppose it's possible, coz I remember I met my mates at 10:30 and I arrived in the city circa 9:30. Must have been a brisk walk! Had a beer here and started talking to people .. didnt feel so good, realised I was totally out of my element (it was a class bar, with covercharge, an all over 25's, mostly over 30's crowd - I'm 21 .. and it was someone's birthday)... decided to call it quits. Got home about 2am, slept 6hrs, couldnt get back to sleep.
• Day 3: Couldn't get back to sleep. Couldn't think straight. Couldn't go outside coz my pupils were still dilated as fuck. Played counter-strike on my computer but sucked hard at it, even though I could play the darkest levels wearing sunglasses and see everything .. heheh .. closed my window curtains but they were still too bright to look at. Bummer. Towards the end of the day, got worried about my little rehydration issue and downed some rehydration salts that I got for dealing with badass diarrhea overseas. Details in another thread, here .. interesting.
• Day 4 (now): Had about 10-11hrs sleep, woke up about 9am. Still unable to think entirely straight. Pupils back to normal, jaw hurting less .. etc.

I dunno what caused the hallucination or the failure in perception of others (ie: not telling that others could tell that I was off my face entirely)... but .. neither of those two things were within the bounds of the emotionally remixed but logically constant and safe experience I'd had previously on MDMA/MDA. I supposed it could have been the meth, snorting the MDMA, sleep deprivation, or probably a combination ... but basically I dont want to repeat it.

Its taking way too long to come off.

I've kind of decided it was due to the meth, so I wont be touching that again.

In future I think I will stick to possibly some minor speed consumption, with smaller amounts of e. This weekend did let me know that I could get basically the same buzz off a lot less e though, so I'm thinking that's good to put down in the memory banks.....'an experience'.

But .. I will watch fear & loathing again, this time straight :D

 

[Splatt]

Sweet man!
Thanks for posting