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meth binge paranoia in a relationship

MeltedMM said:
It's been 8 months now and he still believes his original story saying he saw me give this friend a sexual look then snapped out of it when my partner looked at me. We have spoken about it countless amount of time. We aren't together because of it. He says he's never cooked out before so he didn't this time. He's saying I am guilty and lying. Is it possible that I cooked out, I can't remember the things he points out, I was in la la land tired and pretty high. Is it possible that I was in some sort of meth induced sleep walk if something like that is possible.
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MeltedMM said:
It's put us both off meth. We still remain friends but we'll see how that goes. I'm just so confused. He keeps asking why I did it and presses me to tell him him the "truth" which would be me saying that I remember everything and admit to his accusations. He says I started it when he walked out the room, he came back and D was staring at me whilst I was on the lounge, he believes I did something. Thanx for your replies:) I'm so stuck here!
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This is clearly a very untrusting relationship.

If you're on a crazy meth binge and someone does something like that, you're supposed to just get over it because one of you was probably crazy at the time but it's hard to figure out who.
Besides, wtf is a sexual look anyway.
And especially since you have already admitted you were out of it, why is he constantly pressuring you? Honestly, he just seems like a jealous boyfriend and I certainly couldn't handle being in a relationship with someone like that.
 
He beleives that I'm lying about it still. One of us cooking out is not an option in his head. His explanation of the sexual look is the look I have when I look at him to make him melt, personally I don't know what look that is or if it even exists!
 
He has recently told me to never contact him again and to stay away from him. thank you. It's just so hard when I still don't know what happened and it tore us apart. We had no prior problems to this we had just moved in together and were so happy (apart from something in my life that made me a bit sad for a month) never has anyone seen two people that looked so much in love. It's a serious issue too so I need to get it resolved so I can rest my mind and be aware of what it actually was. I'm going to make an appointment with my states drug service clinic. Thank you all for your replies they were so helpful. This was my first time posting and I wasn't expecting any replies.
 
^Sorry to hear that - I hope you manage to get some help at the drug service clinic. Unfortunately it's impossible for us to really speculate on what happened - yes, it's entirely possible he imagined it, and yes, it's also entirely possible you did something and have no recollection of it...temporary blackouts are extremely common on stim binges. In any case such situations are something to be expected when using meth for that long with your partner, and if it ended up exploding as it did, perhaps there were other, deeper rooted issues in the relationship? In any case, I hope the two of you manage to sort this out soon. Good luck :)
 
You were using meth and apparently a lot of it or a high dose. So you're bound to be paranoid as apparently that's one of the side effects of crystal meth use/abuse. You wrote about contacting your state's drug services clinic good luck getting sober. The sober living forum here on bluelight can be helpful for some people.
 
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