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meth binge paranoia in a relationship

MeltedMM

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Please share some experiences with a week or longer meth binge that resulted in some form of you or your partner believing paranoid thoughts about the other having hidden agendas and meanings behind words and movements and ill intentions. My partner k and I were up for a week hitting it hard on quality meth when our mate D came to visit. Everything was normal until D and I were conversing about acrylic melting/furniture making. K had no knowledge on this topic so he listened with this topic words such as melt, glue, heat, bond, bend, thick ect are used often. He started breathing heavy and muttering things in a negative manner towards D and I. Assuming he was just off his head I thought little of it and continued our convo. When D left K went crazy accusing of talking sex code with D and claiming that my intentions and reasons behind any movement I made was towards D in a sexual manor. He claims he saw D perving on me and believes I knew about it and provoked it. Could I have been that out of it that I was in a drug induced form of sleep walking and did these things? Or is it K putting intentions and hidden meanings behind a normal conversation?
We were both really high and at that time verbally quiter and distant due to something else. If that makes a difference.
 
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Yeah, definitely sounds like standard stim binge paranoia to me. Have the two of you talked about it a bit more since you've come down? (although actually, waiting til the come down is over might be a better idea :\)
 
A week?!? After 48 hours up I'd think my girl was talking shit about me. Think I heard her call me an "asshole" or something....
Just a matter of a deprived, high mind running wild.
 
I'm confused with the problem. The binge is over? Why would K still have paranoid thoughts? How long ago was this?
You were both really high, that is obviously the problem!!! I really don't think there is anything else to this...
 
That is normal paranoia. I've been on a hard binge 2 years ago mixing bunch of drugs (Mephedorne,Methylone,MDPV,Viagra,Ketamin,GBL) for 48hours+ and I became really paranoid. Every words had different meanings for me. I tought everyone is against me, then I found out they are willing to kill me. (They weren't close friends just my dealer and his friends, but nice ones). I was seeing them putting eavesdropping devices all over the flat. I knew their plans, but I was so afraid and shocked I couln't escape. Obviously this all wasn't true, it was just the joke of my mind. It was really a hard situation, they couldn't help me at all, because I didn't trust in any step of their, but they didn't want to let me go out in this state. It was a piece of hell.
 
I had this shit off of a few days of a MDPV binge. It is hilarious looking back at it now. But yeah, it ruined a relationship of mine and was not funny for quite a long time...
 
It's been 8 months now and he still believes his original story saying he saw me give this friend a sexual look then snapped out of it when my partner looked at me. We have spoken about it countless amount of time. We aren't together because of it. He says he's never cooked out before so he didn't this time. He's saying I am guilty and lying. Is it possible that I cooked out, I can't remember the things he points out, I was in la la land tired and pretty high. Is it possible that I was in some sort of meth induced sleep walk if something like that is possible.
 
It's put us both off meth. We still remain friends but we'll see how that goes. I'm just so confused. He keeps asking why I did it and presses me to tell him him the "truth" which would be me saying that I remember everything and admit to his accusations. He says I started it when he walked out the room, he came back and D was staring at me whilst I was on the lounge, he believes I did something. Thanx for your replies:) I'm so stuck here!
 
I had a random fling where we tweaked for 3 days straight - we barely knew one another - basically just sex and tweak - we were in a hotel room and I picked up a phone and put it back down (it was on a desk). I was accused of trying to steal it, even though I literally just moved it to look at a book under it... That was v. v. uncomfortable!
 
Were you seeing them do things and thought they were planting bugs? He says he saw me moving my body in view of D even after he blocked his view a few times I supposedly kept moving to let him perve. I can't remember doing this . He says I was staring at d with a sexual look a couple times until he caught me and I stopped. He doesn't think he cooked out because he claims he saw me do these things. Can I ever help him see or am I the one that was cooking out?
 
Minus the paranoid thinking he claims he saw me do things. What could that be. He doesn't believe you can see things that aren't there he thinks it was legit real! I was pretty high but I'm not an attention seeker and I'm loyal so it wouldn't even cross my mind to do what he claims. Is it possible that what he saw was right and I cooked out and did them?
 
Were you seeing them do things and thought they were planting bugs?

Yeah well, it is not like a real visual hallucination. It is more likely an impression in my mind. When somebody touched the door frame, I tought he is planting bugs, but I didn't see any special, but I was soo damn sure in my thing. After 2-3 days when I told my story ppl told me it is not true, but I was still sure. By the time I admitted myself it was only because of the mix of stims, but who knows how long it takes to others. Just tell her/him to actually concentrate on that day, and try to beleive if it is a hallucination, I am sure he/she will know deep inside the truth.
 
8 months ago. He swears he saw what he accused me of. He has let go of the paranoid thoughts but still says he saw me do a few things that legit happened. Even if he did twist what he saw unknowingly that day he told me that he will never cook out. He thinks it'll never happen to him and that day was too real. He's been partying with drugs on weekends and so forth for 12 years now and thinks he can't be affected by them in this way.
 
I was staring at d with a sexual look a couple times until he caught me and I stopped.

Under the effect of meth, the users can hardly control their faces/face muscles, so it might happened as well without knowing it.
 
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